Disclaimer: I only own Twilight in my dreams
"Julia, I am home…" I said as I walked through the front door.
"Okay Miss Swan. Catherine's in bed. She is soooo adorable. Give me a call if you ever need me again." Julia said as I paid her. I smiled.
"Okay, I plan on doing so. Thanks again." Julia walked up the flight of stairs leading to her mother's apartment.
That's going to be me one day with Catherine… we are going to live in this apartment forever. At some time or another I will have to work many more hours causing Catherine to be in this house/apartment alone… oh no… I can't let this happen. I don't want my daughter to grow up like Catherine. I don't want her to grow up with only me in her life, only one person to depend on. I know Julia is a sweet girl but, seriously, her life can be that great. She doesn't have many friends and she has to earn all her own money… her mother barely pays the rent each month… oh god I need some help!
With that I started to cry. I didn't want my life to be like this and there was only one way that I could change anything. I grabbed the phone and called Alice.
"Helloooo?!" a musical voice answered.
"Alice, its Bella. Would you mind coming over for a little while. I need to talk to somebody and you're the only one that will understand me. Please Alice… I need help." I cried. The line was already dead and suddenly there was a knock on the door.
"Alice" I breathed as I opened the door. The little pixie walked right into my apartment and then scowled.
"Bella, you need to redecorate. Can I do it please?"
"Alice… not right now. We are not here to talk about my apartment. It's about Catherine."
"Why… what's wrong? Is she alright?"
"Alice she's fine but…" I trailed off as I entered my baby girl's room.
"Bella… she's beautiful. She looks exactly like Edward." Alice whispered.
"Alice, I don't know if I can do this anymore. I can't do this by myself any longer. She isn't normal… she is a half vampire, half human baby who probably has powers beyond anyone's wildest dreams. Seriously, I don't know what to do. I don't want her to grow up with only me to depend on and I will have to work and work more often to pay the bills as she grows. As it is right now, I can only barely afford this place now… I can't believe how much it is going to be in the next few years when the taxes are raised and… and… Alice what am I going to do?" I started to cry, great big tears streaming down my face.
"Bella… you will get through this. Have you talked to Charlie or Rene lately? Can't they help you? They've both gone through with this before haven't they? And look how good you came out." She whispered while pulling me out into the living room. At the mention of my parents I realized I haven't completely explained my current condition.
"Alice… the thing is, I can't go to my parents for help." I whimpered.
"Why not? Their parents… it is their job to help their children when they are in need, isn't it?"
"Alice, Rene and Phil, they disowned me when I told them that I was pregnant. I haven't talked to them since the day I called them to tell about the 'great' news." I murmured.
"What about Charlie? Why didn't you stay there and live with him? He didn't disown you too did he?"
"Alice, Charlie… Charlie's dead." I whispered.
"Bella how? I-I-I- am so sorry…"
"Remember how he was at a police convention in Seattle? Well, he um… was shot while trying to stop a robbery. It happened the same day I stopped being friends with Jacob and the same day that Edward left me. Also, that day I found out I was pregnant. That was one of the worst days of my life. All of the people I loved left me that day…" I started bawling my eyes out now… clinging to Alice for dear life. She just whispered in my ear that everything was going to be okay while rubbing my back. I fell asleep there, thinking about what the hell life was going to throw at me next.