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I stood there beside Glen as we watched Mark walk out. He was looking at me. I know I could feel his eyes on. I didn't look at him as we walked up to the exit. I took a few deep breaths and took his hand as his music hit. I walked out with a smile on my face and we headed to the ring. I knew that Mark and Glen were going to try something but I didn't care they could try all they want they had me weak once but that won't happen again and they had no one to blame but themselves. As we entered the ring Taker went to come towards me and I stepped towards him. "Bring it deadman there is no more games."

"I'm sorry Casper." He whispered to me.

I just turned around and walked away and out of the ring without kissing my husband. Then I looked at both of them and turned around and walked back stage. They want to play then they will play by my rules. They want to bring this into the job them I'll be the one to end it. I went to the pit and looked at the monitor. They were both just standing there in shock. I sighed grabbed a chair and walked back out. I then put the chair on the top of the ramp and sat down. I crossed my legs and looked down at the ring. I put the mike to my lips and smiled. "My husband doesn't want me at the ring so I decided to ease his mind just a little. But don't worry deadman if you want a taste I'll be right here."

I put the mike on my lap and smiled a sweet smile towards the camera before I turned my attention back to the ring in time to see Taker grab for Glen and he landed a punch to his face. I cheered my husband on and booed taker when he took over. When they both went outside the ring I stood up and walked half way down the ramp. Taker was in control and it was pissing me off but I didn't do anything no. I wouldn't do anything like that to make Glen lose. When he gained control I cheered and blew him a kiss. I knew that he would like that so I watched from where I was standing and waited to hear him take the win.

I was hit from behind and fell to the floor. I rolled over and saw KellyKelly looking down at me. I kicked up and saw her go flying towards the ring. I sat up like Kane and Taker does and then I stood up and charged at her. I grabbed her by the waist and slammed her into the ring beside my husband and his brother. I felt her go limp in my arms but I didn't care. I slammed her up against the ring again and then let her fall to the floor as Take grabbed my hair. He threw me into the barricades and charged at me. I bent down and lifted him up and over the barricade into the crowd. I heard him hit the floor as I flipped over it and landed on him. "Wanted a taste Taker well now you got one."

I did a leg drop on him and went to kick him in his head when I was grabbed and pulled over the barricade. "Not now baby not now."

"You messed up Taker thinking I would bow down to you. I don't even bow down to my husband. So don't think that you will be able to do this and get away with it because now your butt is on my list. I will destroy you!!" I screamed to him and Glen pulled me up the ramp.

When we got back stage everyone clapped for me and Glen let me go. I turned and looked at them all. Looks like they all just pulled something on me. I tried to get control of my anger and walked away without saying a word to any of them. I slammed into the locker room grabbed my bag and walked out. I ran into Glen and pulled away from him when he tried to touch me. "Hope you all had your fun because it's the last fucking time."

I walked to the exit and out to my rented bike without looking or talking to anyone. When I got to the hotel I went up to my room which I am not sharing with anyone. Then I stripped and walked into the bathroom and started the shower. By time I was in the shower my anger was gone but I was planning. They want to play then we will play. Oh yes we will play. But when it happens they won't even know what happened or who did it.

It was midnight when someone knocked on my door. I would have pretended that I was a sleep but I knew that it was either Mark or Glen and I was like them I didn't go to sleep early. I opened the door and sighed when I saw that it was both of them. "Go to your room this one is mine."

"I see you are still mad." Mark said softly.

"Mad? Why would I be mad Mark? I have no reason to be mad. I just want to be alone is that so bad?" I asked him.

"No that isn't so bad but what is bad is we were asses tonight and we wanted to say sorry." Glen said to me.

I looked at him and he saw just how upset I was. "Honestly I'm amazed that only KellyKelly came down. In TNA almost the whole locker room would come down sometimes just to beat my ass hell the fans use to ask for it. I was the one that got hurt. Hell I never had a broken bone until TNA. I'm amazed they never got together and tried to rape me. But they would have thought of it if sooner or later if I was still there. What happened tonight reminded me of those nights. Then when you did what you did I just wanted to hurt you. If I had been told before hand it wouldn't have bothered me. But don't worry about it. No there is nothing that I can't handle I have done it my whole life and here won't be any different. So just go to bed because that is what I am going to do." I said before I went to close the door.

"Why don't you get changed and come to the bar with us and a few others? We play poker and we need one more." Glen said to me.

"No." I said before I tried to close it again.

"Well the thing is we already told them that you are going to be down there and we don't go back on what we say. So either you get yourself dressed or we will find the most sluty outfit you own and dress you in it ourselves." Mark said to me and I laughed.

"Fine I will." I said as I let them in.

I grabbed my bag and went into the bath room. They wanted sluty then that's was what they were going to get. Because I have some things that would put the Divas to shame. So I found my favorite outfit to wear when I went to the arena for the TNA shows. I pulled off my tee shirt and put on the shirt without a bra I don't need it the shirt does all the push up that I need. I then pulled on the skirt and zipped it up. When I walked out their jaws hit the floor and their eyes almost popped out of their heads as I put on my boots and grabbed a jacket. "You are not wearing that down to the bar."

I turned and looked at them and they both backed away. "I know neither one of you are my daddy so don't think that I will be listening to that remark. Now either we are going or you are leaving me the hell alone and letting me sleep."

"You aren't leaving this room in that outfit." Mark said to me.

I took a step towards them and they both took another step back. "You two have two seconds to get out before I throw you both out."

"You won't like what happens if you come down there with that outfit on." Mark said after they stepped out into the hallway.

I shut the door in their faces and smiled that always worked with guys that like me. But they pushed it a little too far and I knew that I would be making a trip down to the bar wearing just what I had on. They didn't want to try anything but I knew that they would and they would be shown why I don't have a fucking man and won't be having them in my life like that. I honestly thought that they would be a little different but I see now that all men are the same. Well not Jeff he always let me wear what I wanted to. Why the hell did I just go there? I can't believe that I just went there. All I know is in five minutes I will be heading to the elevator.

When I walked out of the room they weren't there but I knew that I would be running into them before I get to the bar and that is fine because what I am going to do to them shouldn't be seen by the people that we work with. When I pressed the elevator button the doors opened and there they were with evil looks on their faces. "You need to change."

"I will not let you tell me what I can and can't wear so either get over it or leave me the hell alone." I hissed before I headed for the stairs.

"Casper!" Glen called after me and I kept going this was not what I thought I would do but I had to or I would be changing right now. I don't want them to see that I want to make them happy again. No I didn't want them to see that all they have been doing has been getting to me and I was already heading to the darkside. So I took a deep breath and pushed open the door to the stairs to see none other than Jeff and Matt walking up the stairs. Jeff looked at me and for a moment I saw the Jeff that I was falling for but then it was gone and he was pushing by me to get onto the floor I was on. "Move the hell out of the way fat ass."

I honestly don't know what happened but when I came to I was holding both Jeff and Matt up against the wall by their throats. I dropped them and backed away. I then raced past them and down the stairs. Id didn't stop when I hit the lobby. I ran outside and headed towards my bike before I remembered that I didn't have my keys so I caught a cab and headed to the beach. I sat there without thinking no I couldn't think about it or I will cry. So I just sat there staring out the window in the night as the lights of the city go by.

I looked up at Glen and Mark as they helped us up. I shouldn't have said that and I know it. I knew her past better than anyone else here that's why I can hurt her like I have been. "What happened?"

"I crossed the line just to hurt her again. A line that I at one time swore I would never tell anyone about. But now I got to tell you. It's the reason I tried to get the bet dropped." I said to them.

My brother looked at me and I knew that I never told him this and he was going to hate me for it. But this is what I get for being an asshole. "Well, tell us already."

"Casper's father was the one that started the freak thing. She was talker then him. She was better than her brothers in everything that they did. She was the freak. When she got use to that word he started to use other words. Like Fat ass and slut. She was meant to have weight on. She is tall. She wouldn't look right with 120 pounds we all know that. But he didn't care that she cried herself to sleep because he hated her. He never wanted a girl so he made sure that he knew it. She went off on him when she turned 19 and she almost killed him. The last thing he ever told her was he should have killed her fat ass as so as she came out of the fucking hole. So when I called her fat ass it caused her to flash back to that moment. So don't ever call her fat ass." I said to them

"You knew that and still called her a fat ass?" Matt asked me as he rubbed his throat.

"I wasn't thinking. She looked so hot and I wanted her to think that I didn't see it so I said the first thing that came to mind without thinking about it." I said to him.

"You know at one time she had it bad for you. I think that she still does but she will never say it to you. If she didn't she wouldn't get so hurt by what you say." Mark said to me.

I lowered my head and sighed. "So do you know where she was going?"

"I believe she was heading to the bar." Glen said to me.

"Well you better go make sure she is ok because she drinks the hard shit when she is mad. And I know that I made her mad." I said to him before I turned to walk to me room.

"Oh hell no you are coming with us so you can say sorry. I am tired of all this shit. You will stop it and make it better starting now." Mark said as he grabbed me and pulled me to the elevator.

I couldn't believe that I turned the car around and headed back to the hotel. I shouldn't have but I wanted to drink. I wanted to feel that burn as it slid down my throat and that was what I was going to do. No one better say anything to me when I get there because I swear to god that I am about to go off and no one will like me when I do. So I paid the guy and walked back into the lobby. I looked at the bar and sighed as I headed in. There was nothing that was going to stop me from drinking until I can't remember why I was drinking in the first place. "Damn baby you look fine as hell tonight."

"Fuck off Randy." I snorted before I headed to the bar.

"What is your problem baby? The deadman can't get it up for you?" He asked as he followed me.

I spun around and looked at him. "I'm only going to say this one last time and if you don't get the point then I'm going to beat it into your head. I am not going to fuck you or any other man in the locker room. Unlike what you guys think I don't want you to pop my cherry. I don't want anyone being able to brag that they did what the countless others couldn't do. So step the fuck off and leave me the fuck alone because you aren't ever going to be man enough to give me what I want."

I knew he was about to hit me I could see it in his movement but when Mark grabbed his arm I knew that he wouldn't be stupid enough to do it in front of him. You heard the lady get the fuck on."

I turned and looked at the bartender. "A bottle of Jack and a shot glass."

He put the bottle and glass on the bar and I handed him a fifty. "Keep the change."

I grabbed the bottle and shot glass and headed towards the empty table in the dark corner. I knew that they were going to follow me but I didn't care because I don't have to listen to anything that they have to say. There was no way they were going to get me to fucking listen to them. I had too much anger in me to even care if they wanted to say sorry. I sat down and put my feet up in the two chairs in front of me making sure they knew that I didn't want them there.

But we all know that they didn't care as they pulled the chairs out from under my feet. I didn't even look up as I took the first shot and smiled as it burnt all the way down. I then put the shot glass to the side and drank from the bottle as they sat down. That was when I saw Matt and Jeff behind them. I knew that my eyes flashed because they all backed away a little. "Get the fuck gone because I don't want to fucking hear anything you guys have to say to me."

"Too bad because we aren't going anywhere." Mark said to me.

"Then I will." I said as I stood up and grabbed the bottle. I moved through the crowd and towards the door while they tried to catch up with me. I walked out into the lobby and headed towards the stairs. There was no need in waiting for the elevator. I was on the fifth floor when I heard then enter the stairwell I sped up because two out of the four had long legs like I do. I got to the 8th floor and went into the hallway and headed to my room. As I was unlocking my door they entered into the hallway and I looked at them before I walked into my room and slammed the door shut. I locked the door and went to the table with my bottle.

This was better because none of them had the key to my room and even if they did then it wouldn't matter because I also locked the bolt lock. I took a drink of my bottle and sighed to myself before the pounding on my door started. I walked to the radio and turned it on and turned it up until it drowned out the pounding on the door. I smiled as a rock song came on and it was one I haven't heard in months. I spun around and drank some more of my JD. Then I swayed from side to side as the past flooded back to me.

"Well, well look at the fat ass eating like she always does. Why don't you go for a run and lose some of that fat?" Her father spat at her as he walked into the kitchen.

"Why don't you go and make some food for the rest of us since that is the only thing you are good for. Even your mom couldn't cook like that." He hissed as he sat down at the table.

She didn't say anything as she put down the yogurt and went to the oven to check the homemade chicken pot pie. "Smart you already have dinner cooking. Did you clean the house?"

"Yes I did. After dinner I have to go to work." She said to him.

"You call that wrestling a job. All it is doing is giving you a chance to get felt up by a guy." He said to her.

"It puts food on the table and beer in the fridge doesn't?" She asked him.

He got up and slapped her when she walked by him. "Don't you ever fucking talk to me like that you fat ass freak."

That was the first time she ever hit him back. But when he landed on the floor and looked up at her she growled. "I am what you made me father but don't worry I'm gone. All my things are packed and in my truck. Take dinner out of the oven. I'll never come back so don't think that you will be seeing me coming back." She said to him.

"I use to look up to you dad. But then I saw you for what you are. You are nothing but a failure and that is why you hate me. You think I am proof but you need to look in the mirror to see the proof." She said before she grabbed her keys and walked out of the house.

I sighed as I turned down the music. They were still there and I knew it but they weren't pounding on the door anymore. I walked over to the door and leaned against it. "I bet you didn't know that my father died last year Jeff. Yeah my oldest brother called and told me. I didn't even go to his funeral. I couldn't do it and I don't think I ever will be able to. My brother called me a week after and told me dad left me the house and forty grand. I told him that he could spilt it between him and the other two."

"I was about to hang up and he asked me how I was doing. It was the first time in 12 years that I have spoken to him and he asks me how I am doing. Funny don't you think? I didn't really know what to say. He told me that he saw my last match on TNA and you know what he said to me? He said that it looks like them kicking my ass all the time got be ready for the big times. I haven't spoke to them since. But that's life. That's just how life will always be for me. There will always be someone that will hurt me no matter what and there will be people that won't want me here. I guess this time I got lucky because it's the same person. I use to be in love with you Jeff and I almost gave in. That's why I ran out there the way I did. It's because you proved my father right once again. No man wants me. No man will want a fat ass freak. So thank you for that." I said to him.