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Forget Me Not Part 04
Faith's Point Of View
"You can go now." I wrapped the sheets around my naked body, rolling onto my back as the guy got up and grabbed his clothes looking extremely disgruntled.
"But-"
"But nothin'. Get outta here." My voice rose to a shout and he glared at me before slamming my motel door shut. Sighing, I climbed out of bed chucking on my clothes and also slamming my poor innocent door. I knew exactly where I was going…the same place I'd been going every night for the past month. It was the only way I could stay in contact with my sanity. Sitting in my usual spot, just under the tree in the front garden I looked through the living room window at Joyce. They couldn't see me outside, it was too dark.
There she was…sitting with her mother…eating tea and watching the television. I felt cold inside watching them. I could see them laughing, joking, leaning on each other lovingly. Why couldn't I have that…? What did I have…? The occasional guy comes over to my motel to screw me then leaves? No, that's not living. There is nothing I have in this world. My fists clenched in anger, blood oozing from where my nails were cutting my skin from the feelings coursing through my veins.
I've decided. It's time.
"B…I'm sorry. For everything. I'm just not good enough… I'm the Second Hand Slayer right…? You've been doing this longer than me. You don't need me to save your ass." I laughed slightly. I knew she couldn't possibly hear me, but that wasn't the point. This was my last chance to say everything I needed to say. For closure.
"B…I've realised what it was that was hurting so much. Inside me, I know now why. I love you Buffy…But I Hate that I love you…" I lifted up my hand and undid her necklace, taking the scrunched up letter in my pocket out and opening the envelope, dropping the necklace inside it before sealing it up.
Gradually, after edging slowly nearer after Joyce pulled the curtains shut, I tucked the letter underneath the front door of Buffy's house and ran. I ran and ran and ran. On and on until my heavy breathing came to a halt and I stopped.
"You're late." I smirked to myself and turned round in the forest.
"I know." Folding my arms I stared at the vampire. His face turned into a scowl as he came nearer.
"Filthy bitch." He punched me head on into my face. Blood dripped from my nose and mouth and I grinned excitedly.
"Come on Bane…you can do better than that! Where are all your cronies? Don't tell me you wanted to keep the glory of slaying a slayer all to yourself?" I asked my face still grinning.
"What and miss the chance to see you get absolutely bashed? No way." His yellowy white fangs glittered in the dark as his gang closed in on me in a circle. My grin became a nervous smile now as I counted in my head how many there were.
10…11…12…
"She's all yours boys! But don't kill her I want the finishing blow." Bane smirked and took a step back, unleashing his goons on me. They were all laughing and chuckling spitefully, edging nearer and nearer to me.
17…18…19…
I stopped counting then. I didn't want to know anymore. Closing my eyes I waited. There was a collection of snarls and I felt the vampires sink into me. Punches from every direction, kicks into my ribs, breaking them, pulling my hair out and biting me on every inch of my body. I let out a loud cry of pain as I was ravaged. I hope she gets my letter.
Buffy's Point Of View
"Buffy!" Mom called from the hallway.
"Yeah?" I shouted back, munching on my ice-cream while I grinned at the comedy on T.V. When she didn't reply I sighed, putting my ice-cream down and entering the hall.
"Mom what is it-" I fell silent, my eyes falling onto a crumpled letter she was holding in her hand.
"What's that…?" I murmured softly. Mom passed it to me.
"I'm not sure. It's no one's handwriting that I recognize. It's addressed to you." I took the letter.
"I'll be down in a minute…" I absentmindedly answered mom and headed upstairs to my room staring at the letter in my hands. My insides went cold. It was addressed to 'B'.
Sitting on the end of my bed my shaky hands opened the envelope and took out the letter. My necklace fell into my lap and I stared at it. Slowly, taking a deep breath, I unfolded the letter and began to read.
I know…I know…a letter? Lame. But there's no other way I can approach you. Not without it killing me a little bit more. I want you to know that I'm sorry. For everything that I've put you and your mom through. The truth is B, I can't go on. Not anymore. I feel somewhat better this way.
I paused for a moment, thinking of where this could lead and if I even wanted to read on. I did.
Buffy…I… I… I can't even write it down. When you read this I probably won't be physically able to say it either. Heh. Anyway, I hope things work out with you and Scott. I want him to give you the love and beauty of a relationship I could have never given to you. I want him to hold you close and whisper the words I could never say. Kiss you the way I could never kiss you…but love you…never as much as I do.
"Oh my God…Faith…" I whispered softly, tears sliding down my face. "She loves me…she really loves me… What have I done to her…" I put my hand to my mouth as tears wept down my cheeks delicately.
I know one day you might understand how I feel, and you also might never understand. It soothes me that I know how I feel. I can address my feelings now I know what they are. I don't want you to feel bad. You could never love me and I understand that. Just…when I'm gone…
Don't Forget Me. Please. You're the only family I have. The only friend I ever had. The only love that ever lasted for me. Goodbye Buffy. Buffy Anne Summers.
"G-Goodbye…?" I repeated in a horrified whisper. "No…no no no!" I cried out tears still continually dribbling off my face. "Faith! I love you! I love you…" I fell to my knees and sobbed into the letter.
"BUFFY? Are you okay?"
"Y-Yeah Mom I'm fine!" Shouting down the stairs I sat staring out of my window and thinking deeply. What did she mean…goodbye? When I'm gone…? Don't forget me? She was talking in the past tense… This isn't right. She's in trouble. Oh God. I can't let her go. Not now! I have to find her!
Leaping to my feet I pulled on my shoes and grabbed a few stakes tucking them into my pants.
"Can't go downstairs…too many questions." Heading for my window I pulled it open and climbed out, the usual escape route for if I was ever grounded.
"Faith…wait for me…" I whispered.
Faith's Point Of View
I lay in the grass and mud, staring up at the beautiful stars, my chest moving up and down heavily.
"Good job boys. No scram get out of here!" Bane's angry voice pierced the night and his goons hissed and scattered rushing off into the night.
My eyes moved from the stars to Bane as he looked down on me his filthy smile making me shiver in pain.
"Heheheh…poor useless Second-hand worthless piece of nothing… Where's your slayer friend now eh? She doesn't care about you… She's not here to save you. Less competition with you thrown away…" He stood on my chest slowly pushing one of my broken ribs around. I let out a loud howl of pain, sweat building up on my body.
"Where is she now…eh…?" I stared at him unable to speak from physical pain my insides boiling with hate.
Buffy's Point Of View
I ran as fast as my legs would allow, shouting her name into the night.
"FAITH?! FAIIITH!" I prayed I wasn't too late…
Faith's Point Of View
He'd gone. He'd left me to slowly die on my own. Letting out a gasp of pain I looked at the stars again, they calmed me down. Closing my eyes I saw her…her hair falling over her blushing face. Her smile lighting up everywhere that it could reach. My face managed a wobbly smile and I opened my eyes again. It wasn't long now. I could feel it. It was time. Time to say Goodbye.
"B-B…uff…y…"
Buffy's Point Of View
Where is she…? I looked ahead at the forest before me. Is she in there…? Worth a try…is it…? Why would Faith be in a forest…? I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. Maybe I should just go home… I turned to go, when I saw a suspicious looking figure leaping out of the forest, his shirt covered in blood.
"Hey…HEY!" I rushed after him and he turned, saw me and sped up. I tackled him to the floor pinning him.
"Why are you covered in blood?" I asked angrily.
"Hehehe. You're too late now Slayer! The boss already let us have our fun!!" He wriggled free and I stared after the vermin.
"Faith." I leapt to my feet and charged into the forest. After a short search I spotted her.
"FAITH!!! FAIITH?" Rushing forwards I reached her mangled body and put my hand to my mouth, my eyes filling up again.
"Oh God…"
Faith's Point Of View
I can hear her voice…the voice of an angel…she was beside me. Kneeling now. I took long blinks as I looked up at her beautiful, panic-stricken face.
"B…" I groaned out.
"Shhh…don't talk…" She whispered, leaning down and pulling me onto her lap, stroking my hair.
"Bu…ff…y…" I lifted up my arm slowly and she took it, holding my hand gently.
"Faith I'm so sorry… It's all my fault… I did this to you. I'm so so…sorry…" She sobbed as she looked at my bleeding body. I shook my head looking into her green eyes.
"Not…you…m-me." My vision was blurring. I couldn't even heal like a slayer should. I was too tired and drained.
"Faith… I could never forget you..." My face broke into a smile as tears began to slip off my face.
"Thank you…" My eyes closed. I could go now. The pain began to fade. Along with my ability to hang on any longer.