Well I lied… I can update today! Lol tomorrow I won't be able to though.

Previously:

"We will see. Thank you for everything. Go home or something." I got out of his Volvo and made my way to my house. I didn't look back. I just went inside. I ran and laid on my couch. There was no way I was going to forget about Edward Cullen.

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I guess I fell asleep because I woke up to Jacob shaking me. "Alright! I'm up! Fuck Jacob."

He stopped shaking me. I sat up and he sat next to me. "Sorry. We have been calling you like crazy and then when we came back here we saw you were sleeping so we left you but that was almost 12 hours ago. I needed to make sure you were alive."

12 hours? Wow. "Sorry. Long night I guess."

"Yeah. Well why don't you go shower and then I'll update you."

"Are you trying to tell me something Jacob?"

"Well to be honest, yes. You smell and look like hell."

I laughed. Jacob was always honest but I probably did. So I took his advice and took a quick shower. I slipped on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and just let my wet hair drip down my back. I went down stairs where Jacob was shoving his face with food. My stomach growled. I hadn't eaten in a long time. "Hungry?" I asked Jacob as I sat next to him at the table.

"Not anymore." He said after licking his plate clean. I smiled. "You look beautiful even like that."

"Jacob." He was always constantly trying to get me to date him. I always said no.

"Sorry! You do plus Billy and Charlie give me so much crap about you!" I raised my eyebrow in curiosity. "Every time they are together they always harass me about going out with you."

"Well sorry to disappoint the 3 of you but I don't date with in us." Meaning the fighters.

"Why? Wouldn't it make things easier? Not having to hide that part of your life or at least having someone that understands."

"Yes but the thing is I want to be able to get away from fighting. And if I date a fighter that's what our relationship would be. I don't want fighting to be my life."

"That's understandable. Maybe you should tell your dad that."

"He wouldn't understand."

Jacob nodded his head in agreement. "So Kellan is awake. He asked for you."

"Oh well I'll visit him after I go get something to eat."

"Um Tyler and Embry's families are a mess. But other than that everyone is recovering well."

"Good. Any funeral plans yet?"

"Not yet. They just don't know where to start."

I nodded. I hated thinking about losing a fellow fighter. It never gets easier.

"You okay Bells?"

Not at all really. "Yeah. As good as you can be after losing 2 well in my case 3 friends."

He got up and hugged me. "We are all here for each other."

"I think you should go be with Embry's family. They need you right now. I'm gonna go do something with my hair, get some food, and go see Kellan."

"Okay call if you need anything." I nodded and we both went out separate ways.

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When I got to the hospital Charlie was in Kellan's room. I smiled at them both. Charlie got up and hugged me. Lucky for me it wasn't like the last hug. I sat at the foot of Kellan's bed.

"Hi buddy." I smiled.

He smiled back. "Hi friend. How are you?"

"I'm okay. How are you?"

"I've been better."

I looked away. It hurt to see him like this. He didn't look any better.

"I'll leave you guys a lone." Charlie said while leaving the room.

"You look like shit." I said honestly. We had that type of relationship.

He smiled. "Thanks. So I heard you kicked some vampire ass."

I smiled a fake smile thinking about Edward saving me. "My trainer taught me some great moves."

He tried laughing but it hurt him. "So was I dreaming when I heard you say this was all your fault earlier?"

I thought back to the last time I was up here when I almost left the town. "No you weren't dreaming. It is true. I left you guys for my own personal satisfaction and look what happened." I looked a way ashamed.

"Bella, I'm too weak to argue so after I say this 1 things just leave it alone and don't argue." I nodded. "This is not your fault. You did the right thing. These vampires were just stronger than others were. Don't blame yourself. Okay?" I nodded even thought I didn't agree. Especially since I'd be dead right now if it weren't for Edward. If it weren't for Edward who knows where I'd be. I'd either be dead or away from this town. I thought about Edward more. I thought about his pale skin, crocked smile, golden eyes, and bronze hair. He was all I wanted to think about.

"You okay Bella?" Kellan brought me back to reality.

"Yeah just things on my mind."

"Want to talk about it?"

I wish I could but there was no way I'd put Edward in danger. I felt protective of him in a way. Even though he needed no protection. "Have you ever wanted something that you knew was wrong and you knew no one would approve of?"

"Can't say I have. What is this about Bella?"

"Nothing. Just thinking."

"You've lost me."

Charlie walked in so our conversation ended there. Charlie and Kellan started talking about who knows what. I ignored them and thought about Edward. He was right. There was something there. And there was no way I could ignore it. "I think I want to go clear my head." I interrupted them and got to my feet. I needed Edward Cullen.

"You okay honey?" Charlie looked concerned.

"Just a lot to take in you know? Just need to be alone. Is that okay or do you need me to do anything?"

"No you go and help yourself." Charlie said while I gave him a hug and kissed Kellan on the cheek goodbye.

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I was sitting on a swing at the elementary school I went to when I was little. I was waiting for him while I swung like a little girl again. I was really hoping he was listening because there was some sort of urgency inside of me when I thought about him. I stopped swinging because my ribs started hurting too much.

"You should really get them looked at." I heard a velvety voice behind me. He sat on the swing next to me.

"I'll be okay."

"You sure?" I nodded afraid of what my voice would sound like if I spoke. "Are you sure about this Bella?"

No. "But I can't ignore my feelings for you and I don't want to try."

He got off his swing and started pushing me. I let myself forget about everything accept the guy behind me. I don't know why he was all I thought about. It goes against everything but he is the 1 person I could be myself around. I don't have to hide anything from him and he could understand me.

"Listening to you is like music. It calms me."

He stopped my swing and was now in front of me. I was looking up at him.

"This is a bad idea Edward."

"I know but we can't ignore it."

"No we can't but how is this gonna work?"

He knelt down and put his hands on my cheeks. Even thought his skin was cold against mine it felt just right. "I'll figure something out but I will make this work Bella." He was so confident. And looking into his eyes reassured me.

"Why do you think it is like this for us. I mean it is the most forbidden thing for the both of us."

"I have no idea. Why do you have super strength and why can I read minds. These are things we will never know. But these are the things that led us together."

"Does your family know about me?"

"I can't hide anything from my family."

"And what is their take on this?"

He was quiet and he looked away from me. My stomach dropped. This can't be good.

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Preview:

"I'm sorry for anything they do. I'm trying not to be apart of it but you guys wouldn't turn your back on each other. They are my family. I won't go against them. But that being said I owe Edward for saving me. So I will warn you guys so Edward doesn't have to follow them." I kept my attention on Edward. "I'm sorry for everything that comes out of this."

So next chapter is when the real conflict starts. I may update again today.. maybe not. Review please though!