What She Didn't See Chapter 8: Living Nightmare, a twilight fanfic

Disclaimer- The twilight series doesn't belong to me, if it did I'd have demanded Edward was played by a hotter guy in twilight.

Warnings for this chap- Pretty graphic rape scene in the first part (Don't read 3-4 paragraphs if you no likey) and kinda horrific scene (not to me, but I think I have a sick mind : D) right after that.

Songs for this chap- Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne (oh and the edited out part- Candyman by Aqua)

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Chapter 7: Living Nightmare

Bella

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The nightmares that scare

Me the most always occur

When I am awake.

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I tried to focus my attention on the sky. The stars were extra bright seeing as they didn't have to compete with the larger, brighter, moon. It was a new moon tonight, meaning the single street lamp across from the alley I was now being raped in was the main source of light. Like I'd wanted to see this anyway, the pain was bad enough.

We were on guy number three by now, and I was anything but numb. The feel of his hot breath on my face and neck disgusted me. His eyes were closed as he groaned in pleasure, while I hissed in pain. At least now his thrusts were lubricated by blood (mine) and semen (theirs). Unlike the first man who literally ripped my insides, tearing not only my body but also what was left of my heart in two. The pain only seemed to intensify as I thought about what was being done to me.

Okay, so the sky wasn't helping. Instead, I clenched my eyes shut and tried to pretend I was anywhere else. The sounds of skin slapping on skin kept me in place though. Tears that had long dried up began to leak through my closed eyes and my sobbing slowly drowned out the sounds of his moans.

But it wasn't me sobbing. The crying was too high pitched and far away to be mine. What's more, nothing hurt. No thrusting, no gravel digging into my bare back, nothing.

My eyes snapped open. Sure enough, I wasn't in the alley anymore. I was on a bed, a nice one at that. Gold silk sheets with a large black comforter covered my body, apparently thoroughly healed, keeping me cozy and warm.

Sitting up, I looked around the room and was shocked to see it was Edward's. There was no mistaking it, other than the addition of the bed everything was the same. Well, except for the small crib to the far left.

There Edward stood, rocking a small bundle in his arms, whispering to it. As if feeling my eyes on him, he looked up and met my eyes. His eyes lit up, and my favorite crooked smile graced his face.

At vampire speed he was at the side of the bed. Wordlessly, he held out the baby for me to hold. In shock and awe, I took the baby from him and the breath caught into my throat.

Big brown eyes stared into my own, her forehead slightly wrinkled. Small brown stubble covered her head, and her face was slightly red. She was beautiful.

For some reason I'd though she'd look exactly like one of them. As if this was their way of getting back at me forever. But instead, she seemed like a clone of me. Same eye color, hair color, and facial structure. Then it occurred to me.

She was my daughter too. She wasn't just my rapists' baby, but my own flesh and blood. She was all mine.

Suddenly, her face twisted up in pain and she began crying again. I panicked at a lost at what to do. Was I holding her wrong? Was she hungry? Sleepy? What?! To my horror, she wasn't just crying tears, but blood. With a gaping mouth, I stared at my bleeding child. Then I thought, "Edward."

My head snapped up to look at him. Just like I thought, his eyes was the color of onyx and as cold as stone. But they weren't hungry, they were angry.

"You killed her." My eyes opened visibly wider, and I could hear the baby's cries grow louder.

I looked at her and stared in horror. The blanket she'd been wrapped in was soaked completely through and was dyed red with blood. What I had thought to be tears of blood were now recognized as long cuts starting from her eyes down to her chin that were bleeding freely. My arms were shaking, and I realized I was only holding her with one arm. In the other was a razor.

"You killed her." All I could do was scream.

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Apparently I wasn't only screaming in my dream, but it in reality too. I'd sat straight up in my bed and had started sobbing. Instantaneously, I felt cold arms wrap around my shaking form. I accepted the comforting hold graciously, sobbing into Edward's shoulder.

"I didn't mean to! I didn't mean to say those things! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry…" The last two words I repeated over and over again like a mantra, hoping that if I said it enough Edward would forgive, or at least believe that I truly was.

"Shh, it's okay. It's totally understandable; we know you didn't mean it. Shhh."

My body froze. In slow motion, I carefully detached myself from the hug and stared at my comforter. Who I had assumed to be Edward had actually been Alice which meant…

"He's gone isn't he." Without having to look around, I knew he wasn't there. "He left me."

Alice hesitated a second before answering, but her hesitation was my answer.

"He didn't want to leave you—"

"But he needed to leave me." I laughed softly, the sound empty and humorless. "Who wants a baby killer as a girlfriend anyway?"

"What? No! No Bella, this has nothing to do with your condition…well it does, but it's not about the baby."

"Oh, of course it's not. After all I'm sure he's jumping at joy that in the few months he was gone, I got knocked up. Yeah, after all who isn't happy to know that their girlfriend will do everyone other than you right?"

"Of course he isn't! But he's not thinking—"

"I thought you were the future telling one, Edward's the mind reading vampire which is of little help." By now Alice's face had screwed up in a look of anger and hurt. But though I felt a hint of guilt, I still had a lot of pain to vent. Alice was merely an innocent bystander.

"By now I bet he's halfway across the country trying to get away from me as fast as possible."

"I hope we're not talking about me are we?" My head snapped up causing my brain a gigantic amount of pain, which I ignore.

Sure enough, my Greek God was standing in the door way, crooked smile and all. I could feel a blush rising in my checks as my face grew hot. Edward's smile grew larger as he crossed the room in three quick strides.

"I'm sorry angel, but you're not getting rid of me that easily." I lowered my head in embarrassment, vaguely wondering if he'd caught my outburst and failing to notice he wasn't alone.

"Um, hi Bella."

My heart both fell and rose at the same time. Jacob had come to see me! At the same time, perhaps he felt an obligation to come and hadn't really wanted to. Without raising my head, I looked up to where he stood at the foot of my bed. He stood leaned slightly on the rail of the bed in what seemed to be a relax stance, but his body was stiff against the support. My sun had a smile on his face but unlike the ones I was used to it didn't reach his eyes and even twitched between a smile and a frown.

Obviously, he didn't want to be here.

"Hey Jake." I whispered softly, heartbroken by the fact I'd just realized. He shifted his weight slightly, and opened his mouth to stay something, but then hesitated.

"Look Bella, I wanted to say I'm sorry. I didn't mean a word I told you. There's no way I wouldn't want to be your friend. You've got to understand I was trying to protect you! Besides Sam told me I couldn't say anything to you about it, and I know by the look on your face you think Sam's controlling me, but it's not like that. …Well, at least not the way you think. I didn't choose to be with him, to be who I am Bella, it just short of…happened." At the last word he had turned to glare at Edward with a hatred I had only seen when we'd first met James.

Now I was defiantly confused.

"What are you talking about Jake?" Jacobs face looked like he was in pain, torn between saying whatever he wanted to say and not being able to say it. Edward sighed by my side where he had sat quietly since Jacob's entrance.

"He's a werewolf Bella. And yes, he knows I'm a vampire." The blunt statements sent us all into a shocked silence…well at least me and Jacob.

Jacob, my best friend, my sun, a werewolf? Half man, half wolf. Howl at the full moon beast? Then again, the love of my life was a vampire, and more than likely cinema had gotten it wrong again. Thinking back, that day on the beach when he told me about his family legends…

"Wow, I really know how to pick them don't I?" My joke had the wanted affect. Jacob relaxed instantly, his whole body slumping slightly as he laughed. Alice smiled slightly, though she didn't seem as happy as I thought she would. Edward's face was hard and unreadable, but I saw a flash of disapproval in his dark eyes.

"Edward." He turned and smiled at me.

"Yes Bella?"

"When was the last time you hunted?" Jacob tensed again, but Edward still smiled.

"I'm fine Bella, don't worry about me."

"But being in the hospital, you and Alice must be in so much pain."

"Bella," he sighed. "Worry about getting better yourself before worrying about us."

"OH! Which reminds me!" Alice chirped. One second she was gone, the next she'd returned with a bag.

"Time to feed the human!"

"But Alice!"

"No buts! When was the last time you ate anyway? The nurse gave you some nutrition stuff, but they said you should be eating regular food as well." She talked while placing different fruits, vegetables, and a turkey sandwich on the small table before rolling it over to the bed. "Besides, you're looking a little thin."

I rolled my eyes. People had been saying that a lot lately, but really I'd just been getting so little sleep.

"Alice, I really can't eat all of this!"

"I'll eat whatever you leave." Jacob grinned. "Werewolves are ALWAYS hungry."

"So now you can talk about it?" He nodded.

"I just couldn't tell you what we were." My eyes widened slightly.

"Wait…Sam and Embry too? You're all wolves?" Again, he nodded.

"We're a pack Bella." I nodded slowly.

"I guess that makes sense…"

"Less chatting, more eating!" I glared at Alice, but took an apple as to not displease her. It felt weird eating with all their eyes on me. It felt like it was so long ago that Edward would sit there watching me eat, seeing as he couldn't eat himself. Actually, the attention made me feel like screaming. After taking a few small bites under their expectant eyes, I knew I didn't want anymore.

"There, happy?"

"Very funny love. That hardly counted as eating."

"But Edward, I'm really not hungry. Maybe later?" Edward looked at me funny, his eyes going up and down my body as if sizing me up. Slowly, and reluctantly, he nodded.

"Fine Bella, perhaps you need to go back to sleep." My heart fell again, remembering the nightmare I'd just experienced. I'd become used to the flashbacks, but the guilt of killing my child certainly was not going to let me sleep peacefully anytime soon.

"Do I have to?"

"Yes love. You need all the rest you can get to get better. The nurses say that you can be discharged either tonight or tomorrow…though they believe you should stay a little longer than that, you're stable enough to go home."

I could tell Edward wasn't telling me something, and his words seemed to be worded specifically so I wouldn't notice what they really meant, or what the nurses really said. Still, my head was feeling very dizzy. I guess I'd gotten even less sleep than I had originally thought I had.

Reluctantly, I nodded and Edward smiled sadly.

"I have to go talk to Carlisle Bella, but I promise I'll be here when you wake up this time okay?"

"Yeah, and even if he's not, I'll defiantly be here." Jacob added. I smiled at both of them before closing my eyes and letting sleep take me.

Phew!

Did anyone catch my hints for upcoming chap(s)? Seriously, it was pretty obvious (which I didn't really want it to be, but screw that)

Okay, I know this chap was kinda short, but I'm TIRED T-T

I woke up a 6 yesterday to volunteer, and then stayed up til 2 because of sucky Sadie Hawkins dance last night.

Plus I was really busy all day yesterday, so I have a pile of homework I gotta do right now plus chores for today AND yesterday : (

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Things I wanted to write, but I restrained myself from:

Living Nightmares:

Tears that had long dried up began to leak through my closed eyes and I managed to find my voice just enough to scream.

But it wasn't me screaming. It wasn't even screaming. It was laughing. The sound was loud, and different pitches meaning multiple people were in the room.

The entire Cullen family was situated on or around the couch, laughing hysterically at Edward and Emmett as they sung Candyman by Aqua. Edward was dressed in ridiculously tight plaid skinny jeans with a purple sequined shirt singing the male's part of the song. Emmett, on the other hand, wore a pink miniskirt completely covered in rhinestones and a yellow halter singing the female's part.

I blinked curiously, before slowly lowering myself back onto the bed, and using my pillow to block out the horrible screeching they called singing.

Reason why not: A) This has nothing to do with anything B) This defeats the point of the nightmare AND C) I seriously think I've lost my mind : D