Sorry it took so long! I have had writers block and I have been busy with college and my boy : ) sorry sorry!So this is where my prologue left off at. Which said…
But here I am now on the run with a vampire. I lay in bed with his arms wrapped around me trying to plan out our next move. It feels perfect being in his arms. His skin may be cold against mine but I wouldn't have it any other way. Maybe I should go back a couple months ago so you can fully understand this situation.
Oh and LovedByEdward, I know he seemed OOC but I kind of explain it in this chapter.
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So here I am laying in his arms. I didn't regret last night at all. I loved every minute of it. I was surprised he let us go all the way. He was all for waiting till I was ready. I believed I was ready since I set my eyes on him but he thought differently. He never gave in but last night he did.
"It is so hard to hear your thoughts and hold back from you." Edward answered an unasked question.
"I'm sorry." I felt guilty.
"Don't be. I have the same thoughts as you but to hear yours and mine it gets over whelming. And I wasn't going to let it go that far but then you took off your shirt and I couldn't hold back anymore." He started rubbing my arm and he kissed my hair. "100 years of not having sex never bothered me until you came along. You with your scent, beautiful hair, gorgeous eyes, breath taking lips, and deadly body. I couldn't hold it in anymore."
I had nothing to say because he had me all wrong. That is what it's like being with him.
"That is why we go together so well. We both think so highly of each other but so lowly of ourselves."
I closed my eyes and tried listening for a beating heart inside his chest, which should be there. My stomach growled. I hadn't eaten in awhile.
"I'll order you some room service. Why don't you go shower." He said getting of the bed. I laid there for a minute staring at his body and remembering last night.
"Bella. Please keep your thoughts to yourself and get in the shower." I giggled and got into the shower.
I was sitting out on the balcony while Edward was on the phone with Carlisle discussing everything. Hopefully everything was okay. I hadn't really worried about them because it was too hard to worry. My phone buzzed and it was a text message from Alice. That meant she was okay.
So you finally did it Bella! Yay!
It is so hard hiding anything with the Cullens.
Yes we did Alice.
I knew she was telling all of the Cullens. Emmett was probably having a good laugh.
We will talk more when I see you again.
I shut off my phone not wanting to have to deal with things anymore. I just want to move away with Edward. I took in the sun and let it drain all my thoughts.
"Bella?"
"Yes?"
"Can you come in and talk?" Edward sounded hesitant.
I got off the chair and went inside and sat on the couch watching Edward pace back and forth. I knew this wasn't good at all. "Edward what is going on? Is everything okay?"
"Yes. No. I don't know."
"Please just tell me."
"The house is fine and so is my family."
"That's good Edward."
"But there was a fight. And Jacob." He stopped and so did my heart. "Jacob. Jacob died Bella."
I didn't know what to think. I know I didn't agree with him and I didn't want to be apart of that family anymore but I didn't want any of them to die. "How?" I asked him.
"Well Jacob and Emmett were fighting and Jacob was about to snap Emmett's neck and Jasper pulled him off and then killed him." That made me more confused because Jasper was just saving Emmett. And I would be more upset if Jacob killed Emmett. "So Charlie stopped fighting after that but he also told Carlisle that if we didn't leave Forks he would expose us for who we are and get the whole town against us. And he'd make sure Carlisle couldn't get a job anywhere." I sat still not knowing what to think about the threats Charlie made on my new family. "They are going to be here in an hour or so, so we can decide together as a family what we should do."
"I'm gonna go walk. I need to think without you in my head." I said not trying to be rude. I just needed to be alone.
"I understand. Just keep your cell on." Edward threw me my phone and I put on some flip-flops and left the hotel.
I was walking to I don't know where but I just needed to digest everything. I don't get how the Cullens still wanted me to be apart of their family. I'm the reason for all of this. I'm the reason everyone has died. Why the Cullens can't stay in Forks. Why Edward wasn't there to fight with his family. I was the reason and I didn't deserve to be with Edward. Or to really be happy at all. I can't believe Jacob is dead. He was my best friend for years and I would never want him dead no matter how much I disagreed with him. And Charlie just pisses me off. He truly doesn't care about me. It hurt a lot. He just cared about getting rid of the Cullens. But I am happy Jasper saved Emmett. I think I'd feel more guilty if Emmett had died. Emmett has been so good to me. He has been there for me, always making me laugh. He was like a big brother to me. I decided to walk back. I know me being out was killing Edward. Plus I just wanted to be in his arms now.
When I got into the suite Edward was pacing back and forth once again and rubbing the temples on his forehead. I put my arms around his waist from behind. He stopped rubbing his temples and sighed.
"I need you Bella."
"I know."
We went and laid on the couch together and he held me in his arms. I took a deep breath because I knew I needed to be ready for whatever was coming our way.
"Bella we are in this together. I love you more than you know. Everything I do, I do for you. And you are worth the world Bella. I will do anything for you. I will do anything to hear your beating heart and to hold you in my arms forever."
I took another deep breath to take in what he just said. There was nothing I could say to top what he just said. I just closed my eyes and laid in his arms. He turned on some music and we just took in the last few moments we had together.
I don't know if I dosed off or what but I jumped when I heard Emmett's booming laugh. I was confused for a moment but I opened my eyes and saw all the Cullens spread out in the room. I sat up.
"Bella!" Alice screamed and ran to me and gave me a hug. "Spill." I knew what she was talking about and so did everyone else. They were all looking at me and I looked at Edward. He smiled.
"I don't kiss and tell." I said getting off the couch and went and got a soda out of the fridge. They all laughed.
"It's a good thing Edward just told us about it than." Emmett said laughing. I glared at him.
"Sorry love. I can't hide it from them." I crossed my arms over my chest and walked on the balcony. "Bella get in here so we can discuss everything." Edward demanded me. I obeyed him. And I went and sat in his lap and waited for someone to start the conversation.
"Bella I want to say I'm sorry." Jasper said looking at me with calming eyes. And before I could feel sad he calmed me.
"It's okay Jasper. I'm glad you saved Emmett. You had to do what you had to do." I said truthfully. He gave me a small smile. "So where are we moving?" I tried getting everything started. They all started discussing things but I tuned them out. I truly didn't want to move away from Forks. I wish there was a way to live there but I knew there wasn't. I wish I could just talk to Charlie and try making him see everything clearly but I knew I couldn't. But maybe this would be good for me. If I got away from Forks I could start a new life with my new family.
"Bella? What do you think?" Esme said and I realized I had missed the whole conversation. Edward chuckled in my ear.
"Um…" I didn't really know what to say.
"We are thinking to move to Hanover, New Hampshire." Edward said in a whisper. "There is a good college there that we could go to together and a good hospital Carlisle could work at."
"That sounds great." I tried sounding excited but I just had mixed emotions.
"Alright well I'll try setting things up." Carlisle said while taking his laptop and phone into another room. Edward started playing with my hair and I just started thinking about everything.
"Bella you think way to much." Edward said kissing my neck. I didn't respond I just let myself think more. I couldn't help it. My phone started ringing and I saw it was Charlie. I quickly answered it.
"Hello?"
"Bella?"
"Yes Charlie." All the Cullens looked at me and Carlisle ran into the room.
"Did your new family tell you about Jacob?"
"Yes they did."
"And you are still gonna stay with them?"
"He was gonna kill Emmett. They have a right to defend each other."
"He was your best friend."
"Dad you guys abandoned me. You are trying to kill people I love. I'm sorry that Jacob died I am but what is the point of this phone call."
"I need you back here Bells." It sounded like he was begging. "I need my daughter."
"You lost your daughter."
"I need my best fighter Bells."
"You have to got to be fucking kidding me?" I got to my feet "If you think for one second I would even help you with anything anymore you are dead wrong. I'm done with that stuff Dad. I'm done living your life. I'm done suffering. I'm happy Dad. For the first time since Mom died I am happy. You'd think you'd be happy about that but you're not. You always prided yourself at being a good father, protecting me, and always doing what's best for me well I hope you are happy with yourself, with your life. You lost your daughter and this time you can't blame vampires, you can only blame yourself." With that I hung up and threw my phone with all of my strength and it shattered to pieces. All the Cullens, even Emmett, jumped when the phone hit the wall. They all looked at me in silence. For a moment I didn't care what was running through their minds. I didn't care that they just saw me melt down. But then I came to reality and realized that they had never seen that side of me and they probably thought I was crazy. I ran past them all and ran out of the room.
I didn't run far. I got to the elevator and I stopped. I leaned my back against the wall and took a deep breath. In and out. In and out. I slid my back down the wall until my butt reached the floor. I buried my face in my hands and started crying. I lost my father and he didn't care.
"Bella." I heard my angel's voice. "Bella, love." I felt him sit next to me. He didn't touch me though; he gave me my space. I lifted up my face and met his eyes. He wiped my tears with his thumb.
"Your family probably thinks I'm crazy." I laughed a little.
"Our family thinks nothing of the sort. OUR family understands." I could hear his emphasis on our when he spoke. "I'm sure Charlie will come around Bella. Once you enter someone's life they can't let you go. It is impossible." He brushed the hair from my face to behind my ear. I took a deep breath and leaned my head on Edward's shoulders, he put his arm around me and kissed my hair. "Our family is waiting for you. They want to have a family night."
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So it wasn't much but like I said I've had a writers block. I think I have a few more chapters in me. I don't know this story didn't go exactly as planned. Let me know if you have any ideas please! Review! I promise I'll try updating sooner next time.