JASPER:

as i pulled away from her i could see the thick fog of pain, it was sort of like looking at threw smoke. all thick and hazy. and like pain like sadness was a deep blue color, often times i could see the color of peoples feeling before i felt them myself. I was so close to her in this little box she called a room that i both saw and felt the heart break. She shifted out of my arms, pulling her self from me. I grasped for her vampire speed checking her off guard. "Issy" i whispered to her, and as the pet name left my lip i regretted it. it stabbing pain in her heart caused me to hiss in a breath. it was nice the i didn't want to drink her dry, but the look in her eye's was so much worst that if i had. "please...." she gasped out. even with my hearing i couldn't make her words out. sobs worst then any i had ever known ripped threw her. Her human feelings surpassing every thing my family had ever felt. "please jaz don't call me that." she gasped. i couldn't call her Bella not like all the others: i never liked to , it was wrong it didn't fit with her face, Bella seemed so young, so unwise; where as Issy seem right it felt right. "why ?" was the only word i could get out , the only thing i could form my mouth to say. Ive lived a century and some , and never had i been so stumped by any one, not even Alice and her visions. But Isabella was just different. I all most felt the gears in her mind moving finding the right words I almost pushed her to tell me but , whaching the hazy of purple indecision cover every thing in the room, I decided that if i pushed she never would tell me, so I rapped my arms around her shoulders, then pressed my forehead to hers and waited. unlike Edward i could wait, i could wait a long time for some thing i wanted. Especially if i got to have her sitting on me like this, i could fell every inch of her like this, the bend behind her knees the wight of her hips, the soft warmth of her tummy pressed into my tee shirt, the caressing tips of her hair on my forearms. Yes i could wait a long time like this. momentarily i thought about what it would be like to kiss the flesh her shirt didn't cover, how she would gasp and wiggle in my arms. the taste of her sex , sweet an salty like her blood. Oh her blood, her kissing how she knew to move her mouth, and pull my hair, the way she would tip her face to the side so i could lick deeper

"Mybrotherusedtocallmeissyallthetimesoichagedmynamedandhaveforbidenanyonetocallmethatbecauseitbringsupbadmemoires"

She spoke so swiftly that i had to rethink over every thing she said "Mybrother usedto call meissy allthetime so ichangedmyname and forbideanyoneto callmethat

because it brings up bad menoires"

i replayed it one more time breaking every thing she said in to words the ones that popped out most were "BROTHER-ISSY- CHANGED MY NAME- BAD MEMORIES" "Whaoo ?" I asked

Bella prov:

I could feel him below me, hard like rock, bent and curved in every place to be the most conterbull chair in the world. He was larger than Edward making it easier it get comterbull more room for me to fit in. maybe i could change the topic? or force him out of my room. Slowly i went threw every thing but i decited on the truth. stupid vampires and there single mindedness,so Blurting it all out in one breath. I told him. "Mybrotherusedtocallmeissyallthetimesoichagedmynamedandhaveforbidenanyonetocallmethatbecauseitbringsupbadmemoires"

his head never moved eyes never blinked, his just sat there, it was rather unnevering.

as i thought to get up from his lap "whaoo?" he gasped out. his eye's a odd muddy brown color stared at me in to my soul. It doesn't matter what he thinks, not one bit. not at all. I tried to convenience my self, but i knew the truth was that it did matter, i need him to understand. but i mainly needed him not to tell Edward.It had to be kept between him and i.

I climbed from his lap and went to get the photos from under the stairs.

Jasper prov.

she has a bother? Emmeit? or was she talking about me?some one other than the family? what was going on with her? she left the room i heard her walk down the steps,hand gliding on the hand rale. Carefully i kept her in mind just in case she feel down. The other parts of my brain played her kissing my over and over again in. each touch and pull of my hair was burned in to my brain, its not like it should matter to me that the most sexy human in forks had kissed me,but it did the sexiest human in Forks was my brothers girl friend and my WIFES best friend AND the only think i wanted to think about despite that was if i could get her to kiss me like that again, hell i don't care if they say its for science. i just want to kiss her. Taste her. Thinking this thing over i noted the fact that i didn't want to drink her dry i just wanted to kiss her butterfly soft lips some more. Concluding that thinking like this would be dangerous i begin to clean up her room, every thing was fine in tell i tried making her bedding is was impossible trying to recall how it was done. there was a soft blanket then sheets and two more blankets, about five pillows ...

Bella prov:

i walked back up the step's a small box in hand. for some reason i need to show jasper, felt the need to share with him. I made it all the way up my steps and stopped at my door to find a very baffled looking jasper, at vampire speed he made the bed, then unmade it , then made it up again, it went on this way for two min. i could hear him mutter to him self "errr i am what a hounder and twenty, and i cant even make a dam bed!" he grumbled. i wanted to laugh but i didn't, i was caught up on what i had to tell him. and the fact that he hadn't relised i was whiching him. I walked in to my room behind him, "its sheet,blanket.." and he flew around hissing at me looking ready to kill. Sturpissed two things happened the box iwas holding flew in to the air