Sakura looked over at the group of popular kids sitting at the center table. They seemed to be fighting over something. She let her gaze land on Naruto who was also looking at the center table with narrowed eyes as if pained or worried. Sakura rolled her eyes. He was pathetic. What did he think he would prove? He should have given up the minute she told him his friends were fake. He should have realized they wouldn't come with him just because they trusted him. They probably didn't. They probably thought he was pathetic just the same as Sakura. He was just being so fucking persistent. Sakura grit her teeth and furrowed her eyebrows. She didn't plan on making this any easier for him.
"What's the matter Sakura chan?" Naruto asked worriedly without even taking his eyes from the center table. Sakura folded her arms on the table and put her head down. She thought twice of this and picked her head up again.
"I was serious when I said I didn't want friends. That includes you too so I don't know what you think you just accomplished." She said putting her head in her folded arms when she was done. She could still hear the blonde's loud voice clearly as he spoke.
"When you said what you said I agreed with you. We didn't always use to be like this. We all used to be friends. We met each other during hard times at young ages and helped each other to survive. We were close and the people I befriended wouldn't have let you walk away from that table. They definitely wouldn't have let me walk away." He said sadly. Sakura could hear the hurt in his voice and for some reason it hurt her as well though. She furrowed her eyebrows in frustration and picked her head up to speak.
"Then they aren't the people you used to be friends with. Move on and find a new group of fools to hang out with. I aint going to be any better then them." Sakura spat as she finally looked at the blonde for a reaction. He just kept his gaze on the center table.
"See that's where you are wrong, Sakura chan. Friends help each other through hard times and that's all this is. It is just a very hard time for them and I will help them through it." Now he looked down at her not with pity but fondness. "And I will help you too." He said giving her a beautiful smile. Sakura just kept her lips in a thin line and buried her face in her arms. She didn't understand him one bit. She wasn't his friend. How did she even get thrown into this mess?
"Look I'm not your friend and I don't need help but if you want to waste your time following me around then be my guest but I'm going to the workout room so you would have to stop staring at those bastards over there and come with me." Sakura said rolling her eyes and standing up. She hadn't even eaten her lunch. She felt a headache coming on and was more then ready to get out to the gym and try and work it away. Naruto looked at her and then back at his friends.
"I'll meet you there Sakura chan." He said sadly and she knew he planned on running back to his friend and ditching her. She grit her teeth but held back a retort. It was better this way. It was better he just left. Sakura couldn't believe she actually thought for a second he would choose her over them willingly. This was why she liked her hell whole. It was predictable. She knew everything was going to hurt so she didn't even let it close but this boy had to go and be mister save the day and fuck her peaceful living death up. He couldn't just stay the fuck away?! Sakura turned around sharply and walk to the door turning her I pod on. She started to blare Just Like You by Linkin Park. Slowly her anger started to melt away into the music and she took a deep breathe as she exited the cafeteria.
She walked down the hall past the girl's bathroom and was only a few feet away from the door leading to the gym when her world had to get fucked up again. She saw smoke coming from under the boy's bathroom door and stopped in her tracks: staring. Sakura knew what it was and she couldn't decided whether she wanted to barge in there and tell them to stop or go in there and demand her share of it. Sakura shook her head and knew that she should just ignore it if she knew what was best for her. Sakura took another step and one more and then she passed the door. Now it was behind her but so was a voice.
"Hey why don't you come here?" A man asked and Sakura just kept walking.
"I know you've been through a lot. I can tell by your attitude. Why don't you just come over hear? We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." This time it was another man's voice. His voice stopped Sakura where she stood. His voice was comforting and soothing and seductive. She had never felt attracted to anyone before and had to say she liked the feeling. She turned around slowly and looked at the two men behind her. One of them was sickly pale and almost looked blue. He had small black eyes and white sparkling teeth.
Sakura knew it wasn't him who had soothed her but the gorgeous man next to him. He was pale in skin tone but he looked fair. He had long onyx hair tied into a ponytail and onyx orbs that seemed to see right through her: into her very being. He smirked at her and she thought her heart stopped. She took a tentative step towards them and then he opened the boy's bathroom door. He walked in with the other man and Sakura knew she was meant to follow and so she did.
Sakura walked into the smoke filled bathroom and saw there were a few guys smoking towards the back, leaning against stalls. One guy was trying to be cool as he leaned against a urinal. He was smoking too. Sakura cringed. This was disgusting. She felt bile rise in her throat and she started choking. One of the men laughed at her and a few others just smirked. Most of them were too high to even notice. Three were crowded around a bag with white stuff in it and Sakura knew it was a drug but couldn't place her finger on which one.
She lived at home alone at fifteen and was Goth. Her life was pretty screwed up but never once did turning to drugs cross her mind. She looked around for the two men who had invited her in and she saw them instantly in the small bathroom. The sickly pale one was sitting on the sink a needle being injected into his arm by his on hand. Sakura cringed almost feeling the pain herself. She looked over at the onyx eyed man she had been captivated by and frowned when she saw him getting ready to inject the needle into his arm. She knew what that was: heroine.
Sakura watched horrified as her crush injected the needle ever so slowly into his arm and then slower even pulled it out. He looked up at her and signaled for her to come to him. Suddenly curiosity perked Sakura's brain. Maybe drugs weren't such a bad idea. Maybe she would try them. It wouldn't kill her to just try them. She had strong will power: she wouldn't get addicted from just one try.
"I…I want to try them." She stammered trying to sound determined. The bluish guy smirked at her and her crush simply shook his head. He pulled an orange medicine bottle out of his pocket and threw it to her. She caught it and saw that the white sticker that was supposed to have an addressed name had been torn off. Inside the bottle were four pills. Sakura looked at the man curiously.
"You can't just mess around with Heroine. It's serious stuff. Try that first." He said monotonously. Sakura wondered where the soothing voice had gone and realized the Heroine had taken it away. She looked at the blue man still sitting on the sink.
"Just hope that doesn't fuck you up to bad." The man said. Sakura nodded and carefully opened the bottle. Her hand trembled as she poured the four pills onto her palm and looked at them frightened. Did she really want to do this?
"What are your names?" Sakura asked furrowing her eyebrows. It was her crush who replied first.
"Mine is Itachi and that is Kisame. Take the pills or leave." He said nonchalantly again. He smirked as Sakura brought the pills to her mouth and downed them. Sakura didn't feel the effects immediately but knew she liked this new habit when her head cleared just like while running or being in scolding water. Everything was so fuzzy that nothing mattered and soon even her senses were fuzzy. She started to see things in blurs and she couldn't hear very clearly either. She liked it though. She was too disheveled to think of her nightmare or of Naruto or Sasuke. It was just like when she ran or took a hot shower except even more extreme. Way more extreme but the same concept: escaping reality.
She felt dizzy and leaned against the boy's bathroom wall smiling goofily. Her eyes closed for a second and when she opened them everything was hazy. She could still make out the shapes of Itachi and Kisame but she couldn't talk. She had lost complete control of her body and she let herself slide down the wall onto the floor. She had her knees up to her chest and decided mentally that this was enough. She wanted to come back now. She couldn't though. She wanted to go back to reality now! She can't though. Her senses wouldn't clear. Finally anger rose up in her like a storm and she could feel her body heat up as she clenched her fist and furrowed her eyebrows in anger.
She wanted this to stop now. She stood up again and leaned against the wall. She arched her back in frustration as she lost control even more. She pounded her fist on the wall and started panting. She saw Itachi's smirk and soon calmed down. Her senses were clearing now. Her vision was coming back. She could hear everything again. Now her senses were back she just wasn't processing anything. She wasn't thinking just living. This she wanted. She could stay like this forever. She was in control but not in pain. She sighed as she looked at Itachi blankly. He smirked.
"Like it?" He asked and Sakura just shrugged. This made Itachi's smirk grow even wider and it was Kisame to speak next.
"She has to get out of here. If that blonde punk finds her in here with us he is definitely going to rat us out." Kisame hissed in anger. Sakura just stared at both of them blankly not giving a fuck what they were telling each other. Itachi grabbed her hand and normally she would have blushed or have done something but due to the drugs all she did was let him pull her towards the door again. He opened the door and roughly yanked her by the wrist out of the bathroom. She just let herself be dragged down the hall by him as they walked into the gym, which was empty since the recess bell had just rung.
Itachi put his each of his hands on her upper arms holding her steady trying to get her to focus.
"If you want more you need to find an excuse to come to Sasuke's apartment. I can pick you up there and bring you to my place where I can give you another dose. Got it?" Sakura moaned as her thoughts began to process and she nodded at him. She wanted to talk to him some more but he was gone in an instant. Sakura rubbed her head. Now her headache was ten times worse. She thought she was going to puke. She stumbled over clumsily to a trash can and that's exactly what she did.
Sakura stood while her head pounded in the gym. She rubbed her temples and decided that she needed to get to class and maybe even go to the nurse and take the day off. She had just vomited so she was sure the nurse would let her go home. Sakura walked over to the other side of the gym where another door was located. This door would lead her outside to the football field. Sakura knew by memory that across the football field was the building where her next class was.
She walked slowly out of the gym and onto the football field. The sun burned bright in the clear blue sky and Sakura just glared up at it. Was the world trying to make her life suck? Sakura just tried her best to ignore the pain and kept walking all the way across the football field. It seemed to take hours for her to make it to the other side and when she finally did Sakura opened the door leading into the building and was some how not surprised to find that her classroom was all the way on the other side.
So Sakura began her excruciating walk down the hallway, moaning in pain and thinking of Itachi's offer. The drug was great for a while but now she wished she would have never taken them but just knowing that the hazy problem free phase would come was enough to make her think long and hard before turning down his offer. After all Itachi was extremely attractive and she wanted to talk to him more anyway. She could stop if she wanted to so there was no need to worry about addiction and what would one more dose do. It certainly wouldn't kill her right. Suddenly Sakura remembered the Heroine needle and began to grow curious about that. It had to be much more extreme then the simple pills she had taken. If that's what the pills did then…
Sakura's thoughts ended when she opened the door to her classroom. She was in far too much pain to think of her manners and knock. She simply walked in and walked up to their teacher who was smoking. Sakura cringed and gave the cigarette a long hard stare. She wondered what that was like. Would it do the same things as the drugs? Her thoughts were interrupted by the teacher.
"Mrs. Haruno right? You're late. Go and take a seat." The teacher she knew as Asuma ordered. He had obviously been in the middle of a lesson because there were a few kids who had been sleeping and were now awake staring at her wondering what was going on. She must look pretty crappy too because she could see the Uchiha bastard smirking at her wildly. Sakura shook her head.
"I have a horrible head ache and I'm going to the nurse. I just stopped by to let you know." She said as she turned to walk out of the door. This must be a homeroom class because she could hear Naruto's worried voice over everyone else's and she grimaced shutting the door as she left.
Who did he think he was fooling? He ditched her for those things he called friends. He didn't give a fuck about her or how she was feeling. Sakura could imagine perfectly Ino's judgmental glare on her as she walked out of the room. She swore she could feel it too. Sakura sighed as she headed to the nurse's office. It didn't matter now. It was time to go home and rest.