Hello! How is everyone! Well I will have you know that I just got back from a wonderful vacation to North Carolina! It was gorgeous down there, and I was right on the beach and it was amazing! I was only a couple miles away from Wilmington, and I wanted so bad to drive down and see if I could catch any one from the cast. However my mom said no, I almost cried. Haha! Anyway because I was outside a lot I was able to write some chapters so expect updates the next four days!

On with the story!

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9 Months Ago

"Yes Brooke, yes I know. No, I will not forget. I'm hanging up on you now! Bye!" I closed my phone shut, and shook my head. That girl could be so annoying sometimes, but, I still love her.

I walked into Bra and Beyond, my mother asked for this and only this for her birthday. How pathetic is that? She wants her daughter to buy her lingerie so she can have an awesome birthday with her boy toy of the week.

"Hi, welcome to Bra and Beyond. Do you need help finding anything?" The tall gorgeous saleswoman asked me. I wonder if they hire all their staff like her?

"Um, actually I'm looking for something for my mother, something that says 'I'm a slut, and I know it'."

The saleswoman laughed, "I think we can help you out."

I smiled and followed her.

After about thirty minutes of shopping, that's how long I promised myself I would spend on this woman, I thanked the saleswoman and walked out.

I reached into my purse to find my phone, but I couldn't. I brought the purse up to my face so I could see what was inside, of course not paying any attention to what was in front of me.

I'm looking for my phone one second, then bumping into a stone hard chest and falling flat on my butt the next. Oh, it was very comical to the people watching, but it wasn't their butts that hurt.

I looked up to see the cause of my fall, and almost screamed. I had just bumped into Nathan Scott, I wouldn't be surprised if he pulled a knife out on me for even touching him.

He goes to my school, but 'go' he doesn't. I think I have seen him at Tree Hill High a good one time. No joke. How he is even in the same grade as I am, is beyond me.

I scrambled up, thanking god that my purse contents hadn't flown everywhere, and faced him.

I looked at his face, and he looked like he was about to kill. His eyes met mine, which was not a good thing. His eyes were gorgeous, they were an ocean icy blue that any girl could get lost into. Unfortunately I was one of those girls, as I stood there staring into his eyes.

It was broken however when I heard his voice speak, "you should really watch where you're going, never know who you might run into."

Then he did something so appalling, however I don't know if I wanted to slap him or feel flushed. His eyes looked down to my legs, roamed up past my skirt and shirt, lingered on my chest, and finally met my eyes again. Then he smirked,

"then again, you could run into me any day."

I dropped my eyes to the ground, was he flirting with me?

"Sorry, about that. I wasn't paying attention."

"Don't worry about it, guess you were just excited to see your boyfriend huh?"

I looked up at him, "what?"

He motioned to the bag I was holding, "gettin something special for him?" Why did Bra and Beyond feel the need to put their name in huge font on the bag.

I pulled the bag behind me, "it's for my mother."

His eyebrows quirked together in the cutest way, "your mother? Why the hell are you shopping for your mother?"

"It's her birthday."

"So you buy her sexy underwear? Man I might come and join your family if you party that way."

"It's for her boyfriend," I shot back. Who the hell did this guy think he was?

"If that's your story."

I rolled my eyes, "look, again I'm sorry I bumped..." however I was interrupted.

"You go to Tree Hill don't you?"

My eyes grew, "yeah I do."

"Yeah I've seen you, with that guy Jacobs right?"

I tucked a loose strand of my hair behind my ear, "yeah, he's my boyfriend."

"Of course he is," he said with that smirk still plastered on his face.

"And what is that supposed to mean?" I asked defensively.

"Nothing, I guess I just will never understand how a little punk-ass like Jacobs could get probably the hottest girl in school."

I looked away, "maybe you should go to school and find out." I said with my own smirk.

Then I saw Nathan Scott smile, truly fully smile. His teeth were bright white and his ocean eyes seemed to light up his entire face. I couldn't help it, I smiled at the sight.

"I have to go," after a moment of silence and walked past him.

"I'll see you later James!"

I stopped and turned around, but he was gone. How the hell did he know my name?

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"HALEY!" I cringed at the sound of my mother's voice. It was way to early in the morning to deal with her.

It had been two weeks since Lucas's party, two weeks that I haven't spoken to Nathan. Two whole weeks of seeing him and that whore together at school. He would try and come talk to me, but I would walk away before he got the chance. I made sure I was with Conner a lot, that way I knew he wouldn't try to come over. To say it was killing me, that would be an understatement.

"Haley Elizabeth James! Get down here now!"

I yanked the covers off of me, this bitch was going to get a beat-down.

I found her in the kitchen reading a magazine with her $300 dollar glasses on.

"What do you want?" I asked her.

She looked up at me, "I have been waiting for ten minutes for you. You want to be a little more considerate please?"

I walked over to the fridge, "want to be less of a bitch?" I pulled out the orange juice.

"I swear, it was a complete waste of my time to try and raise you to be a young lady. I think your are the most ungrateful daughter there ever was."

"What did you want Elizabeth?" I seriously did not want to listen to another lecture from her right now.

"Your grandparents just called, they want to come down for Thanksgiving."

That made me cheer up, "really? Awesome."

"Yes, wonderful." Elizabeth muttered.

Zed and Marie James were probably the only reason why I stayed in this family, they were the last thing thing that was connected to my father. Elizabeth was not really fond of her in-laws, which made their visits even more sweeter.

"When are they coming?"

"On monday, you'll have to pick them up."

I put my glass of OJ down, "fine. Don't forget that I'm going to Luke's house on Wednesday to eat dinner with his family." When she looked at me like she was completely confused I elaborated, "I told you a couple days ago. I know all of his family and they would like it if I was there to see them one night."

"I think I would remember that."

I scoffed, "or maybe you were too drunk to even process what I was saying to you, whore."

"That is it!" She pushed her chair back and stood up, "I am sick and tired of listening to your mouth!"

"Wow mom, now you start to act like my mother. Way to go, it only took you eighteen years to get the memo."

I had hit her breaking point, she walked around the island and stood in front of me.

"You listen hear, I will not tolerate this anymore! Do you understand me? You have never talked to me like this before, ever since your fathers death..."

"Don't! Don't even think of bringing dad into this, because this is your fault! Dad has been there for me more than you have, and he's dead! Don't blame him for your horrible parenting skills. Sometimes I even wonder if you even loved him, or if you loved his money."

Elizabeth brought her hand up and slapped me across the face. I brought my hand to my cheek and looked at her, amusement on my face.

"How dare you, you little slut." She gritted out through her teeth.

"I bet you have been just waiting to do that haven't you? Just waiting to hit your only daughter."

She stared at me for a couple more seconds before walking past me, and walking up the stairs.

I was breathing hard, that was the worst fight we ever had. I grabbed my keys and walked out the front door, slamming it behind me.

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How can teacher's be so cruel? Giving us homework over holidays, even worse a research paper. How more evil can you get?

So that's where I am right now, in the local library looking up heroes in WWII. Exactly what I wanted to be doing on my vacation, but it did seem to calm me down after the fight with Elizabeth. The shock of her hitting me came over when I was driving here. She's done some pretty horrible things, forgetting to pick me up from the zoo, forgetting my birthday, and even throwing away my stuffed animal that dad had given me. However her slapping me pretty much beats all.

I was only at the computer for five minutes when I found out a book that would help me. I stood up and asked the librarian to help me find the section. She took me all the way to the back of the library and left me there to fend for myself. I had to hold back the comment I wanted to shout at her retrieving back.

Now I normally like libraries, but that was when I was closer to the front and I could hear whispers. Where I was, there were cob webs on the bookshelves and complete quite.

I was looking ahead trying to find my book, oblivious to the footsteps that were coming

close.

It wasn't till the last second that I heard them and turned around only to be met by Nathan and his arms caging me in.

"Have you been avoiding me?" His breath was hot on my face, and I really had to control myself. It was pretty warm outside right now, so Nathan wearing only a wife beater and jeans was really not helping.

"How did you know I was here?"

"I followed you."

"Oh. Well actually I have to go now," I said stepping into him trying to make him uncage me. No such luck. He grabbed my shoulder and pushed me back against the shelves.

"You're not going anywhere. I've gone two weeks without kissing you, I ain't waiting any longer."

I had no time to protest because his lips were already on mine. I wrapped my arms around his back and brought his body closer to mine. Our tongues were clashing together, trying to gain dominance.

"So are you going to tell me why you're avoiding me?" He asked pulling away from me and looking down on me.

"I haven't, I've just been really busy." I lied.

"Why don't I believe you?"

I couldn't say anything, I hated lying to him more than lying to Conner.

His eyes then went to the side of my face, and brought his hand up to caress my red cheek.

"What happened?"

"My mom," I laughed out.

"Your mother hit you?"

"More like bitch-slapped me," I said with a small laugh.

"What happened?"

"Just the usual, her thinking I'm ungrateful and that she's the best mother in the world. Lucky for me, I get to remind her that she isn't." The weirdest thing is, only Lucas knows how bad my mom really is, and Nathan. Not even Brooke or Peyton know how awful she can really get.

He didn't say anything, but looked down at me and caressed my cheek. I can't believe I realized how much I really had missed him the past two weeks. Trying to get back to reality I brought up the whore,

"so are you and Rachel like a thing now?"

"Me and Rachel?" I couldn't tell but it looked like disgust washed over his face, which brought me much joy.

"Yeah, I've seen you two together a lot. What's going on?"

"Why do you care?" He asked with a smirk.

"I don't," that was a lie, "I was just asking. It's called small talk Nathan."

He laughed, and I smiled. He started playing with a strand of my hair, twirling it around his finger.

"What are you doing this week?" He asked.

"Um, nothing. Grandparents are coming in, Conner is leaving along with Brooke and Peyton. Lucas is having this huge family thing and Jake also has family coming in. I'm going to be all alone with my mother, yay!" I said sarcastically.

Nathan leaned down so his face was less than inches from mine, "well than it's a good thing that I'm not going anywhere."

I smirked up at him, "and why is that a good thing?"

"So I can do this without you worrying about your friends finding out," he closed the distance and we were kissing again.

I have no idea how long we were in the back of the library making out, but I really did not care. It had been two weeks since I last felt his touch and I was not going to waste a second.

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"Haley? That you?" Elizabeth asked from her office in a sweet tone. The thing is that when we fight, she seems to forget about it hours later. She acts like nothing ever happens, and sometimes it's better that way.

"Yeah!" I called back, not wanting to get into another fight about how I didn't answer her.

"I ordered chinese food!"

"Great!" I said climbing the stairs and entering my room, closing the door behind me.

It was still pretty early, but because everyone was gone or busy for the holidays I didn't really have much of a choice. I left Nathan because if I hadn't I probably would have had sex with him right there in the library.

I started to think about when my mother and I started acting like this, it wasn't right after my fathers death. Actually after the funeral, her and I were never closer. We hung out together, cried on one another shoulders, and helped the other get through all the changes. About a year after the death, that's when everything changed. Mom would came home late, she would have all these marks on her necks, lie to me that the were iron burns. It took me awhile before I realized that she was sleeping around. It broke my heart.

So soon after dads death, she was already looking for a new lay. That's when I started hating her, that' when our relationship went sour.

God how I wished he could be here right now, with me. Maybe then he could help me with all this crap that I am going through. I could tell him that I was sneaking around Conner's back, tell him that I had feelings for Nathan Scott. He wouldn't judge, he would tell me to follow my heart and choose the one I wanted. God how I missed him.

So I started to cry, I only cried once every few months when it came to my father. Nobody knew how hard it was for me, living with someone who secretly blamed me for their husbands death.

Right there in that moment, more than anyone I wanted Nathan by my side to hold me.

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