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"Julia thanks so much for coming over tonight. I really appreciate it. There is pizza on the table, please help yourself." I said letting my 13 year old neighbor in.
"Catherine, Julia is here. Mommy has to go to work now… please be good tonight. I'll be back in a couple of hours." Catherine ran up and gave me a hug. She was wearing all my old make up that Alice had given me… Alice… I really miss that Pixie. Catherine reminds me so much of her. She loves to shop play with hair and play dress up. It is really cute how she is always wearing these crazy outfits and then walks down the hallway of our apartment like a 3 year old model.
"Ma-Ma can ew-i-a play dwess up wif me en my woom?"
"Sure baby, oh Julia, all the emergency numbers are on the fridge… call me if you need me on my cell." I said while closing the door behind me. I worked at a local clothing store in Seattle. It paid well, enough for me to support myself and my daughter Catherine. I really didn't want this life. I would have loved to marry Edward, wear my Anne of Green Gables dress and then turn into a vampire but no… little me had to go and persuade Edward to make love to me that one night. I had too many beers at that club and then came Catherine. I also shouldn't have gone to Jacob's that day. I was supposed to be hanging out with Edward that day and I just blew him off to celebrate my best friend's birthday, well my ex-best friend's birthday. I bet he has forgotten all about little old Bella Swan who he used to love more then just a friend. He didn't understand the fact that I would only love him like a brother, nothing more and then he had to go and ruin my already super wonder thing many people call life. For me, now that I lost Edward I didn't have a life, I existed. I could care less if I dropped dead right here and right now if I didn't have to love and care for my Catherine. Actually, if I hadn't been pregnant with Catherine I could almost guarantee that I would of tried to kill myself some way or another. I could have jumped of a bridge or overdoses on some pain medication and rotted there in Charlie's house for the rest of eternity. Everyone would have thought that I had done that to myself because I was so worked up of Charlie's death. Nobody would have known that I did it because my boyfriend left me there because of a misunderstanding and my best friend was an ass. Seriously, if I didn't have to live for Catherine I would have done it. It would have put me completely out of all my pain and misery. Ugh… three years ago I was so stupid! Charlie is dead and nobody want's to talk to me. Rene disowned me when she found out that I had made the same stupid mistake that she did. I am not allowed to even see my half brother. Edward left too, and I don't blame him for leaving a bitch like me that has no future. Edward… his name still made my legs weaken but it also made my chest tighten a little bit.
"Hey Sue, what do you want me to go today?" I asked my boss. I didn't just do whatever I wanted at work like some of the others here. I actually did the work because unlike the other people I had someone to support other then myself.
"Um… Bella, go to lane 7… we are short on staff because of the storm." I walked over to the register and flipped my light on. Suddenly there was a young pixie figure walking towards lane 7 holding at least 20 pounds of clothes. I ran over and grabbed about half of them, helping her put them on the counter. They were really nice looking clothes that were extremely expensive. There was only once person who would shop like this…
"Hi, how are you doing today?" I asked as I started scanning the items of clothing. I didn't look up as I scanned the items. I knew exactly who I was helping. Hopefully she wouldn't notice me there and go on with her 'normal' life.
"B-Bella?" she stammered.
Shit, why do vampires need to be so observant? Wait, she didn't know I was going to be here? Didn't she see it in a vision or something? Whoa… wait… if she was here then her entire family is here… which means Edward. Oh great. God what the hell did I ever do to you to deserve this?
"Yes." I whispered. I put her clothes in bags.
"That will be 342.69. Will you be paying with cash or credit?
"Credit" she said as she handed me a credit card.
"Please sign the receipt." I replied handing her the slip of white paper.
"Bella, when does your shift end?" Alice asked.
"9:30, why?"
"Well, I was thinking that we could go out and talk about everything that has happened in the past three years. Seriously we have a lot of catching up to do." I ignored her answer to my question and said: "thank you, have a nice day." I really wanted to talk to her but I don't want to ruin Catherine's life by telling Alice about her. I don't care if she knows or not because of a vision, I don't want to bring Catherine's life into any more Jeopardy then it already is because she is half-vampire.
"Fine Bella. I will talk to you later." Alice said before storming off to her Porsche. I felt bad turning my best friend, almost sister away like that but I felt that it was the best thing to do to keep both myself and my daughter safe.
Two hours later:
As I walked out of the boutique, I was greeted by a super hyper pixie.
"Alice, I can't talk right now."
"Bella, why not?"
"Alice, it's a school night and I have to get home for my babysitter. She is a great girl and she does such a good job at taking care of my daughter and I don't want to lose her because I was late getting back from work. I told her 9:45 and it is 9:40 right… oops." I said realizing what I did.
"Bella, I know about Catherine. It's no big surprise to me. I have been keeping tabs on you all this time. I wanted to make sure you were safe, but… I didn't want to interfere with your life." Alice said.
"Alice, does Edward know?"
"No, he thinks that the child is Jacob's. When I told him you were pregnant he completely flipped out and ruined everything in sight… everything except the pictures of you. Bella, he still loves you know. He loves you so much it is upsetting to see him away from you."
"What do you mean Alice?"
"Bella, he sits in his room all day and looks at pictures of you. The only time he comes out is when he needs to go hunting and when he has to hunt Emmett has to forcibly remove him from his bedroom."
"Alice, I didn't mean to do anything like that to him. I didn't want Jacob to kiss me. You know that? I don't love him. I only and always will love Edward. Do you know how miserable I have been since he left? Every time I look at Catherine I see him! I love her so much. She is the only thing that keeps me alive Alice. I am living for her."
"Bella, you shouldn't be telling this to me, but to Edward. He needs to know what the hell happened that night and Bella… he still loves you. You need to tell him yourself. He won't believe me or any of the visions I show him of you. He yells at me to let you be and get out of your future." I had tears streaming down my face now.
"Alice, I really have to go… here call me cell tomorrow. We can go do something together when Catherine is at school or we can go out tomorrow night. Um… I don't work on the weekends so we can go shopping or something okay?" I really didn't want to go shopping because then I would be Barbie Bella again who would undergo so many makeovers that I lost count. I really didn't want subject my daughter to this type of torture even though I had a really strange idea that my lovely baby girl would actually enjoy it.
"Sure Bella thanks. Talk to you another time."
"Oh and Alice, don't tell anyone?"
"Fine…" she grumbled.
A/N: Okay guys, there is chapter 3. So far I have gotten 130 hits, 2 reviews, 4 favorites and 5 alerts. Keep up the good work. Um… I would like to thank all of my reviewers for all their critique and support.