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A/N: Thw bginning of this chapter is a flash back to one night. One very important night between Mark and Glen. Just for Souless666 hope you like it. Sin!!

Mark

I sat on the plane and thought about the time we spent with Casper. Then I remembered that GLen told her that we had kissed at least once. That just brought a smile to my face. If that girl knew how many times she almost caught us in bed together I bet she would of had a heart attack. But she doesn't know about that. I sat back and thought back to the first time I actually kissed Glen.

"Mark man come on I'm looking for some tail and you aren't helping any when you are taking your sweet ass time!!" Glen yelled to him as he combed through his red hair.

MArk smiled to himself as he had a thought run through his mind. "Don't worry Glen you'll be getting some tonight." But he only yelled. "I'm coming god you sound like such a bitch right now."

"Hurry the fuck up or you'll be sucking my dick Mark!!" Glen shouted back as he paced the hotel room.

"Really?" Mark asked as he walked into the room.

"Why not you aren't letting mu get any pussy!" Glen growled as he walked towards him.

Mark attached him and captured his lips before he could laigh it off. Glen tried to push him off until he wrapped his arms around his neck and tried to take control of the kiss. Mark wasn't having an of that so he broke the liss and pushed him on the bed then jumped on him again and attacked his lips one more time. This time when he broke the kiss Glen looked up at him. "Well get started. My dick isn't going to suck itself."

Mark laughed out loud and Glen looked at me. "What in the world is so funny?"

"Just thinking about that night." I said and Glen looked away from him.

"What night?" Jeff asked me.

"Believe you'll have one if you hang around with us long enough. So don't worry until it happens." I said to him.

Jeff just shook his head and went back to his book. Something I didn't know about him. He liked to read. That was a real surprise if you ask me. I didn't think he slowed down enough to pick up a book and read but just goes to show you can't judge a book by it's cover. Or a rainbow by it's colors.

Casper

I would have to say that we got there before they did which was a good thing. I don't think I can handle seeing them right now. I have tried so hard to pick between them but I can't. I can't put one face without the other. I need them all for different reasons and Mark won't allow it. This is killing me and they didn't even know it. Now they didn't and I won't tell them. "Alright let's get to the hotel and to our room before they get here because I really don't want to deal with them right now."

"I think that you aren't very lucky right now." Amy said before I looked the way she was pointing.

"Shit!" I hissed before Jeff spotted me.

"Casper!" He shouted and ran towards me. I wanted to turn and run but I didn't. It sucked because I knew that if I did it would hurt him. I don't want to hurt them anymore then I already have. Sad isn't it? They are killing me inside and I don't want to hurt them. I do believe that I got it bad.

"Jeff how are you doing?" I asked as he launched himself into my arms.

"Just fine and you? Did you get anything worked out?" He asked me in my ear.

"No." I said as I put him on his feet. Glen and Mark were looking at me and I didn't want to meet their eyes but I knew that sooner or later they would see just how bad I looked. So I looked at them with a smile on my face. "How are you guys doing?"

"You look like shit." Mark said to me and I rolled my eyes.

"Thanks I didn't know that." Hissed before I grabbed my bags and walked past them.

"I didn't me it like that Casper." He said to me.

"Doesn't matter how you meant it. It hit it's mark." I said before I walked out of the airport and looked around for Paul. When I seen him I smiled as he rushed over to me.

"Casper babygirl are you ok?" He asked me as he took my bags.

"Just perfect." I said as I walked past him to his car.

Why did I have to fall for them? Who in this world would have thought it was funny to do this to me. I bet my dad was in heaven laughing at me now calling me a freak. "Casper you know that you can talk to me."

"I know." I said to him.

"Hey Amy why don't you catch a ride with the guys? I have a surprise for Casper." Paul yelled over to them.

"No problem." Amy called back as he opened my door for me.

"You are a pain in my ass." I told him as I got into the car.

"But you still love me so that doesn't matter." He said before he closed my door and walked to the back door and opened it.

Five minutes later we were driving away from the airport. "So tell me what's going on with you."

"Maybe I don't want to talk about it Paul." I said to him.

"Maybe it's time that you did Casper." He said to me.

"Look just let it go it doesn't matter becasue it's not going to happen." I said to him.

"I warned him not to hurt you again. I'm going to kill him this time." He growled.

"Jeff didn't hurt me. Plus he isn't the only one that is in this." I said to him.

I could feel his eyes on me and I knew that it wasn't a good look. "What the hell are you saying? Did you sleep with Mark and or Glen?"

"What no!!" I said as I looked at him.

"Then what the hell is going on?" He asked me and I knew that he wasn't going to let it go.

"I have feelings for all three of them and they all have feelings for me. Glen doesn't mind sharing and Jeff would do it for me but Mark only shares with Glen and he thinks I need to pick. I can't damn it. No matter how hard I try I can't pick between them. I need them all for different reasons. You know the way you are with Stephanie and Shawn. You have different needs that they meet. Jeff makes me feel special and he is sweet. Glen is the one that I can talk seriously too and he makes me feel safe. Mark is totally different. He brings out the wild me the one that you and Shawn use to see. He wants me to be wild sexy and freaky. I need that I need all three of them and I know I can't have them. And it's killing me inside. I feel so numb and cold inside." I said to him.

He didn't say anything and I knew that he didn't wnat hear that from me. No matter how long it's been since the last time he saw me he thinks of me like a little sister. I know this and for him to know that I not only have feelings for Jeff but also Glen and Mark has to be doing something to him. "I'm sorry I let you down Paul."

I turned and looked out the window as tears rolled down my cheeks. "You didn't let me down Casper. You could never do that. Nothing in this world would make me think less of you. I'm actually thinking of ways to kill each one of them. They shouldn't be doing this to you and they know it. It's your choice and if they can't handle it then they need to walk away. Don't ever let anyone make you feel like this Casper. You are so much better then this and we both know it."

Glen

I couldn't help but think that Mark was trying to hurt her feelings. It pissed me off that he would be so childish to do so. But I knew that no matter what I said to him it wouldn't help a bit. It would make it worse and I knew that. He wouldn't take it out on me. No he would take it out on her. Which was a bad thing. We needed her and she needed us. I think that it pisses him off becasue he knows that it won't be just him and me. He knows that she needs us. "Yo Glen are you ok?"

"Yeah sure." I said to him as we headed towards our room.

"Then why don't I believe you?" Mark asked me.

"Because you think you know me so well." I said as the elevator doors opened and we walked on to it.

"You are pissed at me aren't you?" He asked me as he hit the fourth floor.

"See told you that you knew me." I hissed as I leaned against the elevator wall.

"I honestly didn't mean it the way that it came out. I just thought that she would be happy to see us." He said to her.

"How can she be Mark? Neither one of us has stopped to think about what we are putting her through. You want her to pick. Are you really ready for that answer? What if she can't pick? Have you ever thought about that? Can you really stand there and say that you will walk away if she can't pick? Because I won't. I want her MArk and if she wants all three of us then that is what she should get." I said before the elevator opened and I pushed past him and walked out.

I knew that I shouldn't have said it to him but I needed to tell him how I felt about it becasue I wouldn't leave if she told us she couldn't pick. I will have her even if I have to share her with both of them.