I'm really sorry for the very late update. My computer didn't work for a week. I really don't know why. I have to retype my chappies and update using my cousin's computer. Sorry guys…Before I start the chapter, I just want to clear things… Haruka Minami isn't an evil person. She's not really that bad. This chappie will prove it to you. Please don't hate her…
"The Predicament of Oblivion"
Chapter 3
Solitary Hearts
"The heart is the most sensitive spot of everyone
Only time can cure the pain in our heart.
But most of the time, the wound in our
hearts takes the longest time to heal…"
"Okay L-la…" he was cut off by the girl.
"Kimura…what did I tell you?!" she asked in disgust.
"Don't call you in that name anymore…"
"Good…now scram…go back to England…"
"Do you really want me to go right now Miss Haruka?" Mr. Kimura asked in a sad tone.
He would not want to leave her in this type of mood. He knew what she really feels. She was the type of girl who never shows her true emotions. And if there was someone who knows her that well, he knew that he was one of those people.
He knew her very well- every action she make, every frown in her face and every word that comes out of her mouth. He knew that it wasn't what she really wanted to say. The girl grew up by his side. He had always been her personal driver ever since she was twelve but he had been serving her family even before she was born. He had even acted as her personal body guard, maid, and sometimes even as her mother and father. He knew how hard it was for her. He really pitied the young girl.
"As soon as possible." She replied without even gazing from her food.
"Then I shall take the next flight back to England. Are you sure you can live all by your own, Miss Haruka? " he asked worriedly.
He would never really want to leave her side. He loved the girl as his own daughter all though most of the times, she acted cold on him.
"Oh please Kimura…Can you please cut that drama off? Try saying one more cheesy thing and I might not be able to control myself from throwing up." she said in disgust.
"But I'm just worried about you Miss Haruka." He reasoned out.
"Cut that heck off Kimura. I hate it when people say that they are worried about me. Don't you dare say you are worried about me because I don't even need you. I can live all by myself. So just go!" she yelled on top of her lungs.
"Miss Haruka?" he just couldn't believe what he had heard.
"Go! I said go!" she pushed him outside the room and locked the door.
"Miss Haruka? Open the door please! Miss Haruka!" Mr. Kimura knocked.
Haruka ran off to her bed and started crying her heart out.
"I'm so sorry Kimura. I never really want to do this." She cried. Her voice was too soft for him to hear her.
"Miss Haruka!" Kimura called up to the girl but his efforts were futile. The girl wouldn't open the door.
He heard his phone ringing and answered the call.
"Hello Kimura. I want you to go back here." A male spoke from the phone.
"But…I still have to take care of her." He reasoned out.
"No more buts Kimura. I want you to come back. Just follow me." Just by that, the speaker cut the call off.
"I never really expected him to be this hard on his own daughter." He muttered.
"Looks like I have to leave the girl behind…I'm so sorry Miss Haruka."
He started to take steps away from the girl he served for a long time -a girl that he had learned to love through time. He really felt bitter for leaving the girl behind.
"Kimura?...sob…sob..sob…" she sobbed a little bit more.
She really didn't know if she can live all by herself. All by her life, he had been a dependent. She was used to in being served and protected.
She started to reach for a picture frame place on top of a side table beside her bed.
"Mama…I'm sorry if I had turned out to be a bad girl…I'm really sorry mom…I don't really mean to do that...but I have to…I'm so sorry if I am not your little girl anymore…I'm sorry if I am not your Haruka anymore…I'm really sorry." She talked bitterly with the picture of her mom. When her eyes felt tired of crying, she instantly fell into a deep slumber.
Natsume lied on his bed thinking of the only girl he had ever loved. He was thinking of her face, her smile and her childish acts. Although she may be the clumsiest and dullest girl of them all, he could never deny how much he cared for the girl. He loved her so much that he was willing enough to sacrifice his life for her. She meant everything to him.
But the clouds had fallen on him upon hearing the sad news. For him it was the saddest and worst news that he could ever hear.
"How could it be? Mikan? No…Not that girl…She may be an idiot but she will not die just like that…Mikan?...Mikan?! No!!"
He remembered how he refused to believe it. He would not let that thing to sink in his mind. But no matter how hard he tried on resisting it, he could never deny the fact that she would never be back in his life again. She was the only girl who had ever made him softer. She was the only one that made him happy. She was everything that he could ever wish for. He closed his eyes once again. How he wished that she would be back again. How he wanted to hold her and tell her how much he loves her. Suddenly, a flicker of light flashed in. A vision of her face came into his mind.
"Natsume…" Her face was angelic as usual. A sweet smile was present in her face.
"Mikan? Mikan?! Is that you?!" he asked in bewilderment.
"Yes it's me." She beamed again.
"Mikan?! Mikan! You're alive!"
"No…I'm not…I just came to say good bye to you." A bitter smile replaced the sweet one.
"Why?"
"Natsume…Just listen to me okay?...I just wanted you to be happy…Forget about me Natsume…Go on with your life…I know that there is someone out there for you…I want you to be happy…Don't make your life miserable…"
"No…Mikan…there is no else for me…"
"I'm so sorry Natsume…You have to let me go…I wanted to rest right now…I'm so sorry…" Mikan turned her back on him.
"Mikan!" he tried to stop her from leaving but his efforts were futile.
He jerked from his bed then opened his eyes.
"Was that a dream?" he asked his self.
"No…it can't be…Mikan…" he closed his eyes once again and tried to get a good night sleep although he knew that he just couldn't get one knowing that all he could ever think is the idiot.
He really didn't know why he just can't sleep. He was lying on his bed for almost forty five minutes. He just kept on fidgeting. He really didn't knew why he just can't stop thinking of the girl he once loved and cared.
"Mikan." Ruka uttered softly.
He never realized how much he missed that girl. He liked it whenever she smiled. No. He just really loved her smile. Her smile opened his heart and made Natsume's heart softer.
He thought that she would be only one that he would ever love. His world stopped upon hearing the sad news. Just like everyone else, he just couldn't believe it. The girl who served as their source of encouragement died suddenly. But little by little, the truth started to sink in. Although it was heart breaking for him, he had to accept the truth. He knew that he had to be strong for his best friend. He knew that Natsume was really hurt by the news. He tried helping him to move on and accept the truth.
Gradually, he learned to appreciate and love the blackmailer who annoyed the hell of him. At first, he thought that his heart was just lying but the more he tried to fight it, the more it shows up. He really loves her. He was thankful that he was able to realize his true feelings. He remembered the night when she showed up to him. He reminisce the conversation they had.
Start of flashback…
"Mikan…thank you for everything…don't worry I'll be always there for your best friend…I'll take care of her." Ruka promised in the air.
He had been courting Hotaru for about two years but still she hasn't given him a concrete answer.
A flash of light flickered in front of him and given him a vision of the twelve year old Mikan.
"Mikan?!" he stammered in disbelief. He had never seen a ghost before but since it was Mikan, he didn't feel afraid.
"Ruka…" a sweet smile adorned her face.
"Mikan!" he tried to hug her but he just pass through her body.
"Ruka…I know that you can make Hotaru happy…please take care of her…" a sad look on her eyes was present.
"Mikan…I promise that to you…" Ruka swore whole-heartedly.
"One more thing Ruka…I want you to take care of Natsume…can you do that for me?"
"I will Mikan." he beamed at her. Just by that, Mikan was nowhere to be seen anymore.
End of flashback…
"Mikan…" Ruka stared at the corner where Mikan stayed as she talked to him.
Ruka was finally able to get a dose of a good night sleep.
She was fond of staying up late just to finish her new inventions. Ever since, her loud-mouthed best friend died, she had been the coldest person she could ever be. She would never give herself a chance to be happy. She wouldn't laugh or even smile. She would never even let herself fall in love. She controlled herself from falling although she knew that she had already fallen for Ruka. Still she would not consider that emotion. She couldn't imagine herself to be happy when she knew that her best friend hasn't gotten the justice that she deserves. She would not be happy unless she knew that Mikan was happy in whichever place she was.
She was busy fixing her newest and improved digital camera till a flicker of light flashed in front of her. And there she was, the girl that she wanted to see for a very long time.
"Mikan!" she ran towards her and tried to hug her but she passed through her silhouette.
"Mikan?!" she just can't believe that she couldn't touch her. She was too good to be true. Hotaru just couldn't believe that what she was actually seeing a ghost.
"Hotaru…" Mikan cried as she uttered Hotaru's name.
"Hey don't you ever cry idiot." She was instantly back in her true self.
"I'm just happy to see you Hotaru."
"Me too idiot…" Hotaru gave her a smile as she cried.
"Hotaru? You are crying?!" she just couldn't believe that Hotaru was actually crying.
"Idiot!...No I'm not…" Hotaru abruptly wiped her tears away.
"Hotaru…"
"Mikan…"
"Hotaru…"
"Mikan!! Go on! Tell me what you wanna say!" her patience was over.
"Hotaru…I want you to be happy…"
"So?"
"I want you to be true to your feelings…You don't really have to control your feelings towards Ruka…I know that you love him…"
"No! I don't wanna be happy!"
"Hotaru…I know that you worry a lot…I'm just happy…you don't have to think of me time to time."
"Mikan?"
"Jut be true to yourself Hotaru…" Mikan smiled for the last time then disappeared.
"Mikan…" Hotaru stared blankly in the air.
To be continued…
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