Disclaimer- New Moon isn't mine, if it was it would've been filled with Edward!!!
Warnings for this chap- Language, I guess -_-'
Songs for this chap- Main song: Shadow of the Day by Linkin Park. Other song I just happen to like Guardian Angle by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
THANKS TO Miss Whitlock, InEdwardCullen'sArms, ErinCullen, Olympic1340, yesisalas, and of course, the ever so fateful Katering
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Chapter 4: Consequences can be brutal
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Leaving Bella killed
me, I knew that, but could it
killed her as well?
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It was an amazing feat in itself that vampires could live in Texas. But then again, normal vampires just passed through, staying no more than a couple of days. When Jasper had flashbacks of his time before Alice, I never thought twice about vampires in the southern states. Now that I was actually here, I realized just how much more complicated the sun made things for our kind.
I'd become very used to Forks, as well as places like Forks. Very few sunny days, clouds offering protection to my family and I. Texas was the polar opposite. The sun was always on the horizon and the clouds never once passed over the sun, much less block out it's rays. It had rained once since I had arrived, and even then the sun shined through the clouds. It was if nature itself was taunting me, and making my hunt even harder.
Consequently, I'd reverted back to being nocturnal, as what many of my kind had done before me. Only once the sun had set did I come outside looking for information on Victoria. After all, she was the only reason I was in this god-forsaken place. I'll have been here two weeks, the day after tomorrow, and still I've gotten no information on her whereabouts. As much as I wanted to call it quits, I knew I had to find her to insure she wouldn't go after Bella.
Bella. My angel, my love, my life… Feelings of regret overcame me, again. I'd regretted leaving her the moment I ran from her in the forest, the second the words left my mouth even, but I knew it had to be done. She was safer this way, my family and I had caused her nothing but trouble. Still…
I like to think she's already moved on, but I know how stubborn she is. More than likely she still hates me for leaving. She can't be that way for long though, different as she is from the rest of mankind, she's still human. Over time she'll forget me and move on.
The sun was now setting outside my hotel window, casting small slits of light through the venation blinds. Besides that small amount of light, my room was pitch black. I hadn't bothered turning on any lights, considering I didn't need them to see the dump I've been staying in.
Though I could've stayed in the best hotel in the city, I decided there was no reason to. Instead, I stayed in the first, and probably worst, motel I found. The wallpaper was aged and torn, the single full-sized bed was against the far wall, unused. There was no TV, no refrigerator, and no internet connection. A lamp on the bed stand was all there was to light the room, if I ever felt the need too. The bathroom was small and dirty, but then again I was surprised that there even was one.
After what I said to Bella, I felt I deserved every bit of this rundown room.
I spent the entire day inside said room reliving that horrible night, and struggling to remember the good memories of when we had been together. As hard as I tried to remember those happy moments, the look on her face as I left her haunted my thoughts.
Right away I knew I couldn't stay with my family, I'd only make them suffer. Jasper especially couldn't even come in my vicinity the few days I had been with them. It was then I decided I would hunt down Victoria, anything was better than dragging my family down with me in my hole of despair.
Night had finally arrived, a full moon shone outside. I stood, stretching my arms and legs more out of habit than my muscles being sore. After making sure I had the hotel key in my pocket, I exited the room.
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It was about midnight, and still I had no luck. This was my third bar I'd questioned tonight, and nobody had seen a red headed vampire. Not that I asked them if they'd seen a vampire. Not that I asked them at all. For all they knew, I was just another loner sitting at the end of the bar. As much as I tried to be indiscreet, I attracted looks of all kinds. Jealousy, lust, interest, uneasiness, I didn't need Jasper's power to know how they felt about me.
But the attention helped. I listened carefully to their thoughts, keen on anything that might hint to Victoria. Had someone that was also so striking entered the bar lately? Still, I heard nothing of interest, not a single hint about Victoria.
I sighed softly, staring blankly at the drink I had bought for appearance's sake. Tonight was going to be just another waste of energy as the nights before. Victoria was probably long gone by now, and there was no point in staying in this state.
My leg vibrated. Instinctively, my hand went to my pocket for my cell phone. I sighed again. Sure enough, it was home, more than likely Alice. Instead of answering it I let it ring until it went to voice mail. I watched the "new voicemail" icon light up on the phone's screen, and then put the cell back into my pocket.
I'd deal with them later.
Now sure that there was nothing to help my hunt here, I left the bar.
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The break I'd been waiting for had finally arrived. It'd been my seventh bar of the night, and I hadn't even sat down yet when I heard the bartender think, "Not another one."
Sure enough, the almost fifty year old women remember a beautiful red head flirting with the many guys of the bar asking around for a quick route to South America. Though the lead was suspicious, it was the only thing I had to go on.
As of now, I was in my room packing the few belongings I had into a small backpack. I was in as good of a mood I had been in a while, thrilled that I wasn't staying in Texas for another day. After giving my room a look over once more, to make was sure I wasn't forgetting anything, I left.
I went to the front desk to check out and internally groaned. A teenage girl, who really shouldn't be working in a place like this, was on duty and I could already hear her thoughts.
Oh my God! Incoming! He's so fucking hot! Why the hell is he staying in a dump like this? He could stay with me any day!
"Checking out?" She said in a sweet, yet sultry tone.
"Yes, room 316" I answered, very annoyed.
"Hold on, it'll just be a second." I have to find my cell! He is so going to be my display background! Then I'll steal his number from the computer from when he signed in.
I fought a smirk. Thankfully, I'd given a fake number when I signed in since I'd had a similar girl sign me in. Thinking of phones reminded me of the call earlier. With yet another sigh, I pulled it out. Getting yelled at by my family was better then dealing with this girl.
"Excuse me." I said smoothly, and walked just out of sight.
Flipping the phone open, I dialed my voice mail and waited.
"Edward!" Sure enough, it was Alice.
"Pick up the damn phone for once in your fucking life!" I rolled my eyes. Why would I bother answering the phone if I knew I was just going to be yelled at anyway? I'm not that masochistic.
"It's Bella, she's dying!" I froze, my mouth falling open slightly.
"I—I don't know if I'll make it in time, but I'm going to Forks anyway. If she dies, I swear I'm hunting you down and kicking your ass Edward! This is all your fault!"
The call ended with a slam, but I didn't lower the phone.
Bella, my Bella…was dying? This must be a mistake, there was no way she could be dying. I left her so she could be safe, so she could grow old and die peacefully. My mind ran wild thinking of all the ways she could've hurt herself. Car crash, fire, slipping on concrete and smashing her head open, the list was endless. Bella was the clumsiest human I had ever met and a magnet for danger.
How did I ever think she'd be safe?
Without wasting another moment, I stuffed my phone in my pocket, and ran out the door only slightly faster than human speed.
"WAIT! You didn't sign out yet!" The foolish counter girl yelled behind me, but I could care less.
Outside the motel door, I ran. I ran faster than ever before, even faster than I had when Bella had gone to James. But Bella was hours away, and Alice had called hours ago. She was more than likely already…I couldn't even think it. Long ago, I'd decided when Bella died, I died. That time may be sooner than expected.
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It was almost dawn when I reached Forks Hospital. The sun was barely setting on the horizon, but not nearly enough to be a sunny day. I was surprised to see a good number of cars in the parking lot for such an early time of the day.
When I walked into the hospital, I was even more shocked to see all the people in the waiting room. Most were asleep despite the awkward positions they were sitting in, every once in a while a person would twitch, or adjust themselves. As curious as I was to what they were all doing here, Bella was a more important matter.
In four long strides, I was at the front desk. The attending nurse, was half asleep and completely unaware of my presence.
"Excuse me." I said, my voice straining to be polite.
"WHAT?" The girl snapped, as her eyes snapped upwards to glare at me. Her face changed to shock and embarrassment as soon as she saw me.
"Oh, excuse me, how can I help you?"
"What room is Isabella Swan in?" I asked, half afraid of the answer.
"Um, she's room 316 in the Intensive Care Unit, but wait! Visiting hours haven't started yet!"
I was already down the hall and up the stairs as she futilely called after me. I had to see her, I had to see Bella to believe she was alive, if only barely. Room 316 was near the end of the hall, and I didn't hesitate to open the door.
My breath got caught in my throat, and I stopped breathing all together. Even broken, my angel was a thing of beauty. Her brown hair was darker than it had been when I last saw her, slightly damp, and it stuck to the sides of her face. A single strand fell onto her face, dividing it into halves. Her deep brown eyes were closed, and a breathing mask covered her mouth.
I could feel my legs bringing me towards her side, and I was vaguely aware that I wasn't alone in the room, but I couldn't tear my eyes and thoughts from her.
She had always been so fragile, so breakable even for a human. In front of me was the proof of that. The thin hospital blanket did nothing to hide her form and I could see just how broken she really was. One of legs was bent awkwardly as if she tossed and turned in her sleep. Her ribs jutted through her night gown and the blanket. Just how much weight had she lost?
The monitor at her side beeped steadily, but I couldn't believe she was alright. Her smell was off, I could tell she was given multiple transfusions, her skin was more translucent than normal, and her face was more sunken. The sunken-ness scared me. That had happened over a longer period of time, not just recently.
"This is all your fault!"
Alice had said that it was my fault, and at the time I was too worried about Bella to let that sink in. Could I really have caused this?
Reality hit me like a brick wall. No longer was it just me and Bella, I was aware of everything. Alice stood about five feet to my left trying to calm a snarling Jacob Black. The scent of werewolf hit me just as hard as reality had.
"What the fuck is he doing here?!" Jacob yelled, his hands clenching and unclenching. The vampire bitch lied! She said he wasn't coming!
"I could say the same thing." I said more to Alice than to him, a low growl building in my throat.
He's Bella's friend Edward. He brought Bella to the hospital.
My face showed my shock. Bella truly was a danger magnet wasn't she? How could she be around a werewolf, especially such a young one! I was surprised he hadn't sifted yet. Of course, he was on the verge of doing just that.
"Control yourself pup, you don't want to change anywhere near Bella."
"You don't think I know that leech?! Why do you care anyway, you left her!"
In his mind I saw my Bella, almost as worse off as she was now. Her face was completely blank; tears stained her face, as she just sat there on the forest floor. I cringed openly.
"Calm down both of you! You can't start a fight with Bella so close by!" Alice said, her voice rising with each word. She looked at me with a glare.
She would NOT be happy if you killed her friend Edward, no matter what he's thinking. You should be thanking him remember?
"What happened to her Alice?" I asked through my teeth. Alice eyes were hard, and her voice was cold.
"She tried to kill herself Edward."
Again, it was like reality stopped. My sister and the dog were no longer there, we were no longer in the hospital, and it was just me and Bella.
We were in our meadow, her heat radiating off her by my side, and her cheeks slightly red-tinted. My hand went out to slip a stray piece of hair behind her ear, but she grabbed it and held it to her face. Her eyes closed, a small smile coming to her face, enjoying how my cold skin felt against her hot face. I smiled back at her, chuckling softly.
Faster than even vampire speed, I was back in the hospital. Both Black and my sister stared at me, waiting for my response. Instead of saying anything, I merely walked back to my place at Bella's side only slightly aware that I had moved at all. Their eyes were still on my back, but I didn't turn. Alice's thoughts were worried, but angry. After all, I was the cause of this from what I could tell. There was no way Bella would ever want me again. The mutt's thoughts were mostly on controlling himself though I could hear some regret. What did he have to regret?
"Thank you for bringing her Jacob, but it'd be better if you left, even if it was just long enough for you to get control of yourself."
"Like hell I'll leave…I'll wait til she wakes up." The pup grunted, before flopping back down in the chair he had jumped from when I'd arrived.
Despite myself, I nodded. Bella would want to see him when she awoke, far more than she'd want to see me at least.
Carlisle should be here soon. He'd gone out hunting when I saw…it. Still, I sent Jasper out to find him as soon as I had the vision. I'm surprised they're not here by now. Later I'll show you what happened…just not now.
I nodded at Alice absently, and sighed for a fourth time this night. Or perhaps day, which of the two was hard to tell because there was no sun shining through glass window. I smiled, though it didn't quite reach my eyes.
At least I'm not in Texas anymore.
YAY! Another chap done! Sorry if any Texans feel offended, but it's true, Texas is a sucky place for a vampire! (Which is why I wanna move ASAP *cough, cough*)
Also, sorry for updating so late! If you read my profile, I was with the family and had no computer T-T
BUT EDWARD'S HERE!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!
It was really fun to write like him, had to read some midnight sun to get in the moon ;P I can't wait til I get to write as him again, which I WILL MWHAHAH
Hope I wasn't very OOC (That would be bad)
This was suppose to be up by 4…then I got kicked off…when I came back I added more…then got kicked off…then edited some of it…then got kicked off to play Rock Band 2…and so yeah. It's midnight now -_-'
REVIEW PUHLEASE!
Oh, and to make up for being late, I'm gonna add a little segment here!
Things I wanted to write, but I restrained myself from doing so:
Prologue:
"Look at her, all balled up like a used, dirty burger wrapper."
"What kind of burger?"
The man above me stopped and looked at his colleague.
"Why does it matter?" He hissed.
"Well if it's a cheeseburger, she's yellow and colorful. If it's a plain burger, then she's white and plain, and you could see just how dirty she is."
"…She's a plain one."
"See, it matt-"
"SHUT UP! Where was I…?"
Reason why not: TOTALLY RUINS THE SERIOUS MOOD XD
Oblivious Death (chap 1):
Without a second thought, I pushed the razor hard against my wrist and sliced. I tensed, waiting for the pain, but I felt none. Surprised, I looked down and noticed I'd only made a small scratch. Turns out I couldn't even cut myself correctly. Frustrated, I put even more pressure than before and sliced again. This time, I cut through.
Reason why not: Wastes time
If Vampire could cry (chap 2):
I was kissing my husband passionately, and simultaneously pulling us both to the ground with him on top of me when I was hit with a vision.
……….
I came out of the vision gasping for air.
"Alice? ALICE! Baby, what happened, what did you see?"
Caught completely off guard, I reacted to his presence by instincts only. With a well placed kick, Jasper was off of me and indented in the far wall.
"Shit! Jasper!"
Reason why not: Also just kinda wasting time and prob wouldn't happen…but I thought it would be funny ; P
Part I: This was no accident (chap 3):
I hesitated. There were two choices I could make from here.
1. I could go in via window, which constitutes as breaking and entering, and wait for her there. Problems with this plan: Bella might get freaked out to find someone waiting in her room for her and scream or something, and then Charlie may come up and I'd be so screwed.
2. I could knock on the door like any normal person, and just wait for her downstairs.
Still, I decided it was worth the chance, and I pried open the closed window. Bella's room was unnaturally clean, and looked almost unused. I fought the shiver of uneasiness that started to overcome me and sat on the edge of her bed.
Within a couple of minutes, the handle of her door started to open. I jumped to my feet, ready to calm her down if necessary.
However it wasn't necessary, considering it wasn't Bella. I'll never forget the look on Charlie's face. It was so emotionless, it was scary. Neither of us said anything for a moment. Finally, Charlie broke the tense silence.
"I don't want to know." With that, he quietly backed out the room, closing the door behind him.
Reason why not: Jacob would be so freaked out, he wouldn't be able to save Bella!
Part II: Therapeutic Chain of Events (chap 3):
"Okay, I understand why you're here, but why are you dressed like a prostitute?"
"Just in case I needed seduce someone to let me in."
"…"
Reason why not: …………………………..I didn't even wanna go there.
Consequences can be brutal (this chap!):
Oh my God! Incoming! He's so fucking hot! Why the hell is he staying in a dump like this? He could fuck me any day! I mean, lay! Shit, nevermind. Oh my god, I'm so hot now. When's my break? Hell, for him, I'd even do it in THIS dump. Damn, he looks kinda strong. There goes any chance of knocking him out and locking him in the supply closet…maybe if I catch him by surprise…
Reason why not: THAT'S JUST TOO CREEPY!