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Never Alone Again
NaruIno
Ino's POV
Man… what a night… what exactly happened?... I really don't remember… all I remember was… oh wait… yea… now I do. Naruto… he… he raped me… HE RAPED ME! He took advantage of me! That bastard! How dare he do such a thing to me! I didn't deserve something like this! I didn't! at least… I don't think I do… no… he didn't rape me… I gave in… damn… I want to move but… here I am on his bed… so scared.
I wonder… does he know exactly what he is doing? Did he knew? Is this what he wanted all along? Just to have my body…? No… I mean… I don't think so… I hope not… but still it happened… it was so fast and so blurry… all I know is its over…
My body… it hurts but I can't let him know… he wouldn't care as much as I thought he would right? After all… my heart is broken… maybe permanently now… I want to cry and bury my face on his chest but… my body won't move… my heart wants to, yet my body is bruised.
His fingertips touch the back of my skin… its soft and tender… why wasn't he like this last night? It might have went a little better… wouldn't it? It doesn't matter… I ignored his touch, but he moved in closer and I twitched. Did he want more? Is he going to hurt me again? Is he going to use me like Sasuke? I just hope I'm not meant to be alone… if I have to give him myself everyday so that I'm not alone… I would… I guess…
He noticed me flinch and wrapped his arms around me closer. He whispered something… and apology? I really don't know… I knew if I actually heard what he was saying I would probably stay, but I had to leave. I was going to cry and I didn't want him to see me… so I got up and grabbed the sheets. I wrapped it around me and never looked at him. I just walked away… for a moment I wished he would run after me, call out to me but… he didn't… I'm just only disappointing myself aren't I? I suppose but there is always hope… right?
I walked pass my clothes and didn't felt the need to stay longer in his apartment… its saddening… depressing. I saw the letter and the tears began to fall… so I quickly ran out of the door. As I was out in the open with only his bed sheets around me, I could smell him and what was I suppose to do but cry? All the feeling I thought he felt for me… were they all lies? Where we really not meant to be? Were we not supposed to mend each other's hearts? Maybe… fate is tearing what we could be apart… but I hope in the end… I'm wrong…
I didn't want to go home… I didn't want to speak to anyone… I just walked to the place I always go to clear my head. I walked as fast as I could so no one could see me… and finally I'm here… no ones here and its quiet… I sat under the tree and thought about everything… I cried and cried… hoping he would show up and hug me, hold me… like we used too…
"Ino…"
Someone is calling out to me… is it Naruto? Is he here to give me the comfort and security that I need? No… it's not him… its Sasuke… I thought I would be happy, joyful, and blissful when I see him again but I don't feel anything. He looks at me as I sat here wrapped in a bed sheet crying. I can tell he thinks I'm pathetic, a stupid pathetic girl. He came closer and I just wanted to run away but I was frozen. Something about him… I guess I still love him… but I know there is no way I can face another heart break…
He started talking about what he did to me… I know its all lies… he isn't sorry one bit… he knew what he was doing. Every time we were supposedly together, everything we did… all lies… all memories that should not have been made… I hate it… him here… my heart… its making me cry even more. Of course I think about what we could've been, what we may have been… what if's… but I push it aside…
The strange thing is he grabbed me and gave me a hug… this is strange… he never done something like this… its weird but… it felt nice… my arms grabbed him… and I hugged him back… he hugged tighter… so surreal… so strange…
He whispered words that once made me melt like pudding… yet these words didn't really had its effect such the same… He wanted to walk and talk to me… I wonder why would he come to me? He and Sakura are the only other person besides Naruto that knows about this place… why is he here? Is he hurting? Is he still with her? Are they still together? So many questions… but… none of them really matters… He said he misses me and he now knows how much I mean to him… yeah right… what a lie… but is it? Should I return? Will he really be there for me? Is he really not going to break me again? I dunno… I really don't…
My heart wants to return into his arms and love him like I once did but… memories of Naruto and I… hugs and laughter… and pain and sorrow… memories… I wished I was able to erase them all and start over if I could… but that's how your mind could play your heart… I can't return to him… at least not now… not ever… he never understood me and I don't believe he will again. I denied his invitation to be his girlfriend… for real this time. I walk away and I can tell he is confused… I was once head over heels for him… everything I thought was him… the air I breath would be his but… now I've grown and matured. I learned my lesson and I wont fall again… at least that's what I say but… I may have done it again…
I walk back to where I was and heard a scream… is it my name? Who is screaming it? Naruto? I walk closer to realize it really is him. He is crying and screaming…
"Ino! I'M SO SORRY… FORGIVE ME! Please…"
How sad… I guess he is ashamed of himself… sad and lonely again... if he wants someone to hold… I suppose I would be the one… if he wants love… ill give it to him… but if he wants more… I would hesitate… I don't think I would step that far… at least for awhile…
I walk up to him and he saw me. His eyes were wide and red… tears fly in the air as he ran to me. He grabbed me and held me so tight afraid to let me go I suppose. His hair was flat and he was crying on my shoulders apologizing saying he was stupid, dumb… and some other words but I wasn't quite listening. My head felt like it was going to explode… a headache? Maybe… I guess he was waiting for me to hug him back but my arms wont move… I wonder why… he stopped and looked at me… His eyes… a dark sky blue color… it looks nice with his bronze colored skin and blonde hair… he was handsome as the sun starts to fall… Wow…
He looked away from me, shameful and hesitant… I wonder what is he going to say? Or is he waiting for me to say something? I really can't say anything… my mouth wont open… am I waiting for something? I want to say Naruto, I forgive you… its not your fault but my voice wont even come out… strange… He start to say something… I wasn't sure what he said but tears formed around his eyes once again… what was that? Something about love… is he saying he loves me? Or is he saying he still loves her? I really don't know.
I walk away from him and sat under the tree… I wasn't sure if he thinks its rude of me to ignore him but right now I needed to be alone… I look out into the sunset and felt a cool breeze go by… it was nice… Hm… my mind questions everything around me… my life… him… them… this… that… now… and then… what more can I do… I am feeling more and more empty as my brains answers the questions.
Are you loved? No
Were you used? Yes
Are you in love? Yes
With who? I…
Why are you here? To clear my head…
Are you sure? Yes… I think…
I'm so sad… lonely... I was where I was before… broken and lonely… Naruto… am I here for him? Was I trying to come to him? Was I waiting for him…? Yes I was… I really was… he came and sat next to me as the tears fell from my eyes again. It feels different when he sits next to me… he seems strong… not harmful… and loving… am I really sure? He hurt me… took advantage of me... why should I trust him? I should just stay alone… for all my life.
"Ino I love you…"
I turn to face him shocked by his words. He leaned in to kiss me and my heart was melting… my mind was on a cloud… everything I was thinking… everything I felt was in his hands.
He whispered words every girl would want to hear but… I don't know if I could trust him but he… he understands.
"I love you Ino… if you don't love me than I understand… and I'm so sorry… if you hate me… than its okay…"
He sad it with such a sad voice that my heart felt like it was breaking all over again… but I guess I should tell him how I really feel… there's nothing to hide anymore… here… he is opening up his whole life to me… his heart is opened like a torn book for me to read… and I am willing to bind it back together again.
"I love you too Naruto… please… don't let your anger take you over again… please…"
I felt like he could be the one for me… someone who could protect me… someone who would love me… I am willing to fall once again… hoping it would be the last time I do.
"I promise I won't…"
Naruto said with a smile and tears that ran down his face slowly… I lift my fingers to wipe them away and he leaned in for another kiss… I kissed back… it was sweet… soft... tender… passionate…
Love… what a crazy mess, a terrible roller coaster ride that takes you all over the place, but if you are on the right tracks… it could be beautiful and wonderful… I hope… no… I know I'm on the right tracks… at least now I do…
Naruto… we are not alone anymore… finally… never again will we be... because all we need... is each other...
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