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~ Chapter Four ~

"& I can't breathe without you but I have to."

JJ stared at the case file in her hands, not paying attention to the conversation going on between the profilers. Staring at the newspaper clipping held in there, the photograph of the two of them together, so happy and so young.

"JJ! Did you hear me?" She looked up at Morgan, shaking her head slowly, not bothering to apologize,

"What was Jamie like?"

"He was amazing, he did well in school and he had a particular talent in football. We both dreamed of going to the same university to study Psychology and Criminology together. He was a straight A student, got on well with both his parents. He was an only child so no sibling rivalry. He was popular in school, he never got into trouble, he didn't like to drink or do drugs or anything like that." She tried to think about the reasons why people run away, knowing that it wasn't true, he wouldn't have done that to her.

"Were you two having problems?" She shook her head, tears finally finding their way to her eyes,

"It was a few days after our third anniversary, it was the night he promised me that he was going to take me to see this stupid film that I wanted to see, but he hated. He promised me he would be there, I thought he had stood me up so I was mad at him but I didn't see him again."

"Third month?" Emily asked,

"Third year..."

"And in that time did you argue about anything in particular?" Hotch looked up from the case file,

"No... we were good together. We had stupid disagreements, but only about soccer and football. Nothing real." She shrugged, turning away from them to look out of the plane window, wondering what it would be like to be in Jamie's arms right now, realizing that her love for him had never died, she could never forget the first and only man she ever loved.

"We will find him, and even if that means the worst outcome at least you can have a real send off." Rossi smiled at her, JJ suddenly grateful that he had joined the team not so long ago. She don't know what she would have done without his experience, and with him here she knew they would find him no matter what the outcome.