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Chapter 8
A day had passed since I had become my old self again and nothing changed. Every sound, I went down into a crouch. Every person, I let out a growl. Even if I didn't mean it, this part of me was out of control. I even growled at Alice, and that broke me down.
I love Alice with all I have left in me and I hate to see her sad. Every time I growl at her, she simply stands there and stares. The sad thing is, I can always feel the fear coming off her. It's always intertwined with love but the fear is there none the less.
Edward had not returned to the house after he came by to pick up Bella. My guess is he went to drop her off and is now still at her house without Chief Swan knowing.
I've been locked up in my room since yesterday. The blinds are down. The lights are off. It's dark in here and I like it like that. And it's silent, which makes it even better. The only things you can hear are the wind and the birds outside.
I hear someone walking up the stairs. It's a heavy-footed walk. Possibly Emmett? Or maybe even Edward is back?
This mystery person knocks on the door. Even though I heard them walking up the stairs and approaching the door, I still growl. I hate this part. It's my own family and I have this weird urge to protect myself. I mean, once they're in here and I re-focus, I'm fine but I am quite horribly scary for the first few minutes.
Whoever this is ignores my warnings and enters anyways. I let out a hiss and my growl increases as I crouch down to the ground. Emmett turns around, closes the door and turns the light on.
"Just because you're all monster like, doesn't mean you can't have the light on." With that he let's out a chuckle and it warms the whole room. I stand up from my crouch and approach cautiously. Emmett is watching me very carefully. He stands there completely still. Eventually, I reach where he is standing and we go sit on my bed.
"So…how have you been?" He asks.
"Well…I guess I'm fine." I say point-blank.
"Ummm…So when are you going to come out of here?" He sounds kind of sad when he asks this. It's only been a day but I think he misses me. He and I always got along well.
"When I can trust myself again." I sound so monotone and scare myself.
"It's only us, dude. And we trust you. So come on down sometime today. We all miss you." It's strange. Hearing Emmett talk about his feelings, even if he says it as we, it's still strange. He's not one to let his feelings out. He has a wall built around his heart and I've just begun to knock it down.
I sit there in silence and he took that as his hint to leave. As he got up, I reach out for him and grabbed his arm.
"Wait, I'll come down with you." I think I may have possibly made his day. He has a grin on his face like no other and nodded.
I hated feeling so weak. Like I needed someone else there just to help me incase I lost it. I hated feeling weak when I had a bunch more self control, and I hate feeling weak now.
As we were walking down the stairs, I start regretting my decision. I really don't think I am ready for this. What if I lose it? I could just maul them all like a tiger on the loss in the zoo. I stop on the stairs and Emmett does the same while turning around. I can feel the trust coming off of him and I feel the encouragement he has for me. A faint smile brushes my lips and I walk forward.