Once we were about 30 miles away from the motel that I kinda slept with a strigoi, but it wasn't my fault. I just felt drawn to him, but he had a look in his eyes that said he didn't know what was happening either. Maybe this had to do with the fact that he was probably looking to bring me back to the academy where i'd be forced to kill the Queen. But what hurt the most is that I don't really regret it. I actually wanted it to happen. Well it wasn't like it was when I was with Dimitri. When I was with Dimitri, it just felt right and I felt loved and it was just plain perfect. Period. But with Edward, the sex was good, but didn't come with the butterflies and razorblades like it did with Dimitri.
So the sun was about to come up again and we hadn't spoken the whole time untill finally I herd myself say " We'll have to stop again. The sun is coming up." But he didn't say a word he just nodded and kept walking. About a mile up the road was a little country Inn. We went to check in but they only had one room and I had planned to get two. So we were stuck together again. But this time it was worse. There was only one bed!
I through my bag on the floor by the bed a plopped on the bed. Ok how was this going to work. He was looking pale, and very distant. Maybe he was thirsty. That deffinatly could not be good. And there is no fucking way he is feeding off of me. It felt good the other night, but too good. And I didn't want to risk being completely overwhelmed and waking up in his arms again. It felt wrong. I was sworn to love someone else and that was not Edward. So I took off my shoes and flipped on the T.V. and changed it to channel 5 news and watched but didn't really pay attention. I was too aware of Edward standing next to the end of the bed just staring off into space. What was wrong with him???
"What happened back there?" He finally said. His voice startled me cause it was so unexpected. I was just starting to actually watch the news. There had been two murders last night in Montanna near the academy. But I couldn't think of an answer so I just shrugged, and let out a sigh. He just looked away when I finally tried to meet his gaze. Something was wrong with Lissa. I felt it through our bond imediatly and my mind was forced into hers. There she was. With my mother. It looked to me like they were arguing because my mom had that hard look on her face.
"How can you just betray your best friend?" My mother shouted. Ok that was totally unexpected as well since my mother had just called me useless. And now she was defending me against Lissa???
"She betrayed me for a man. She done this to herself. If she does not come back then Dimitri is dead. Do you understand. It is my turn to rule and im just glad that many others see it too. If either of you go againt me....well lets just say that would be a HUGE mistake on your part. Do you understand this Gaurdian Hatheway?" Lissa said. She was really starting to get on my nerves with all this bow to me shit. Thats not who she is or was anyways.
" I will not move against you, but listen to this. You do anything at all to hurt my baby and you will not have a breath left in that puny little body of yours. And that is no threat. It is a promise." My mother said with a face as hard as stone. I felt Lissa's temper flare. I know what I have to do. I must go back to the academy and save my mother and true love. But if I didn't want anyone to know I know whats going on. I needed an excuse. But what?????