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Chapter 3:
Part I: This was no accident
Jacob
~*~
I came to tell the
truth, but I'm not the only
one with truths to tell.
~*~
The word hate seemed to dominate my mind lately. My life seemed to revolve around the concept of hate.
I hated the Cullens for turning me into what I was, especially that leech Edward for what he did to Bella. I hated being a werewolf, I hated being unable to explain to Bella exactly why I had to leave her and why I wasn't safe to be around. I hated not being safe, supposedly we were the protectors of the land, but we were so dangerous and unstable.
But most of all, I hated myself. There had to have been another way, a way I just hadn't thought about yet. It can't end like this, with me breaking my sweet, innocent Bella's heart. I had broken my promise to always be her friend, and what I did was just as bad as the bloodsucker.
My Bella. Could I even call her that anymore? She must hate me now, she's probably cursing me this very second.
Wait, no. Bella doesn't curse. Still, I don't expect her to ever forgive me, though I bet she will anyway.
I wanted, no needed, to tell her why I had said all those things to her. Tell her why I was too dangerous to hang around anymore, tell her how much I love her! I ached to tell her she was my world and how much happier she made me. I loved everything about her! The way her body felt next to mine when we walked on the beach over almost a year ago, how it felt to dance with her at prom even if it was only for one song, how it felt just to have her in my vicinity.
"JACOB!!! Stop thinking about Bella! You're even worse than Sam when he thinks about Emily!" Embry's voice wined in my head.
We were both on duty right now, circling La Push wary of the red-headed vampire that may be around. Both of us were in wolf form right now, which meant we were mentally linked to each other so Embry had heard my entire train of thought.
"Sorry, this mind link thing can take some get used to." I thought, though this time it was directed to him instead of in general.
He snorted in his mind, and probably aloud too.
"I doubt any of us are used to this mind link and I doubt any of us will be anytime soon."
"Exactly, so until then, you'll have to deal with me thinking about Bella." He mentally groaned, and I snickered.
Poor Embry, I know how it is to have to listen to all these mushy love thoughts. Sam never stops thinking of Emily, and it does get pretty sickening.
Still, Bella controlled my mind right now. I could think of nothing BUT her. If Sam hadn't directly ordered me not to tell her about us being werewolves, I'd tell her right this second. It's not like I hadn't told her the legends before.
…Damn, I was an idiot.
Making sure my thoughts were clearly off topic, I darted off to Bella's house.
"JAKE! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" Embry's voice screamed in my head, and I could hear him wonder if he should come after me or not beneath his voice.
"I'm just paying a visit to Bella, I'll be back before you know it." Embry whimpered in his mind, obviously not happy, but unsure of what to do.
"But Sam put us on guard duty, you can't just leave!"
"Embry, seriously, don't be such a wimp. We haven't seen the bloodsucker in DAYS. If anything happens, just get backup."
"What happened to you coming right back?!?"
"I AM, seriously, relax." He sighed in his mind almost inaudibly, but I knew I'd won this argument.
"You're going to be in so much trouble with Sam…whatever. Just don't tell Bella what you are alright?"
"I shouldn't have to."
Before he could say anything I shifted back into my normal form. I'd finally figured out how she could know the truth, all she had to do was guess.
Right now I was in the woods behind Bella's house, naked as a matter of fact. Thank God I'd been carrying a pair of shorts in my mouth since the beginning of duty. I'd learned since my first shift, you may never know when you may need a pair of pants.
I slipped the shorts on, ignoring the fact that they were somewhat wet from wolf slobber, and stepped out of the tree line. Bella's window was dark, and I could only assume she either wasn't up there or she was asleep. Hoping it was because she was asleep, I decided to climb the leafless tree beside her window, and hope no one sees me.
Being a werewolf sure has its advantages. It took less than a minute for me to reach Bella's window, and I peered into the dark room. Completely empty.
I hesitated. There were two choices I could make from here.
1. I could go in via window, which constitutes as breaking and entering, and wait for her there. Problems with this plan: Bella might get freaked out to find someone waiting in her room for her and scream or something, and then Charlie may come up and I'd be so screwed.
2. I could knock on the door like any normal person, and just wait for her downstairs.
Not wanting to be put in a jail cell, I decided plan 2 was safest.
I jumped to the ground with ease, landing gracefully on my feet. See, cats aren't the only animals that always land on their feet.
Swiftly, I walked to the front door, and knocked. Seconds later, Charlie opened the door.
"Jacob! What a surprise, what are you doing here at this time of the night?"
It hadn't occurred to me that it was that late out, but it was pitch black outside. I struggled to come up with an excuse.
"Um, I was in the neighborhood and I thought I'd come apologize to Bella about earlier." As lame excuse for an excuse as it was, Charlie seemed to buy it.
"Well that's great! Bella was sure upset when she came home after the argument between you two. Come on in."
I frowned at hearing I'd made Bella upset, though I knew I had, and nodded in thanks. Not surprisingly, Charlie was watching a game and eating pizza.
"Bella's upstairs in her room, you can either go up there, or wait for her down here."
I hesitated. Charlie didn't seem to know that Bella WASN'T in her room, and I began to worry where she was. But my heightened hearing heard water running, and I calmed when I realized she was in the shower.
"Um, nah, I'll just wait for her down here. I think she's in the shower."
"Huh? Oh, right. She usually does take one before bed, she shouldn't be in there long." Charlie walked over to the staircase, and screamed, "BELLS, JACOB'S HERE TO SEE YOU. AFTER YOU'RE DONE, COME DOWN!"
We both waited for a reply, but none came. Charlie shrugged.
"Guess she couldn't hear me." We both took a seat and watched the game, though I was more preoccupied about Bella. "Hey Jake."
"Hm?"
"Mind if I ask why you're shirtless?"
I jumped with surprise. I'd completely forgotten about that! Blushing slightly, I once again struggled to come up with an excuse.
"I'd been…running. Yeah, that's why I was in the area, just doing my nightly jog."
"Oh, very athletic. Not to be rude or anything, but you might want to borrow a shirt of mine before you talk to Bella." Though Charlie's voice was nice and suggesting, his eyes were hard and he didn't look very happy at the thought that I'd be talking to his daughter shirtless.
"Of course," I said, standing to go get one. "I'll go grab one, where's your room?"
"Upstairs, last door on the right." I nodded, and took the steps two at a time, in a hurry to get away.
At the top, a wave of Bella's scent hit me hard. I'd become very used before the change, but now I could smell it exactly, and it seemed to smell almost flower like. Right now however, I could smell a sharp undertone to it. As I walked down the hall, the other smell became more potent, and I was getting worried.
Finally, I'd reached the bathroom door, and this other scent was very strong. Hesitantly, I knocked on the wood door.
"Bella? Bella, it's me Jake. Are you okay in there?" I listened, but I couldn't hear anything. "BELLA!" I screamed a little louder, my ear pressed hard against the cold door.
I could hear the water, I could hear it hit tub, and I could even hear it hit her flesh. But I could barely hear her breathing.
"BELLA, IF YOU DON'T ANSWER I'M GOING TO BREAK THIS DOOR DOWN!" After hearing no reply, I felt I had no choice but to break the door open.
It only took one good hit with my newfound strength. Now open, the bathroom seemed normal. The mirror was fogged up with steam, her clothes were thrown half-hazardly on the floor, the curtain was pulled out, but the strange scent was even stronger in here. It was familiar, and I knew I'd smelled it before, but what was it?!
"Bella?" My hand was halfway outstretched now to pull away the curtain. I didn't want to, I knew she'd be extremely mad if I saw her naked, but she didn't answer me. My hand clamped on the edge of the curtain, and it occurred to me what that strange smell was.
It was blood.
With one quick motion I pulled away the curtain and gasped.
My Bella was covered in blood, her legs, slightly bent but facing in opposite directions, as if she struggled and failed to stand. Red marks ran down her arm, some speckled with blood. But that was nothing compared to her wrists which had been shredded to pieces, dried blood luckily coving the cut only allowing a small trickle of blood to fall from the wounds. Quickly I gathered the girl in my arms, bring her chest to my ears as I struggled to hear her heartbeat or breath. Luckily, I heard both, faint as they were.
I sighed in relief. Bella was still alive, though she wouldn't be for much longer if I didn't get her to a hospital soon. Gently, I put one of my arms underneath her knees, and picked her up bridal style. Metal clanged against the tub. I looked down and saw a razor had fallen from her grasp. My mouth fell open, and I stared down at her in shock.
SHE HAD DONE THIS TO HERSELF? My Bella tried to commit suicide? Guilt came over me in waves. Obviously I had something to do with this, it was too much of a coincidence that she slits her wrist after I said I didn't want to be her friend. Still, I had to save her.
"CHARLIE!"
Part II: This was a Therapeutic Chain of Events
Alice
~*~
When I walked into
that hospital room, I walked
into a nightmare.
~*~
It was pitch black outside, and the digital car clock declared it was 12 a.m. The odometer told me I was going 110 miles per hour, but if felt like I was going 2. A blur went by, and only because of my vampire eyesight did I know it said "WELCOME TO FORKS".
I sighed thankfully. Finally I'd arrived in forks. Even at a constant speed of over a hundred miles an hour, it'd taken me a few hours to finally get here. I was only minutes away from Bella now, and I prayed I'd make it in time.
Eight minutes later, I turned the BMW into Bella's driveway, the breaks squeaking as I abruptly stopped. In seconds I was out of the car, up the tree Edward always used to get into Bella's room at night, and in her bedroom.
Everything was perfect, certainly unused for at least the past 12 hours. Instantly, the scent of blood hit me like a brick wall. The smell was so strong, and delectable it made me mouth water. Before I could lose myself completely, run towards this savory scent, I stopped breathing. Though the scent was still fresh in my mind and the monster within me begged to find that person's blood and suck them dry, I had control of myself.
After a couple more seconds, I trusted myself enough to go to Bella.
I had hoped that Charlie had found her and taken her to the hospital by now, but I was surprised to see the door knocked off its hinges. The tub was empty, though still stained with blood, and I gave out a sigh of relief. I allowed myself one more quick breath, when I caught another scent.
Werewolf. A growl built in my chest, but I didn't let it out. I'd deal with the mutts later, right now I had to get to the hospital and see Bella.
In seconds, I was on the road again, driving to Forks Hospital, though no where near as fast as before.
It still didn't take me very long to reach the hospital, but I was in for another surprised. The small hospital parking lot was PACKED with cars. There certainly weren't any spaces left, and cars were attempting to find spots in the grass. Knowing better, I parked a block down, and ran back, only a little faster than human speed.
The inside of the hospital was more packed than the outside had been. It was pure chaos. Babies were crying, a hoard of yelling people surrounded the receptions desk, and the rest of the people were talking amongst themselves, just taking up room.
"Excuse me," I asked the nearest person to me. "What happened?"
"Didn't you hear?" The man asked, and I shook my head in response. "There was a 15 car pile up at the main intersection, largest car pileup in history. Everyone and their brother is here. Hell, about a third of these people are actually related to the victims. It's been crazy like this for the last 2 hours."
"Thanks." I said, before trying to make my way through the crowd.
This was not good. With all these people here, Bella could not be getting the attention she deserved. Still, all these people made it easier for me to sneak in.
My original plan was to sneak a look at the room number, but that was impossible with how many people crowded the reception, so I would have to do things the hard way. At vampire speed, I ran through the hallway, checking each room for Bella. I was careful not to hit anyone, and everyone was too busy to notice the blur that ran past them.
Eventually, I was on the second floor in the intensive care unit. Though I'd expected her to be in the ER, I'm not surprised she had been moved to the ICU. After all, the ER was full of car crash victims, and the doctors had their hands full.
It took me three tries, but finally I opened the right door.
A dry sob slipped from between my lips at what I saw. She looked exactly like I'd seen her in my vision, her once full red tinted cheeks ghostly white and sunk in. Her eyes, though closed, had darker circles under them than my own did. A thin cover had been brought up to her chin, but I could tell she was sickly skinny and I worried if she had stopped eating since we left.
Still, I was relieved to see her chest rise up and down slowly, telling me she was breathing. The heart monitor beside the bed beeped in a steady rhythm, stating she was in a stable condition, and that was my top priority.
"What the hell are you doing here bloodsucker." My attention snapped to the growling figure in the corner of the room. My lip drew back, showing my sharp white teeth, as I snarled back.
"I could ask you the same thing pup." Said mutt glared at me.
"I didn't leave her like someone here did."
"Then where were you when she slit her wrists?" I snapped, losing my temper. Who did dog think he is? My comment seemed to hit a vein.
"I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS SUICIDAL! If I did I wouldn't have—" He choked on his own sentence. Unintentionally, I relaxed.
I remember this pup now, I'd seen him at prom. It's not surprising I hadn't noticed right away, he'd grown over a foot taller and his long hair was now cut short. Back then he hadn't been a dog either, mostly likely it was our fault he even is one now. Still, by the looks of it, he cares for Bella.
"Really leech, what the hell are you doing here?"
I rolled my eyes.
"I came to make sure Bella was okay, obviously."
He eyes lowered slightly, his eyes turning into slits.
"How did you know she slit her wrists? How did you even know she was hurt?"
I shrugged, as I mentally hit myself for letting my power slip.
"I had a feeling. What about you mutt?"
He stared at me suspiciously.
"I found her. I'm Bella's friend…or at least I was."
I raised an eyebrow at that, but on the inside I was growling again. Why was Bella hanging around this werewolf! First she hangs out with vampires, now mutts? Bella, you really are a danger magnet!
"What do you mean was? If you hurt her in any kind of way, I swear—"
"Look whose talking! Do you have any idea what you did to her by leaving?! I know I hurt her, but I went to her house last night to apologize. You on the other hand could care less unless about her!"
This time, I growled out loud.
"You've no idea what you're saying! I never wanted to leave Bella, and I would've returned if I hadn't promised not to. She is my sister, and I love her. I have no idea who you are to her, but until then I'm not going to fight with you."
Silence filled the room. Our eyes were locked on each other, daring the other one to look away first. Finally he talked.
"Okay, I understand why you're here, but why are you dressed like a prostitute?"
Oh, right. I was still in my "Seducing Jasper" outfit. Unable to stop myself I laughed, soon to be joined by the teenage boy.
"I'm Alice by the way, I don't remember your name."
"Jacob Black."
"Well, I can't say it's nice to meet you, but I can say thanks for saving her."
At that moment, Charlie walked in. He stopped for a moment, blinking in confusion, but then he rushed over and took me in a hug.
"ALICE! Is that really you? How did you know we were here?" Charlie asked, pulling away from the hug. The man looked exhausted, and I could tell he really needed some rest.
"Well, I've come down to Forks to visit, and though I knew it was kind of late, I decided to go see how you two were. When I got to the house, however, no one answered, and then I noticed some blood outside the door. Worried, I rushed here and somehow managed to get her room number despite the chaos downstairs."
Charlie nodded, buying the excuse I had thought up on the ride here.
"I just came back from the pileup scene, I didn't want to leave Bella but everyone has to pull their weight. Thank God Jacob found her when he did, doctors said she was minutes from dieing."
"Wow, we're very fortunate! What happened exactly?"
"Well, she—" Charlie coughed, though I could hear a sob beneath it.
"She slit her wrists while taking a shower." Jacob said from behind me emotionlessly. His eyes however were bright with anger, but wet as he kept back tears.
I gasped theatrically, and though it was impossible for me to actually cry, I tried to look like I was about to.
"Charlie, I'm so sorry! Is she okay?"
"Doctor said she's stable, but they couldn't do much more than that because they're all busy with the accident victims. She's in a temporary coma, or at least they hope it's temporary." Charlie's voice was hard and forced, obviously unhappy about the lack of attention his daughter was getting.
Silence filled the room again, everyone preoccupied with their own thoughts to talk aloud. Charlie was the first to speak this time.
"Is he here?"
I stopped. The hate and anger in Charlie's voice was evident, and I knew exactly who he was talking about. Still, I didn't know if he was coming or if he even got my message yet because I'd been too busy with just getting here. Both male's eyes were locked on me, waiting for my answer.
"I had come ahead of everyone, eager to see Bella. Edward hadn't decided whether he was coming or not at the time…"
Everyone was quiet again, and this time no one broke the silence.
EDWARD IS NEXT!!! *cue fan girls screaming*
So yeah, this chap only took, what, 3 and a half hours
And made me not get anything else done
But oh well including authors notes this thing is
3, 800 and something Words long
Wow, told you this would be about two chaps worth
Prob won't be able to write until next week, if then!
After all, finals are less than 2 weeks away, and I am SO SCREWED!
REVIEW IF YOU WANT EDWARD!!! : P