"Indeed, I was born guilty, a sinner when my mother conceived me."
Psalm 51:5
Junior Year, Fall Semester
The summer was full of severe sexual tension with absolutely no relief. Well, other than his hand.
So when the end of August approaches he's sort of okay with leaving. He lucked out in the whole housing lottery so he's going to live in East Campus with five strangers and have his own bedroom…which will be useful.
He is beyond disgusting.
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Teresa cries when they leave Alex at NYU, she's so proud of her baby girl and it's going to be so quiet at the loft without her two oldest.
Jerry's still amazed Alex got in. Granted, her grades did improve greatly the last year and a half of her high school career. But still.
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Alex has a secret, well, other than the whole 'in love with a brother that might be in love with her too'; she wore the smarty pants during the first half of the ACTs.
Not that anyone needs to know.
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His roommates aren't the friendliest, but he doesn't really care.
He talks to her once a week.
It's awkward but he needs to hear her.
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Alex can't stand her roommate. Her name is Nikki (short for Nicolet, but who wants be called that?); she wears weird clothes, drinks a lot, and sleeps with everyone.
Jesus.
Alex hasn't had a decent night's sleep since the second week of school. There's always creaking, moaning and the sound of bodies moving together.
She adds earplugs to her shopping list.
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There's a difference between getting off to the thought of your sister and actually having sex with your sister.
So as much as he wants her, he can't do a damn thing about it.
Not yet at least.
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She read this book once about this couple. They fall in love under strange circumstances.
The guy is always gone because he can time travel or something like that. And the girl is kind of sad because she's always waiting. But she keeps living because eventually the guy comes back and even if it's only for a day, or a few weeks it's so worth it because nothing is better than the two of them together.
And Alex thinks: yeah, that's about right.
So she waits. Because there's nothing else to do.
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He hugs her on Thanksgiving. It isn't much. But he's trying.
She smiles at him warmly and he figures it was the right thing to do.
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Alex comes back from the library one night to find Nikki giving head to their World Civ professor.
She rolls her eyes, plants herself outside door and pulls out her iPod and her latest book.
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Justin really doesn't understand how she did this. It's hard, confusing, lonely and just plain sucks.
He figures it's sort of like having an addiction. So his first step is acknowledging it.
He stares at himself in the mirror one night and practices, "Hello, my name is Justin Russo and I'm in love with my sister."
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She kisses him on the cheek Christmas morning.
She couldn't help it. His skin was flushed with excitement and his eyes were especially grey.
He's still such a kid, she thinks to herself with a small smile and a quiet laugh.
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Teresa hurriedly snapped a picture of Alex pecking Justin's cheek.
It's been such a long time since they've really gotten along.
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He googles 'incest' one night and spends hours reading about it.
Is this what Alex did?
Junior Year, Spring Semester
"Why don't you date anyone?" Nikki asks her after winter break.
Alex glances at her and shrugs, turns the page in her latest copy of Elle. "The person I want isn't available at the moment."
Nikki scoffs, "So? You can still have fun. Come with me tonight."
Alex sighs, "No thanks."
Nikki shakes her head and walks toward the door, "Whateve, let me know when you're done with this," she motions at Alex's pajama clad form with a frown, "and we'll have some fun."
"Sure, looking forward to it." She rolls her eyes at the door.
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"Russo! Some girl is here to see you."
Justin's brow creases, no one comes to visit. Oh God, what if it's Kate? He walks down the stairs and is pleasantly surprised to see Alex at the bottom of them.
Her cheeks are rosy and there's still some snow in her hair. "Hey. You should buy me some ice cream."
He smirks, "Really? In February, why?"
She raises her eyes skyward, "'Cause it's Valentine's Day, duh."
His smile widens, "Of course, silly me. Let me get my coat."
They hold hands and the warmth of her hand burns.
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She gets drunk in March. She was bored, lonely and just tired of everything, so she took Nikki up on her offer and goes to some lame ass party.
It smells like sweat and pot and debauchery, she scrunches up her nose in disgust. She drinks a couple (okay, like, five) wine coolers and some guy tries to feel her up. She knees him in the groin and rushes outside and hails a taxi.
She doesn't remember telling the cab driver where she wanted to go but somehow she's ended up on Justin's doorstep.
She knocks and some pissy girl answers the door and glares at her before leading her to Justin's room and leaving her there.
Justin lets her in, gives her some boxers and a shirt to sleep in (he only peeks once while she's changing) and watches her after she passes out on his bed.
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"Hello, my name is Justin Russo and I'm in love with my sister."
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She finally just gets tired of it and pulls him down to kiss her one night.
He pulls away a second later and she feels his hot breath on her neck as he breathes in and out. She gives him a second and sure enough his lips are back on hers.
He traces her bottom lip with his tongue and she quietly moans.
So worth it.
A/N: I've forgotten to do this the last two chapters: I do not own Wizards of Waverly Place. Or Elle. Or the novel The Time Traveler's Wife. Or anything else that I may mention that sounds familiar. Thank you for reviewing and please continue to let me know what you think of the story.