A/N: Okay. So I probably should have put this in the beginning of the first chapter, but I really really wanted to have Edward's POV of New Moon. I was always so curious to see how he was feeling throughout the entire book, so, this is my spin off :)

It must have been a mere five hours until I was crossing the border into Alaska. It was the farthest place I could think to go on such short notice. I just needed some time to figure out where I should escape to.

I came to the wood's edge and parked the car at the beginning of the trail. No one was around for miles, so I didn't care where I left the car. I didn't care about anything anymore. I wanted to be numb.

The trees went on forever as I pushed farther and farther into the sea of greens and browns. No matter how hard I tried, my mind would always wander back to Forks. I thought about how my family was worrying about my situation. I thought about how long it would take for them to find me wasting away in the forest. I saw the confusion and shock cross their faces when I told them I was leaving. And worst of all, I saw a vision of Bella lying cold and lifeless in the middle of the forest, alone. And it was all my fault.

No I screamed to myself. Stick to your plan! You're protecting her because you love her. Do what's best!

I held onto that thought. It became my mantra, sounding over and over again like an alarm. This was the safest thing for her. I wanted more than anything to protect her, and taking my world away from her was the only option left.

I pressed on for hours trying to lose myself within the maze of pine trees. Each thought was like a fresh blow, hitting me harder and harder each time.

"Will you stay with me?"

"As long as you want me, I'm here."

"I'd like to try something…"

"You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever."

"I love you."

"You are my life now."

Guilt and sorrow overwhelmed me. I staggered against a tree and sank into the wet grass. Dry sobs escaped my lips as my head fell into my arms. My fingers began tearing through my hair, trying to unhinge my head from the rest of my body. I didn't want to hear anymore. I felt like I was having a nightmare, even if I wasn't able to sleep. My heart felt like a hollow stone deep in my chest. I had lost a part of me.

But it's for the best! You're saving her! Don't be selfish, you needed to leave her! Her safety is your priority!

My other half struck back.

What are you doing!? You can't just up and leave her like this, you LOVE her! You cannot live without her. She completes you.

I rammed my body into the ground and banged against the earth with my fists. I wanted to feel pain. I wanted a consequence for my actions. I wanted to quiet the feud in my mind, once and for all.

Rain began to fall lightly from the gentle looking clouds. I covered my eyes with my arms and tried to slip into comatose. I wanted to forget who I was.

As the wind picked up, I caught a familiar scent along with it. I didn't even need to lift my head to realize that I was being watched, maybe even stalked. I didn't care. I just wanted to be left alone.

A low growl sounded in the distance. It was filled with disgust and worry. I finally got up the will power to leap up and pull into a crouch. I scanned the dense trees for the growl's origin, seeing nothing but green.

A light tap on my shoulder made me almost jump out of my skin. I whirled around and locked eyes with the very person I was expecting.

"Hell, Edward," Tanya said, looking me over once. "You look horrible."

I hope you don't get too upset for Edward, he'll tough it out! R&R!