My World

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"Talking"

'Thoughts'

Flashbacks/Dreams

Chapter 3: The Letter My Father Left Me Never Read.

Pieces to a puzzle falling together.

His name.

A soul-mate

I now knew his name.

A gift

His face so kind and gentle watching me making sure I was safe. I wanted to always be near him.

For me

Seth Clearwater.

For him

My other half.

My world

I knew him I know I do. I have seen him in my dreams from when I was a little girl. Mother told me it was from my witch blood it was telling me who I would be bonded to in my future. I always thought it had been silly, but, now I know it is true and that I have found him.

Dreams that I didn't believe in

Seth had been watching me ever since he told me his name and I had also been watching him. The look in his eyes conveyed a bond so strong and that he wanted me to feel it too.

Bond so strong everyone would feel it.

He didn't need to worry I felt probably as strong as he did. My powers were humming inside of me excited as I was that they had their crystal.

A power of love and devotion

A crystal is the name for one such as Seth, my bonder, we would be together forever in ever since of the word. Like vampires we would never age and never feel sickness come into our lifestream, the current within our bodies that protects us, as a crystal he would be my power core. His strength would make me stronger and he would also be my protector. Another name for crystals was guardians. They would be our life and vice versa.

If one dies the other will too

I looked up from the cup I had been 'drinking' for the past two hours to see Seth was no longer in the room. Everyone else was still busy talking and enjoying themselves. Embry had engaged Paul and Jared into a small wrestling match and he was being slaughtered. Emily and the other women were in the kitchen cleaning and finishing the food preparation another girl who had come in a little while later and introduced herself as Haley Manse, a pretty blonde green eyed girl, had also joined them in the kitchen she was a real whiz in there according to the boys.

A new friend?

I smiled as I watched her slide to the floor due to some spilt water, her negative side-effect she tripped easily, and how Embry caught her before she crashed, he always seemed to be nearby to catch her it was eerie, and then in the same second spun around and bit Jared.

A new family?

I quietly stood making my exit as Jared howled in pain retaliating by socking Embry in the gut knocking the breath from him. I wanted to find Seth as soon as possible. I stood on the front lawn letting my senses spread and reach beyond my own body, a gift all witches had so we could sense other witches and our bonders. I stretched my mind all the way to the beach and there I found him.

Or did he find me?

I made my way to the beach and looked around for him I saw him sitting on a washed up log his head in his hands as if he was in pain. I felt my heart constrict and for a moment I pondered how strange it was that my connection didn't feel as strong until I had learned his name.

It closed it tight

Then I didn't care because he was mine and no one else's. I went over to him quickly and reached out to touch him. My fingertips glided to his fingers and I gently squeezed his hand. Seth jerked up at my touch flinching from me and I felt a spasm of pain shooting through me at the rejection.

Regret?

Seth shook his head.

Remorse?

"No, no I didn't mean it like that! I am so sorry you startled me is all I promise!" Seth reached out and touched my cheek then realizing what he'd done jerked his hand away just as fast. He sighed in regret.

Regret for hurting me.

"Sorry." He muttered I merely smiled at him softly.

I don't mind

"It's ok Seth." He looked up at hearing me say his name a, smile lighting up his face. I realized that this was the first time I had called him out more importantly by his name.

I'll call you forever…Mine

I reached out to him again and gently took his hand again I felt his strength immediately come into my body making my powers quiet as they came in contact with him. I knew that now I would have a less likely chance of losing control and damaging the area around me.

I am under control

'In only four hours of meeting him I now have control of my powers that I didn't have the last sixteen years, even with training.' I thought.

How lame

I smiled a truly dazzling smile as Seth grinned right back tightening his grip on my hand. I felt a pang in my heart as another thought came to me.

Un-Important

'Didn't he find it strange at how him and a perfect stranger where getting along as if they were together?' I thought panicking my mother had told me when she had met my father he had been afraid of the commitment that was now shoved in his face as she looked to him with nothing but love and how he felt it too and it scared him to feel it for a woman he only knew for two hours at the time.

It won't be like that!

I looked closely at Seth when he had returned to looking out at the water still clutching my hand which now sat in his lap. I noticed he was biting his lip…Did he need to say something? Was it why am I like this or I really like you? I pushed the latter out of my mind. It was probably the first one.

NO!

I sighed softly and pulled my hand out of Seth's maybe I should just tell him...

I am afraid.

'Seth I have fallen in love with you because of my powers and now we will live together forever… Oh by the way there is no way out of it so hahaha sucker.' The thoughts in my head were trying to be funny and sarcastic, but in reality they were summed up in one word…Stupid. I felt a pull as strong as the emotion love would equal, but I knew that it wasn't the real thing I didn't believe in love first sight. It was my powers they gave us no choice, I hated it and at the same time I was grateful and loved.

Torn down the middle.

I was so messed up right now…

I don't want to lose you.

Seth looked at me when I had pulled my hand from his a sad look on his face. I instantly felt regret for letting his hand go, obviously he hadn't wanted me to let go. I sighed again only this time mentally I was feeling more and more like a moron around this boy.

I have felt regret more today than I have ever felt before.

Seth gently laid his hand on my shoulder the warmth spreading through me.

Warm

"Is it your father and mother?" he asked gently I immediately felt more moronic. I hadn't thought about them hardly at all since coming here and seeing Seth again. I decided to lie, kinda, because now all I could think about was them.

Kind

"Yeah I want my mom's real killer in jail and my father home…That reminds me he left Billy a letter for me didn't he?" I asked looking to Seth in the now setting sun causing his deep dark eyes to become more intense as he looked back at me.

Strong

I was in deep trouble for telling lies with those eyes around that was for sure. Seth didn't seem to notice the effect he was having on me.

Seth

"I think it was to you or it may have been a 'How to Control My Kid.' Guide for Billy." Seth cracked at me and I gently slapped his shoulder and felt my palm sting, he was strong, and I smiled. Seth started to laugh it sounded more like a howl bark.

Unique

"Har Har Seth Clearwater, what species did you derive from the wolves?" I bit back in attempt to get a rise out of him.

He was all mine

He stiffened and jerked away from me fear in his dark eyes and I felt fear too.

Wait!

"I was only joking Seth I promise! I didn't mean it!" my voice cried out clutching out to his shirt.

I'm sorry!

Seth grabbed my hands and held them so tight it caused me a small amount of pain.

I'm sorry!

"Sari I- need- I need to tell you something I am-" suddenly an earth shattering howl pierced the sky and my powers radiated tension and fear.

I don't want to hear this yet!

Something abnormal was here something other than myself and it was coming closer.

Oh God

Seth stood up quickly as if the howl affected him and turned me towards his body his voice coming out rough and harsh.

It can't be

"Go to Billy's. Stay there until I come back." Then he pushed me away towards the house and I looked back in shock at him he only looked away his eyes intent on the woods as another howl pierced the air and Seth shook.

It isn't possible

I turned away and ran to Billy's my eyes looking for the source of the howl my eyes and witch senses on full alert then I smelt it…

Here

That sweet scent…

In front of me

I saw those red eyes…

Touching me

I felt cold hands wrap around me…

Realization

I knew that face I knew those hands I knew everything suddenly…

…Fear…

One word came through my lips…

Seth

"Zane." Darkness descended.

(SORRY! I realized the chapter didn't come out when I said it would and I am really sorry. I also had my online Beta ask me a question others may have had when you see something like this Sorrow and regretthat is Sarina's inner mind kind of like her powers having their own thought process…Sorry if it threw any one off. OH! One more thing I am getting A LOT of hits and that makes me happy I love my alerters too, but I really want you all to give me feedback it is really helpful for me to move my story along so if I get a total of five reviews before next Friday I will post that day without fail if not I wait till I get them so REVIEW!, and to make it more fun my reviewers will get a rough draft preview of the next chapter!)

Next chapter is going to be REALLY long and full of explanations…Enjoy the cliffhanger till then and the preview if you review…