I'm Only Sixteen, I'm Not In Love Chapter 8: Even You Have Someone Special Shikamaru, a naruto fanfic

I'm Only Sixteen, I'm Not In Love

"You got me deeper than deep and I'm constantly blinded
I'm running around but there's no place to hide
I start to talk in my sleep, our souls have divided
Why can't they forgive me these demons inside
Deeper than deep and I'm constantly blinded
My heart starts to shiver for I was letting up
I start to talk in my sleep, cause our souls have divided
How can it be that you're ready for love"- Cascada, "Ready For Love"

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Sometimes school can be very boring you know? And sometimes it can surprise you, when you least expect it.

Walking down the hallways on a Monday morning you can often find Shikamaru by his locker, grabbing his daily Advil.

Today he wasn't there.

Instead he was looking at a flamboyant piece of paper taped to the wall. Big bold black letters that screamed

"BIG SPRING FORMAL! COME EVERYONE! ENJOY GREAT MUSIC AND FOOD! HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME! AND DON'T FORGET TO BRING THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE!"

Yeah, there was more written but it was irrelevant.

"So Shikamaru, you going to the dance?"

"Not sure. Sounds like a drag."

(It would be a drag,)

"What makes you say that?"

(Because he knew,)

"It's a stupid formal dance Sakura. With lame music and school food. Why would I take the time out of my day to go to that?"

(If he went to the dance,)

And she quoted,

"To go with that special someone?" She made it into a question when it sounded more like a concrete fact.

He looked over at her, her beautiful

smooth,

perfect

soft face.

"That perfect someone Sakura?"

"Yeah Shikamaru. Even you have to have a special someone."

RING

"Well, see ya in class. Bye Shikamaru." She waved farewell.

(He would only,)

He looked back at the flamboyant paper and chuckled.

"Even I have a special someone."

(Go for her.)

…

...

EVEN

HAVE

SPECIAL

…

...

Sitting in first period, doing his daily routine off taking his homework out, taking a pen for corrections (even though there is never any) then laying his head on the desk to sleep.

Yep, that's Shikamaru's morning.

Maybe he needs a change.

Change his morning routine.

Or even his life.

He Shikamaru knows

(He wants to change it,)

if he were to change it,

(He can't say he doesn't want to change it,)

he would start with,

(He wants to change it.)

that special someone.

(Change his life with Sakura, his special someone.)

...

…

...

"Thanks for giving me a ride Shikamaru. I really appreciate it."

"No problem Sakura." He smiles.

"Hey, have you heard anything from Chouji lately? I haven't seen him around at school." He shrugs.

"Not sure. The last time I talked to him I think was when we were talking about Ino and he's ridiculous infatuation with her." Sakura playfully slapped his arm.

"Hey! What the hell Sakura? Don't attack the driver. I could very well pull over and kick you to the side of the street."

(He would never leave her.)

"You shouldn't doubt Chouji."

"You're misunderstanding me Sakura. I'm simply implying that Chouji most likely won't end up with Ino because, it's Ino of god's sake. The queen of selfish images." She giggles.

"True."

…

After arriving at Sakura's home, Shikamaru decided to stay for a while.

Do homework,

play video games,

dream about his addiction,

you know,

the usual.

Things were going quite well. His arms behind his head leaning back on her couch with eyes closed Shikamaru seemed at peace, but god, did they have to take such a sudden turn.

"Hey Shikamaru?"

(God, No!)

"Yeah?"

(Please no!)

"Remember a while back that one day you were really off?"

'Ah, the day my addiction started.'

(Please no!)

"Yeah, what about it?"

"Well you never answered my question."

(Fuck, god please no!)

"What question Sakura? You ask a lot."

"Do not!"

"Do."

"I do not!"

"Do."

"Oh forget it. Anyways, I asked you what you,-"

(God no please!)

",-wanted so badly."

Shikamaru's eyes shot open. His body froze.

"W-w-what about it?"

(GOD NO! PLEASE ANYTHING BUT THAT!)

"Well, aren't you going to answer my question."

'Fuck, think Shikamaru! Think for god's sake!'

"Um, I-I-, um."

"Shikamaru it's not that hard to answer."

'You have no idea.'

Should he tell her?

(Tell her his undeniable feelings,)

Should he confess?

(Tell her how he dreams of her,)

But, he could lose her.

(Wants her,)

That's why he stopped last time.

(Needs her,)

He didn't want to lose her.

(Loves her.)

"I um,"

'Just do it!'

"I wanted, um."

"Shikamaru, you can't exactly want an 'um'. I'm not sure that's even an object." He mutters,

"Smart ass."

"Just say it Shikamaru."

"I just want..."

He turns to look at her,

her emerald eyes,

deep,

clear,

concerned,

and full of...

"My special someone."

love? She stares in awe.

"Your special someone? I knew it! You do have a special someone! Do I know her? Or him?"

"Haha, very funny Sakura. HER, and yeah you do."

"Who is she?"

"Yes Shikamaru, who is she?"

BUZZ

Sakura looks down, her phone is vibrating in her pocket.

BUZZ

She reaches to retrieve her phone and sees a new text message, it states itself as "URGENT".

She excuses herself to make a call.

He whispers.

"She's you." He chuckles.

…

She returns to Shikamaru.

"Sorry about that. Had to check up on something."

"Not a problem."

"So who is she?" He chuckles. She smiles.

"I already said it."

"What?! No you didn't!"

"Yes I did. You just weren't here when I said it." She crosses her arms and pouts.

"Cheater." He chuckles.

"Well I better go Sakura." He stands and walks to the door, she follows.

"See ya Shikamaru." She hugs him.

"Sakura."

"Yeah?"

"You know you're important to me right?"

"Of course. We're best friends." He smiles.

"Good. Remember you're special to me okay?"

"I will. And you're special to me Shikamaru." She pulls away.

"Best friends."

He leaves.

'How does she not know? God, I guess it's true.'

LOVE IS BLIND.

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Written:(04-13-09)

~Renaissance