Chapter Two:
"Mello, Mello is it really … Mello" he said and rubbed his eyes.
"Matt it is me." I said letting tears run freely down my cheeks.
"Why are you here?" he said coldly
"To ask you to please forgive me"
"Why should I"
"Matt, I know that I don't deserve your forgiveness, and that you probably think I should just go die and burn in hell. But I want you to know that not one day has gone by that the 24 hours of the day I'm thinking about you and what I did to you was horrible. And how much I miss you. How much I wish I had brought you with me."
"Than why didn't you Mello I would have gone to the end of the world with you if it meant being with you"
"It was to protect you, Matt. I didn't want you to get hurt." He was crying now too and I felt terrible to see him this way.
"Well it hurt Mello. It fucking hurt that you not only broke your promise but my heart too."
" I am sorry" I fell to my knees and cried harder than I ever had in my life.
"I'm sorry Matt, I love you so much it hurts. The five years I spent without you were so painful, I cried myself to sleep each night because I need you I attempted suicide several times because I found that without you life was meaningless. I had no reason to get out of bed, it hurt to breath I needed you so badly. And I still do Matt I need you because I love you Matt, I love you"
"Mello I …"
" I love you I love you with all my heart." I stood up again and looked at his emerald green eyes.
"I'll know you hate me and probably don't care what happens to me but I had to tell you I love you, because I kept it a secret all these years and l wanted you to know that I do and always will."
He came up to me and pulled me into his arms and I felt the tears fall on my face from his face.
"Mello when you left I had to hold your sheets in arms to be able to fall asleep. But I no longer have to and do you know why? Because now I have you again and I can hold you"
"Matt"
"I need you just as much as the air I breathe and I will forgive you if you tell once more you love me and promise me that you'll never leave"
"I love you Matt, I love you and I promise to never ever leave you again."
I never ever left him ever again, this time I kept my promise and I never again cried for I had him and nothing in the world, not even the pain of the fire burning half my face hurt more than not having him with me. I was finally with him and that was all that mattered.