Song nine: remake of "Under your spell"- it's Faith just before her scene with Angel in the alley in "Five by five"
I live my life in violence
I tell myself that I don't care
But in my heart's cold silence
And reaching out, that I don't dare
I hate what I have become
Riddled with feeling, yet numb
I've made my life such hell
Why does no one see?
I've trapped myself, cannot go free
But of course I'd never tell
Because this is me…
Prideful, frightened, angry…
I wanted your approval
Your assurance that I am good
My current self-removal
Is just because I thought I should
But I'm so unhappy
Why couldn't you care about me?
I've made my life such hell
Losses outweigh gain
Yet you still don't see my pain
You think you know me well
Look with such disdain
As my confidence I feign
In secret I grieve…
But I guess it's too late for me
So I'll just give into villainy…
I've made my life such hell
I feel I'm sinking fast
Can't stop my future, change my past
As my emotions swell
I know my die is cast
Living like this, I won't last
In secret I grieve…
I feel such defeat…
I feel such defeat…
I feel such defeat…