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Bella's POV

I was eating my gourmet breakfast at Edward's house when Emmett burst into the kitchen.

"Help me! Hide me Bella!" He yelled. He was is a tight, black miniskirt. It looked awkward having him in a tight tank top, his muscles showing clearly under the soft fabric. The straps looked as if it was in danger of snapping anytime soon.

I had to laugh. He looked halarious. "Nice look, Emmett. Trying something new?"

"It's Rosalie… She's torturing me!"

"Oh Emmett!! Time for your makeup!!" Rosalie shouted, walking gracefully into the room.

Emmett ran out of the other door, with Rosalie following closely behind him.

I heard Edward chuckle.

"Edward?" I quickly turned around in my chair. His face was almost an inch away from my face. The closeness of his face took me off guard. I gasped.

"Morning." He whispered, his cool breath whirling around my face, the smell shortly lingering in the air. It smelled too good to describe. It smelled nnothing like any spice in the world.

"Uh, hi." I murmered, feeling blood rish to my face as I blushed. I had to get used to living here now. The Cullens treated me as a part of their family, but I didnn't feel accepted yet. I was so used to being scared of vampires that I couldn't quite trust them.



Edward sighed. "Silly Bella. Still shy."

I turned around again, this time facing my half-eaten meal.

"What are you thinking right now?" He asked as he sat down on a chair next to me.

"I'm thinking about the fact that I'm actually full from eating a real breakfast." I shuddered as I remembered the not-even-fit-for-mice breakfast at Victoria's house. I patted my stomach.

"Hmm… you're full from eating that?" He eyed the soggy pancake.

"Yes, would you like some?" I asked. "I'm wondering… What happens when you… let's say… actually eat real food?"

"We have to throw it back up." He paused to see my reaction. After he saw that I was indifferent, he added, "not very pleasant."

"Am I really part of this now? After all these years?" I whispered.

"Part of what?"

"Part of… your family… part of freedom."

"Yes, and we're really glad to accept you as a part of our family."

"But…" I stuttered. "I'm not… a vampire…" I looked at him.

"You don't have to be. We all love you Bella." He said sincerely.

He stared into my eyes. I reached out and touched his cheek. He closed his eyes. I traced the purple bruise-like shadows underneath his eyes with my pinky. He sighed, opening his eyes slowly.

"Yesterday you were so… hyper… so jumpy… But now, you're so cautious. Like you are going to die when you move too fast."



"Yes, because I was so excited that I was finally out of Victoria's rule. And because I lost my mind… because of you."

He took my hand which was still on his face. He squeezed it lightly.

"Well, you don't need to worry now…"

I nodded, but I could see the doubt in his eyes.

Today was Friday, so Edward and Jasper left for hunting. When they disappeared into the thick forest, I trudged up to my new room.

My room was very large. Nothing like my tiny closet bedroom at Victoria's house. The whole backside of my room was glass. I requested having curtains or drapes to cover it. Most of the sun was already blocked by the trees, but I still liked having my privacy.

There was a massive bed on the right side of the room, and an empty bookshelf sat on the opposite side of the bed. The bed was colored all gold. The pillows and blankets were thick and heavy. There was a neatly decorated desk next to the bookshelf. There was also a stereo in the corner, next to the bed, but I was afraid to touch it. It looked too complicated for me.

The room's walls were light green and gold. I considered giving it a new paint job, but Alice's lips pouted. I guessed she was the one who painted it.

I sighed, having nothing to do. I walked over to my desk. I picked up my diary. My diary had my feelings and thoughts ever since the day I worked for Victoria. I picked up a pencil and jumped on the bed. I rearranged the blankets so that I was confortable on the spot, and I plopped down on my stomach. I opened the diary.



The first entry was thirteen years ago. I was surprised that I kept this diary for thirteen years. I was five years old.

Deer Diary, may 6 1995

Today I punchd jessica. She was getting on my nervs. James come up and beet me. I cryd. I don't know how I got heer, but I want to leeve. Victora say that my mom is died. She said that my mom left me when I was born. She say that victora will treet me as if im her own dauter, but that's not tru.

I remembered that day. Jessica was bossing me around, and she punched me. I got so angry, that I punched her back on the nose. James came upstairs and beat on me. I flipped through the first ten pages. Bored, I closed my eyes and flipped to a random page.

Dear Diary, august 3 2000

I got oatmeal again. I am sick to the stomak these last couple of days. I think I ate something wrong… I don't know, but im not feeling good. Victoria doesn't care, neither does james. I think angela is my only friend here. I dream of feeling what it feels like to be free. I never ever saw the ocean. I want to see it. People say its wonderful. I think they are bragging losers. I hate vampires. They are nothing but trouble. I want to see at least one nice vampire in my lifetime. They are all so beautiful. They cach people that way… because of their looks. I want to see a kind vampire one day. I will see one.



I closed the diary, and faced the ceiling. I remembered when I doubted ever meeting a friendly vampire. Well, I've met some now! I even fell in love with one of them. I shook my head. I knew Edward and I couldn't be together… It was against the rules. But if I were to be a vampire…

"No, Bella, don't even think about it…" I tend to talk to myself… an old habit when I was in Victoria's house when I did something wrong.

"Think about what?" A voice came out of the silence.

I sat up straight, hiding my diary under the blanket. "Oh, Alice… I thought you were out shopping…"

"I was, but Edward called telling me I had to look after you." She glared suspiciously down at the bed. "What are you doing?"

"Oh, it's nothing… I was noting some stuff… you know, plans."

She didn't buy it.

"Oh, actually, I was planning to go to…. A city, to you know, shop… for clothes. I was wondering if you could take me?"

Alice's eyes grew wide. "Oh really Bella? I always wanted to go shopping with someone other than Rosalie. She's such a pain when it comes to outfits. Oh, it will be so much fun!" She paused, and tapped her chin with her finger. "Hmm… I gotta check if anything will go wrong…"

"How are you going to do tha-" I stopped, remembering what Edward told me about her extra power. She could tell the future. "Oh, right."

"Nope! Nothing bad's going to happen. Not that I really know of."



I checked to see if my diary was still inside the bedcovers by feeling around the bed with my hand.

"About fifthteen more seconds until Jasper comes into the room." She said, staring blankly across the room.

"Alice?" I asked, confused at what she was staring so intently at.

"Alice!" Jasper cooed, wrapping his arms around her bare shoulders. She was wearing a tight tank top.

"Jasper!" Alice cheered, jumping on his back, and riding him horse- style out of the room.

I sighed, feeling around the blankets again. I touched the diary. I picked it up, and walked to the table. As I was walking towards the door after I placed the book on the table, I felt a slight breeze of wind. I turned around, my eyes wide with fright.

"What was that?" I whispered to myself.

"It was nothing, just me." Edward murmered placing his arm on my back.

"Oh! Oh, your back!"

"Yes, much quicker than I thought." He said, tangling his fingers in my hair.

"Edward, I'm going shopping with Alice.. sometime…"

"Yes, I know. I saw it on her mind when I came back from the hunting trip." He explained.

"How was it?" I asked. I realized that we were in the middle of the room, standing still. I started to walk towards the door with Edward following beside me.

"It was… interesting. Jasper found out that he can put bears to sleep." He laughed.



"Bears? You eat… animals?" I asked, surprised.

"Yes, I don't eat… humans… I'm not a monster."

"I didn't know. Does it fill you up though?" I asked.

"I guess human blood is much more.. thirst quenching than animals… but it's bearable."

"I see…" We were walking down the hallway. All of a sudden, he lifted me up into his arms and he ran to the living room. We got there in half a second.

"Hey Bella, Edward." Rosalie greeted, smiling angelically at us. Next to her was Emmett, completely make-overed. He was in the same oufit when we were in the kitchen. Not only was he wearing tight clothes, but he was wearing make up.

"Shut up Edward." Emmett growled. I didn't realize that Edward was shaking with laughter next to me.

"What did you do to him Rosalie?" I asked, giggling.

"Oh, you know. The basic girl stuff. Eyeliner, eye shadow, mascara, lip gloss, nail polish, heels, a thong, that sort of thing."

"Why?" I urged.

"Oh, he lost a bet." She said, smiling hugely, showing her perfect, ultra-white teeth.

"Ah" I said, unable to say anything more because I was hit by jealousy. I couldn't believe Rosalie ws meant for Edward. She was so breath-takingly beuatiful, while I was…average.

Edward squeezed my hand. I looked up, and saw him staring down at me with worried eyes.

"What?" I asked, confused.



"Jasper's telling me that your feeling worthless. That is not true…"

"oh, well…it's because you were supposed to be with Rosalie, It's like she was perfect for you, but instead of her, you get an average, not beuatiful…human."

Edward glared at Rosalie. It seemed that the glare was supposed to be threatening, but it only made Rosalie put on a smug smile.

"Bella" Edward said," You are worth more than anything in this world. No, this universe. I would go to the Volturi and ask them to kill me if it makes you happy. Well, I hope you won't." He winced.

"I would ask nothing of that matter. Don't feel like you have to give me anything else than what you already given me to make me happy."

"And what did I give you?"

"You gave me yourself. You gave me your time to save me from…Victoria. And I thank you for that."

"It was nothing. Your welcome."

"Come on! Alice yelled.

"Ugh, for the millionth time, I'm coming!" We were going to Seattle to do our "little" shopping that I promised I would do.

"I could only scratch up 6 thousand dollars, if that's okay with you. It could still buy us some stuff, don't worry." She said as I got in Carlisle's Mercedes.

"Alice!! We don't need that much money! That could buy us a whole celebrities wardrobe!!



"Hmm….are celebrities that broke?"

"Alice…."

"Oh, why don't you drive Edward's Volvo? That way, we'll have space for the stuff we're gonna buy."

"Edward's car? Won't he get mad?"

"No, he's in another hunt. Yesterday, he was too worried that something's gonna happen to you. So…he went with Emmett today. So, I'm sure he won't mind."

"Ok…but if he gets mad, then it's your face."

She looked amused.

When we got to Seattle, Alice started squeling. "The shop!! Bella, the new shop!! I've always wanted to go there!!" She jumped around and started screaming.

"Yo, babe, calm down." Said a guy that was wearing all black.

"Sorry, just excited."

"Wanna cool off with a beer? There's a bar nea-"

"No, we're having a little girl's night out. You know, shopping."She said, flinging her arms around me, cutting him off.

"Even better. I can settle for two chicks tonight." He started toward Alice.

"I have a boyfriend, ya know? So I better back off before he comes and wrings you neck jerk.

"Woah, ok. Call me then sexy." He said as he smoothily slid his number written on a piece of dirty paper into Alice's back pocket.



She glared at him, and growled quietly.

"Nice ass babe." He whispered as he walked past me.

"ok, you just stepped the line." Alice muttered to herself, clearly losing control. "Bella, why don't you go back home. It's not that far, alright? If your stuck, call me." She growled through her teeth."

"But Alice-" And she was gone.

I walked over to Edward's car and got in. I was almost out of Seattle and going into La Push when I saw a car parked next to the woods, in danger of being tipped over. I got out of the volvo and went to investigate the car. It was nice, nothing like I ever saw before. Then, I heard a rustling sound in the bushes.

I screamed.

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