Severus had not seen Katie since. She ran out of the school and disappeared. The ministry searched for her for a whole year… Sev blamed himself, Katie was an orphan, and a muggleborn. Sev figured no one really care much about her but him and some select others. Sev would try to remember what it felt like to hold Katie, but it was to painful.

"Damn it!" Sev snapped one day in an order meeting it was apparent to everyone else that Sev was in his own little world. Sirius looked at him nervously.

"Severus is something wrong?" Dumbledore asked.

"Everything." He groaned looking at Sirius.

"What do you mean by everything?"

Severus sighed. "Nothing… I was remembering someone I haven't seen in a long time."

"Katie?" Dumbledore wondered.

"Yes." Sev replied.

"I know where she is…" Alastor whispered.

"Where!?" Sev and Dumbledore both asked at the same time.

"You don't want her, trust me… she's with Voldemort now…. Gone all rotten and such… I think she just went insane… I don't think it was her fault that she joined the deatheaters." Alastor sighed.

"No… it wasn't her fault." Sev replied.

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"My lord." Katie moaned. He had her tied to the bed, kissing her neck.

"Yes love?" he whispered.

"I need you… P-please!"

He smirked and put himself in her roughly. A purr of pleasure erupted from his chest.

She moaned again. He bit her nipple harshly.

Sev stared at Dumbledore this scene had just appeared in his head. He wasn't imagining it… someone had projected it into his mind. He blinked. "I have to go…" He muttered grabbing his arm… at that moment the dark mark burnt.

Sev apparated to the meeting. He sat in a chair, his mind stuck on the last vision he had.

"Where is he?" Severus asked wormtail.

Wormtail smirked. "He's in the room with a… friend… he'll be here in a couple of minutes."

Voldemort walked out of the room smiling. Behind him trailed a masked girl. She looked at Severus coldly and stood behind Voldemort's chair. "I'd like you to meet someone, she came here when she was only in 3rd year…. She was crying and begged me to teach her, not to feel pain, I took her under my wing…."

'And under your covers.' Sev thought sourly.

"And she's now full of any pain, and though she is a mudblood she's quite advanced." He nodded to her. She removed the mask.

It was Katie her green eyes lost their sparkle, and her hair lost its color… her hair was a very pale Brown, and her eyes faded green. Her skin so pale she was almost becoming transparent. But she still looked gorgeous.

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"Sirius I cant take it!" Sev complained, Sirius was massaging his back.

"You love her Sev… that's why…" Sirius explained.

"Yeah… but I love you too…." Sev responded.

"I know… but if you would have saw her… there's no more Katie left in her… just emptiness."

Sirius sighed. "None? At all?"

"She's gone!" Severus groaned. "And I can't bring her back… Voldemort takes advantage of her emptiness, and of her pain by fucking her."

Sirius kissed him. "She's strong… we all know that."

Sev nodded. "Yeah… but Sirius…."

Sirius sighed. "What happened to Lucius?"

"He fell in love with Narcissa… it's just you and me now…"

Sirius smiled. "The way I'd always hoped it would be." Sirius wrapped his arms around Sev's waist… making Sev forget about the whole thing.