Chapter 12: Erol

It always feels like something is missing. Everyday I wake up it's the same thing. I have responsibilities. Being a commander of a pathetic KG. They're never on time and always so petulant. I was too good for this. I was so bitter. The one person I only loved: Selena. She was the air I breathed. Now she was gone the only thing that fills these lungs is a toxic poison. It gets hard to breathe. We stopped looking for her. I was determined to look for her. The Baron had deterred me. I had a choice I had to make to myself: Find Selena and run away with her and leave everything behind or keep my responsibilities. I chose number two. I can't be shrouded in love. It was too distracting to my work, but there is a part of me which screamed her name every minute. I can't ignore it, but I could damn well try to.

I felt like a shell. Just a shell. Like when you kill a turtle and take him out all you have is a shell. Me being the shell, and my soul is the turtle. What was the point of living such a feeble existence?

I walked through town because it was my day off. Nothing out of the ordinary. Even if I am taking a break I still have to be on patrol which sucked. I hate the Baron, but I respect him. Why? Even my brain couldn't respond to that one. For how he ruined my relationship with Selena. Three months since I had seen her face. The shock, and horror, and disbelief in her face, twisted in agony. Why did I always have to be the bad guy? For some reason doing my job automatically makes me the bad guy, and having a slight temper issue to. And then there's my bossiness, and my inability to enjoy anything worth enjoying. But my flaws are indefinite.

I looked at the fruit stand to see an old lady handing a fruit out to a woman and her baby. The woman had long black-bluish hair and...Selena? No it couldn't be her. Right? The woman left and I followed, until there was a quiet alleyway. I walked silently to her backside and turned her around with full force. She gasped.

"Erol?" Her eyes peered on me. Questioning. I looked into her eyes, but I did not see hate, just shock and if I am not mistaken a little bit of affection. Serendipity found me as I stared back into her eyes with more of the affection than she put in.

"Selena." I whispered.

"I have been waiting for you, Erol. There is something that belongs to you." She said gladly.

"What?" I said confused. The only thing that she had took from me was my heart. No. That had been lost long ago. She showed me the baby. A beautiful healthy girl. Blue eyes, brown-red hair, her mother's dimples, and that smile. But wait. Me...a father?

"I named her Arolena because both me and you combine to make her. Erol and Selena..." She lamented. Arolena. That's a beautiful name.

"Can I hold her?" I asked.

"Sure." She said quietly. She grabbed my nose and giggled. I hugged her. " I have to go..." She took the baby back, practically snatching her from me. No. She cannot leave. There's so much...

"Wait. I have to explain to you Selena. About what had happened..." She looked thoughtfully into my eyes.

"Your place at eight." She said sternly and walked away. So I had to wait until eight.

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She sat at the table. She left the baby at her place. Her gaze on me had become apparent.

"Erol? Why did you break my heart?" She said with grief.

"I never meant to. I still love you and I always have. The Baron told me to marry you."

"So he had to ask?" Her tone grew accusing.

"No, no. Selena my love, I sought this as an opportunity. I loved you from the first time I saw you. There was a connection, an aura around you that I-I can't explain. I wanted to have a family with you. I wanted to watch you give birth to my-our child...So much lost," I paused, taking a sip of my wine. "I am not sure about a lot of things, but I am sure of this...I loved you Selena...Still do. I mean I could understand why you wouldn't want me back, but I at least want to be there for our child." She looked thoughtful and nodded her head. She grabbed my hand from across the table.

"You can be there for Arolena...with me." Her eyes grew with passion. I could see in her eyes that my wary expression seemed to light up light a full moon in a dark sky.

"I will." I assured her, but it seemed like she had already been assured. I took her face in my hands and kissed her ever so gently. Then she kissed me back with more force and then I did to. Our breathing became more heavier and apparent. I didn't need any air when I had Selena. We started stripping each other of our clothes and one thing led to another...

We seemed to complete each other. Every kiss and every breath we took. She was the only one I want to make love with because it felt so right and it never seemed awkward. We slept together in each others arms. Her hair smelled terrific, like all sorts of flowers. It felt so soft and silky smooth. Her skin always felt so soft like lavender. Her eyes opened ever so slightly and I kissed her forehead.

"Mm...Good morning Erol." She smiled at me. I kissed her mouth.

"Mornin' sweetie." I said as happy as I had never been. My life had always been filled with so much grief, and now I feel like I am weightless. I feel like I could get lost with just a gentle breeze.

"Love you." She said as simple as she could.

"I love you to." I said kissing her again my throat making a low moan. "Hungry?"

"Famished." She replied.

I cooked bacon and eggs as she took a shower. She came out with a towel on and her wet black hair cascading over and around her shoulders. I couldn't help my jaw dropping. She approached me and closed my mouth and chuckled. I laughed with her as she kissed me. I filled our plates and we ate. Ate in silence, but not an uncomfortable silence, but a calming silence, shrouded with certainty.

"So shall I escort you back to your place?" I asked.

"No," She replied almost instantly. "I mean I can bring the baby here and we can live here and be happy. I mean you know my brother would never allow me to be here with you..."

"Yes, of course. Get the baby and meet me in town at the Hip Hog Heaven Saloon."

"Ok, Erol. I just have to get dressed."

"I can help..." I said with a smile and she laughed.