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E-POV

I was so engrossed into Bella; I can't believe that I didn't hear it coming. That dog came bursting through the door in such a fury, my only reaction was to pin Bella behind me, I didn't know why he was there, and I didn't know he lived there with her. I got a glimpse inside his head, he and Bella have been together for the past couple of years, and he was the one to pick up the pieces after I had left her. I had left her, what have I done?

"BELLA, WHAT IS HE DOING HERE," Jake snapped at here, like it was her choice or as if she called me to come over.

Bella went on to explain how I had ended up there and she didn't know I was going to be at the club. "You don't have to explain anything to him Bella." I quietly told her. Jacob was showing everything that had happened with Bella, and Bella and him since I had left her. It was hard to see her like that, how when they found her in the woods, how she looked so numb for months, like she had no more feeling left. He showed me how she would just sit at her window and stare out of it; she snapped and went into a fury one day when he tried to close it on her.

"Bella, you should keep this window close, it's cold outside," Jake had tried to soothe her, "I'm not cold Jake, I don't feel anything," Bella had whispered back with no feeling in her voice. That's when Jake walked over to close the window, and she went off. "JAKE NO, DON'T CLOSE THE WINDOW IT HAS TO STAY OPEN, IT HAS TO STAY OPEN, it has to stay open," she was screaming at him, while she was throwing hysterics, tears racing down her cheeks. She had finally fell to the floor whispering how much she needed me, wanted me, and loved me.

That had to be the most painful vision I had ever seen, he hurt so much my face was torn. "Jake, what are you doing to him," Bella snapped me out of the vision I couldn't stop listening to. "I'm not doing anything to him," Jake replied with accusations. "What are you thinking Jake," Bella knew he was showing me something that caused me pain. "Don't worry love, Jake just has a very good memory, nothing you need to worry about." I replied to her, trying to calm her down. "Jake, I think you need to leave, I don't want to face this situation right now." Bella looked towards him waiting for him to speak.

"I am not leaving, I live here you know, we live here together, he is the one who needs to leave and not look back," Jake was furious now. "Fine, then I will leave and you two can just hash this out," she replied. "No Bella, you stay I will go and we can talk later," Oh there will be no talking to you EVER, Jake nearly was screaming at me in his head. "Edward," she whispered and it shot electricity through my body once again. "Shhh…it will be okay, I won't be far, here is my number if you need anything and I will be here whenever you need me, or want me." It was so hard for me to walk out of that door, and leave her with that mongrel. It felt like I was walking away from her again and that caused even greater pain.

I needed to breathe again, I needed to calm down so I decided to go for a hunt before I went back home. Three deer, and a lynx later, I decided it was time to go home and wallow. My phone had been buzzing for the past few hours; I assume it was my family. When I got home only Esme, Emmett and Rosalie were home. Carlisle must be at the hospital, and who knows were Alice and Jasper was.

I just sat in the corner of the family room with my head between my knees. She didn't want me anymore; she moved on, I was too late. I shouldn't have ever left her.

My poor child, he has went through so much all I want is for him to see happiness again, that glint of shine in his eyes. Esme was thinking from the other room.

The next thing I knew I heard a loud thud in front of me and screaming. EDWARD, OH GOD EDWARD STOP, it was Jasper but I didn't care to listen. "Jasper, what's wrong, are you okay," Alice was kneeling next to him. "Edward, what's going on what are you doing to him, whatever it is stop you hurting him," Alice was screaming at me. Just then everyone came into the room all wondering what was going on and why Jasper was in such pain. Edward, stop, your pain is enclosing in on me it's too much, oh god it hurt. Jasper was whispering in my head,

Jasper, stay with me oh please stay with me.

Oh all my children in pain, I can't stand this, why can't they just be happy. What is going on I think I need to call Carlisle.

What the hell is going on here, why is Edward just sitting there while Jasper is in pain?

What is going on? Jasper has never been like this before.

"GET. OUT. OF. MY. HEAD." I stood up just screaming at them with my eyes closed. "JUST STAY OUT OF MY HEAD, I AM TIRED OF IT, AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT." Just then Carlisle walked into the room; I snapped my head into his direction. "AND YOU, WHY DID YOU CHANGE ME, I HATE THIS LIFE. I HATE IT, WHY DID YOU CHANGE ME. I DON'T WANT TO BE A VAMPIRE, I WANT TO BE HUMAN, I SHOULD BE DEAD BY NOW AND IF I WAS DEAD I WOULDN'T FEEL THIS WAY." I screamed at Carlisle, "I'm sorry son." And he walked out of the room. "EDWARD, HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT TO HIM." Everyone was screaming at me now. "SHUT UP, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL, I WANT TO DIE."

"I know how you feel, I can feel it too," Jasper gasped out between breaths.

Suddenly Jasper was standing in front of me, grabbing my head and putting our foreheads together. Let go Edward, just let go. Embrace the moments you have, don't wallow in your pity embrace her. Love her Edward, need her, want her. Don't let her go again. We were now kneeling on the floor, with our foreheads still together. Tell her you need her, tell her you want her, and don't let her go Edward, go to her and be with her. Say it, out loud, SAY IT. Tell Bella you love her. And that's all it took was to hear her name, jasper and I stood up and he embraced me with a hug and whispered in my ear. "Go to her."

"I have to go to her, I need her, I need to tell her how much I love her," I was telling my family. "Edward, I need to tell you something," Alice was now by my side I talked to her, and she says she needs me right now and that she wants me to come over so we could talk. Are you okay with that? I slightly nodded to her, and walked away. Why doesn't she want me, I need her so much.

Hours has gone by since Alice left, and I was still in my room just laying here staring at the ceiling like it was going to tell me the meaning of life. Well at least not my life, I am a vampire what kind of life is that. I have been damned to this life of no age, of pain. Vampires only fall in love once, and when they fall in love it is so intense and real, it's the only thing that matters to them. Without their mate, they can't go on there is so much angst in their life. And all I need is my other half, I never thought I would find Bella, I never thought if I did find her she would be human. But, when I did finally find her and in the reality she walked into my life, she found me. It was like the sky was full of stars again, there was finally light. And after I walked out of her life, it was pitch black and I could see no more.

I walked into Carlisle's study; he was sitting at his desk reading a book. "I am sorry, I was out of line, I shouldn't have said those hurtful things, and I didn't mean any of it. I know you had the best of intentions and I know why you did it, I've seen it in your head and I would have done the same thing if I was in your position." I said it so fast and with my head down I couldn't look at him. "I am sorry, I don't know if changing any of you was ever justified." Carlisle looked as if he would cry if he could. "Carlisle, if you wouldn't have changed me, I wouldn't have ever felt the most amazing thing I have come across. If you wouldn't have changed me I would not know of the love I have felt, and the pain that I have felt as well. If you wouldn't have changed me I would know nothing of my Bella, I would not know how to love like I do. So I thank you for giving me her, if it weren't for you I wouldn't have ever had her." Just then Carlisle embraced me and told me to not let her go, that she is family and this is where she belongs.

I decided to call Alice, to see what Bella needed to talk to her about. When Alice answered, I heard music and the most amazing soft voice I have ever heard. Bella was singing.

Torn between the love I want, and the hate I feel

But it's truly hard to hate you for what you did

When I love you this much.

Come back to me, come back to me.

"Edward just listen to her music, it's so beautiful"

"Alice, I called to see if you know if she wants to talk to me, or needs me or anything. What had she said about me?"

"Edward, you know and I know and the bar knows how much she loves you, just listen to her lyrics Edward. She needs you and she doesn't even have to tell me that I just know. Don't worry everything will work out just fine. You two need to talk, you need to come to her. I can't leave her again Edward, I won't do it.

"Neither can I Alice, neither can I." And with that I knew what I needed to do; I knew that I need to tell her that I would never leave her again.

I decided I need to get out of this house for a little bit, I needed to clear my head and decide how I was going to come about this. Since Jake is in the picture, I need to do this delicately so a war doesn't break out. After a couple of hours I went back to the house, I slowly walked back I didn't feel like running. It was raining and I wanted to feel the rain on my face.

As I was walking up to the house I could hear everyone. Emmett was watching TV, Rosalie and Alice were deciding on how to rearrange Rosalie's closet and planning a shopping trip for the next day, Esme was in her library looking over some blueprints, from the looks of it she is planning on building a greenhouse in the back of the house. Jasper was in his room reading a book. And someone was playing on the piano, it was a very light, and slow ballad. Who could possibly be at the house, Carlisle wasn't home he was at the hospital.

Then I heard her hum, so softly I ran as fast as I could to the house. When I got to the door her scent hit me like a wrecking ball, it was the sweetest most wonderful scent I have ever encountered. I wasn't sure if I wanted to walk into the house yet, I stayed back a little bit from the door just breathing in her scent. She was here; she was at my house playing on my piano.

She started a song now, and after a few moments after a few key strokes she started singing, very softly very quiet.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

It was a sweet song; I decided to walk in and stand behind her and watch her play. She had her eyes close, and was engrossed into the song she was singing. It was hard to not embrace her but I wanted to watch her, to breathe her in. I've never seen her like this before; it was one of the best moments of my existence. She was singing to me and about me again. She loved me.

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say.

She came to the close of her song now and just sat there with her eyes close. "Edward, I love you." That's all I needed to hear and I was by her side embracing her. 'I am sorry Bella, I left you and I left you bro…" She cut me off, "Shhh…don't talk, you don't need to explain anything you're here now, and I am with you and that's all we need." I smashed my lips to hers just then and I take my last thought back that I had earlier this was the best moment of my existence. I pulled away from her and just looked into her eyes, "Bella, that was the most beautiful song I've ever heard, you truly amazing. But I don't remember you ever knowing how to the play the piano." She started laughing then and it sent chills down my spine, I missed her so much. Hearing her laugh in my head does not do its justice. She is even more beautiful than I remember. I give her my crooked smile I know she always loved and then her heart started racing and I know I succeeded in what I wanted to do when I smiled at her. "I taught myself, I felt if I could do this, then maybe you would come back to me somehow, like I was connected to you. I know it sounds stupid doesn't it?"

"No my love, it's not stupid."

Before I knew it she was off the piano bench and Emmett was swinging her around the room, "Welcome home Bella, it's about time cause we needed some excitement around here, Edward was such a drag." He was booming with laughter, it was so loud it felt like it was shaking the house. But then I realize the shaking was from me laughing. Esme walked over to me then, "Thank you for coming back to us, it's wonderful to see you laugh again, and thank you for bringing Bella back to us as well."

"Emmett, please put me down," Bella was laughing, as well as kicking and swatting Emmett, even though she knew it wouldn't do any good. Emmett finally put her down and she embraced and said her "hellos" to everyone, even Rosalie who gave her an awkward smile. "I think everyone needs to leave Bella and Edward alone, I think they have some catching up to do," Alice chimed in.

I led Bella up to my room so we could talk. "There is nothing to talk about Edward; to me it's as if the last three years never happened. The whole that was my heart is filled now, I can feel it beating again. I love you, you're here and that's all that matters." "Oh Bella, I've missed you so much, I will never leave you again, until you tell me to leave, but even then I don't think I could, I think I would just wait in the wings till you wanted me again."

"I'll always want you, forever." Bella kissed me again; I didn't want to let her go. "Forever," I spoke between kisses.

"Look, I have to go explain things to Jacob and when I am done I will call you, will you come pick me up?" Bella was explaining to me that she had to let Jacob know of her choice, and she knew it wasn't going to be easy. "Of course, you call and I will be there."

After about an hour later, Alice was cleaning my closet out. "What are you doing, you're messing up my room." Alice just gave me a scary glare; she can be such a little monster when she wanted to be. "I am making space in your closet for Bella's clothes, she needs some room and plus we needed to update your wardrobe, I don't know what you were thinking with half of these clothes." Needless to say she is the one who bought most of my clothes, so really she was dissing her own style. "You know I really hate that I can't see werewolves, cause when Bella is around them I can't see her either, I think that's why throughout these past years I only saw glimpses of her, only when she wasn't around Jacob, it's very frustrating I don't know what going on." She never shared this tidbit of information with me before, "What…wait, you can't see Jacob and when Bella is with him you can't see her either, why didn't you tell me this before, I would've went with her, what if she gets hurt…" Alice cut me off, "oh she will be fine Edward, she has been with him for three years now, and hasn't gotten hurt," Ouch, that hurt.

I decided to go downstairs and play the piano, I felt connected to Bella now that she could play too and since she was the last one to play on it. Finally, all of my children are happy again, it's nice to hear Edward playing again, how I missed it. Esme was in the kitchen getting dinner ready for Bella, even though we didn't need human food, she was considerate enough to go to the store and fix something for Bella, when she got home. Oh I liked the sound of that Bella coming home to me.

My phone started ringing, I stopped what I was playing and assumed it was Bella ready for me to pick her up, instead when I looked at the caller ID it was Carlisle. "Hello?" I answered confused cause I couldn't imagine why he would be calling, he would be home soon. "Edward, you need to come to the hospital, it's Bella."