My World

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RATING MAY CHANGE AFTER THIS CHAPTER DUE TO GORE AND CONTENT, NOTHING TO GRAPHIC BUT STILL A WARNING TO ALL READERS!

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

Flashbacks/Dreams

(Small side-note the bold thoughts you have been seeing are being cut down for this chapter I think it might work better without them in there so much.)

Chapter 4: I Need You.

I was flying through the air cold arms wrapped tightly around me. Howls pierced the air and were only getting further away. I felt the arms constrict when I shivered violently.

"Sarina, it'll be ok you'll understand soon." That voice so familiar and I felt wounds in my heart that I thought I had pushed away and forgotten return and reopen.

An unforgettable realization.

"Zane?" My voice shook as my eyes opened to lock onto the boy who carried me deftly through the forest…His black hair covering one eye the other crimson eye only shadowed by his hair. I felt his arms once more tighten around me.

I blinked at him my thoughts scattering as his eyes locked onto me and my heart slammed painfully in my chest as he smiled down at me.

"Sarina" he said my name like a caress and I felt my heart slam painfully again.

I was scared of him…This wasn't the boy I knew something was different something was very wrong.

This wasn't the same there was no warmth.

This was the man who had killed my mother and had looked at me with no remorse as he washed away my memories…Or tried to wash them away.

"Murderer." My voice hissed as we finally touched down onto the ground and he sat me down.

He flinched from me when I called him out moving away from me shaking his head slowly as if to dispel what I had said.

You will never dispel what you have done…

"No Sarina I'm not you just don't understand. I promise my lo—" I shrieked with rage as my powers came flying out to strike Zane in the chest unfortunately it wasn't enough because suddenly Zane was straddling my waist and holding my wrists.

"STOP!" he snarled squeezing my wrists and causing me to cry out in pain. He blinked and released them sitting back on his haunches but still on top of me.

I looked at him slowly bringing my arms to my sides. My eyes skimmed him up and down as I took in his appearance.

"You look like shit Zane." I griped at him as a small smile flitted across his face. He had always thought it funny to hear me speak like a sailor and in that instant I saw a small amount of the boy who had always been near me and watching over me, but then just as quickly he was gone submerged into that monster's form.

I wanted to cry.

Zane lifted his hand to touch my cheek again, still on top of me and I reacted violently I didn't want this new Zane near me. Unsettled by my sudden attack Zane fell backwards and before having time to really think about it I got up and ran.

Straight into Kaleb Drake, Zane's twin brother, I tried to push my powers out again but Kaleb knocked me down the pain from the strike making me lose my breath and I curled into a ball.

'I'm going to die by their hands too.' I thought my mother couldn't stop them and she was a much stronger witch than me, what hope did I have?

"Little witch long time no see?" Kaleb snarled softly at me. I hissed at him and curled tighter into my ball.

You are a mirror to a world I hate.

Kaleb grinned as he raised his hand to strike me again and a grisly snarl ripped from behind me and suddenly Zane was in front of me.

"NO! You killed Alyssa you won't kill Sarina too. One was enough!" He snarled. I felt like my heart had just become a train, Zane hadn't killed mother Kaleb had…That meant Zane had done me no wrong other than covering up for his brother…I locked onto Kaleb and once more released my powers only more effectively. Zane had erased my memories of that night as effectively as he could.

Kaleb had implanted new ones. Kaleb smirked at me realizing I had caught on now.

"Clever little witch." He murmured.

'I'll kill you for what you've done!' I thought in rage my scream piercing the air causing both brothers to turn towards me.

The lies, pain, and betrayal

I walked through our house. I had been at Mia's a little later than what I said, but mom wouldn't have a problem with it really.

I walked towards the kitchen calling out for mother after hearing a soft noise.

"Mom?" I rounded the corner to see her legs on the floor.

"MOM!" I ran the rest of the corner and saw him over her.

"Zane? What are you…" he turned his eyes glowing in the dim light cast from the lamp on the ground by them both it gave a flicker before going out plunging us in darkness.

My eyes adjusted as he stood up his eyes locked on me a small smile going up his face.

"Sarina Kari Bennet…I was wondering what you looked like…smelled like…ahh what a lovely smell!" he breathed in closing his eyes and a shudder ran down my spine. What was wrong with Zane?

But he couldn't hold my attention for long even if I did sense my own death I looked away.

My eyes trailed down to my mother's still form and I then saw her face. It was etched in permanent pain her eyes glassed over and her mouth open in a silent scream long since cut off.

I felt a sob break through as I took a step towards her bringing me closer to her killer.

"Why Zane? Why would you kill my mother she never did anything to you I don't understand. She loved you like a son you meant so much to her! " My voice was so filled with pain I could barely push the words out. " I thought you loved me too." My voice had turned small and fragile. I took another step forward.

He chuckled and stepped back to allow me to my mother.

"it's cute how you keep thinking I am Zane my name is Kaleb, pet I'm his brother, but I guess I see your confusion after all we're twins." He chuckled again

"What an amazing creature you and your mother are. Witches! And only a few of your kind still exist, and to be given the honor of tasting one—" my stomach twisted then as I knelt by mother's head and seeing the slit he had created to hide the teeth marks."I must say I wish I hadn't waited so long to meet my brother's little obsession. You seem to be an interesting little thing."

He reached towards me and a snarled ripped through the room.

"KALEB!" I didn't turn from my mother I knew that voice I had just heard it for the past four minutes, mistakening it for the real thing.

"Zane…help her…make her get up I know you can!" My voice peeked in hysterics and Zane's eyes filled with so much pain, I knew the truth she was gone nothing could be done.

One second I was staring at Zane's pain filled eyes to eyes so filled with rage it frightened me and he spun around and slammed his fist into his brother's face a horrible noise resounding from the contact and Kaleb flew through the bay windows.

"YOU DID THIS FOR WHAT REASON BROTHER WHAT HAD SARINA AND ALYSSA DONE TO YOU? WHAT REASON WAS THERE?" Zane's voice was so piercing it hurt my ears and I covered them in pain.

Zane reached towards me and I screamed in fear moving away from him and into my mother's cold body. My eyes latched onto her own the same sapphire blue shade as my own and I felt the bile rise up.

"Oh god…Oh god…Oh god…Please someone…anyone...please." my voice shook along with my body my powers trying to break free but unable due to my mental ability at the moment then I felt cold arms wrap around me and the wind flying as I was taken upstairs to my room.

I was put down and Zane looked at me in sadness his hands on my knees as I bawled.

"Why!" I screamed at him raising my hand to strike him. He caught it before I had even swung clutching it to his non-existent heart and reaching his other hand out to my cheek. I didn't pull away I leaned forward tears still coursing down my cheeks. I couldn't feel the hatred towards him I knew I should feel only the unbearable sadness and anger I had for his brother. His brother it jarred me to reality I'd seen him go through the window.

"Where's your brother?" I asked my eyes filled with rage and looking for the killer. Zane gently took away his hands from me allowing me to take possession of my hands and face. He took a deep breath.

"I'm so sorry Sarina, I didn't know in telling him about you and your mother it would lead to her death and your almost death," I shivered as he said it, my almost death ,"I can't let my brother get away with it but at the same time I can't let him be punished by your Prince." He sighed. I noticed he hadn't answered my question too.

"Our royalty won't do anything to him, but if they find out about you they will come after you. I think the best thing to do is erase your memories of me, Kaleb, and what he did tonight." Zane looked up to me as if he thought I would just agree to it.

I slapped him this time.

"I AM SUPPOSED TO JUST SIT HERE AND LET YOU TAKE AWAY MY MEMORIES AND LET HIM GET AWAY WITH KILLING MY MOTHER? NOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT? I WILL GO TO MY PRINCE AND TELL HIM WHAT HE'S DONE! I WON'T LET HIM GET AWAY WITH IT!" Once more I struck out at Zane only to have him once again catch me.

"No I can't allow it and I don't want you to die. This is for the best you'll see." And before I could react his lips were on mine and I felt a chilling coldness seep into my body as I fell limply against him while he still held his lips to mine.

"I promise I'll do something for what has been done." He whispered as I slowly lost consciousness. The last thing I felt was his hands smoothing my hair down.

My eyes glistened with even more un-shed tears as Zane held me from behind. I had tried to get at Kaleb only to have Zane come into contact with me and stopping me effectively.

I stared at Kaleb who merely smiled and shrugged his shoulders.

"You said you would punish him." I whispered my voice cracking and Zane tightened his grip while Kaleb let out a cackle.

"Punish me? Silly little witch I guess you're not as clever as I thought. My brother and I merely covered our tracks and left you should know blood is thicker than water." I growled

"Tell your older brother that then." Zane and Kaleb both flinched.

Kaleb's eyes turned cold and dark. "I enjoyed twisting your memories it taught you a lesson." I shuddered as I recalled that night once more.

What I also noticed was Zane's angry hiss slowly filling the air…

You promised to make him pay for mother..

I lay on my bed when a creaking sounded my eyes fluttered open.

"Where am I?" I sat up feeling woozy I felt like something was out of place I looked beside me to see a pair of red eyes looking back.

"WH-!" My scream cut off as the boy placed his hand over my mouth. He grinned as I began to shake I didn't understand.

"Don't worry little witch my brother wasn't at all that effective in sealing your memories and in time they will un-ravel in your mind becoming loose once more. I can't allow that, but I also don't like this 'attraction' my brother has for you so I'll do us all a favor." He gently stroked my cheek and once more I fell to the darkness as the 'new' memories took hold.

"I'm so sorry Sarina I didn't know Kaleb would change your memories too." Zane snarled at his brother. Kaleb grinned like a little kid knowing he wouldn't get into trouble for doing wrong. I hated him.

I went limp in Zane's arms and he sat me down. Gently he held me and stroked my face whispering in my ear as Kaleb watched us a glint in his eyes.

My memories had returned all of them were there even the implanted ones, but I knew which were real and which weren't. I looked at Zane then to Kaleb.

In only a span of five days since my mother's murder, my memories hidden from me, my witch powers out of control…

"I still hold your brother's affections Kaleb, I still hold my gifts as that little witch you like to call me, and I also have affection NOW for that huge ass were wolf standing not ten feet from you." I pointed towards the right and watched as both Zane and Kaleb, who had started to snarl at me when I first began speaking, turned towards my direction to come face to face with…the trees.

By this point I had gotten up and using my witch senses had started running, it made me quick but I knew I wouldn't be fast enough. I heard Zane let out a shout and Kaleb let loose a snarl.

I would not die lying down…

"I say KILL her brother!" "NO" a horrible noise like boulders crashing sounded behind me and I knew what had happened. They were fighting each other but I kept running I couldn't trust Zane anymore not now.

"Seth…I need you…Help me…Seth." I rasped out as I dodged trees, roots, and rocks that could hinder me.

I ran as my lungs began to protest at the strain, but still I kept going as I neared the edge of the woods I saw something black shoot in front of me followed by something sandy colored and another thing that was gray. I slammed on the brakes and skidded to the ground causing one of the giant horse sized wolves to whimper at my tumble, but I didn't take that much notice because Zane came bursting through the trees with Kaleb on his heels.

If I can get no one to aid me…

I felt the pain in my lungs to become even worse as I took in the predators that surrounded me. The wolves I could handle, but the vampires, one who knew me as well as I did, I had one word for myself…Screwed…Make it two…Royally Screwed.

I blinked as the sandy wolf stepped in front of me taking a protective stance then the black stepped in front of him and jerked his head towards me as if commanding sandy to get me out of here. I blinked again as Zane snarled but made no move to get to me. It was like he was scared of them…Like they WERE werewolves, or lycanthropes as witches called them.

I felt myself swaying and sandy caught me by now six more wolves had joined the group of three and I felt wind flying as sandy took off with me attached to him and Zane let out a enraged roar that was my name. I clung to the beast as trees flew by me, he moved quicker than Zane did and if my theory was right it was to be expected from his kind.

I felt cold arms lift me up and immediately panicked.

I'll fight!

"NO!" I screamed pushing backwards with my powers and slamming into the burly vampire who had tried to hold me.

I spun around to come face to face with the golden eyes of Edward. I blinked again Edward Cullen. My breathing hitched...

This is…

Then I remembered the sandy wolf and gasped where was he I heard a noise behind me.

'Eh?!' I thought swinging my head around at the wolf, who changed into a man, right in front of me.

"SETH!" I yelled in surprise as Seth spun away from me a look on his face somewhere between embarrassment and anger, pain. I wondered about the embarrassment until I looked down and noticed his…assets.

I let out a noise and spun away myself even if he did have a nice one I SHOOULD NOT be looking at him that way…much… I was a pervert now I know it. I heard a button snap and hoping to God he was dressed I spun around and ran into his arms and smothered myself against him crying.

I felt Seth's shock as he pulled me away a look of fear in his eyes.

"Are you ok? I know a lot had happened tonight and—"I cut him off by placing my lips against his and pressing hard. I felt his instant response as he crushed me to him and he took over my mouth. I trembled from the intensity of it. I had to come up for air and looked at him.

"I knew you would come. I just didn't know as a lycan!" I smiled "But you came and got me from Zane." I once more threw my arms around him as I began to laugh in relief.

I wasn't alone anymore

"So Sari you know the vampires that took you off the reservation?" Edward asked coming up behind us I turned and nodded my grimace extremely noticeable to the four vampires with us, two of which was Alice and Bella then Edward and the burly one I didn't know, but would guess to be Emmett.

"Zane and Kaleb Drake twin brothers. Zane I had known since I was a little girl and Kaleb I met on the night he killed my mother and tried to kill me. I know who you all are now, the famous Cullens Zane always wanted to meet you he didn't like killing humans and would steal from blood banks or mom would try to find sellers in the black market…" I trailed off at the memories. "He is a traitor to me he took away my memories so he could save his brother from the wraith of the Covenant." I glared.

Edward cocked his head "Covenant?" he asked in a quiet voice while I heard Alice, who had stepped forward now, issue a small gasp at the name.

"I recognize that name! When I was first taken to the asylum it's a memory that will always stand out even if I remember almost nothing else on my first day there was a patient being dragged to the confinement chamber she was screaming about the Covenant locking her powers away that she didn't mean any harm and that they had to see reason." I nodded at the statement.

"It's likely she was a Stripped Wicca, a being no longer allowed to use his or her magic because they either did a wrong or killed another…To also be put in an asylum she must've done something horrible." I told Alice. "Her powers must have extinguished another witch or their crystal." I shuddered. "In reality now she would have been put to death."

If not branded with the Curse

Alice blinked rapidly at this absorbing the information just as Edward was only Edward continued his questions.

"So the Covenant govern you and you're a witch." He made it as a statement not a question.

"NO! What makes you think--- Oh shit. I just told you!" I slapped my head in exasperation.

Edward only smiled and then stepped forward towards me a quizzical look in his eyes.

"I won't demonstrate my powers Goldie back off I'm not in the mood for a Spanish inquisition." I snapped moving towards Seth who had remained quiet this whole time. I turned to him and saw an unfathomable look in his eyes.

"Seth?" I asked my voice small and scared he didn't look at me and I felt my heart constrict.

"You're a witch? You know vampires and you seem to have no problem with me being a werewolf, but what's a crystal?" Then he looked at me that cold look still in his eyes and I quickly answered to ease his worry.

"A crystal is a witch's power source and our lifemate. They live forever with us and protect us." I looked at Seth hoping he would clue in and that look would go away. I heard Edward growl in his throat behind me.

"Don't do what I did Seth it isn't right." I turned to question Edward about that when I felt the wind move behind me and saw Seth running from me. Edward let out a shout and I felt like the world had just flipped on me.

He didn't want me he was going away to get away.

I stood there as I watched the burly vampire tear after him muttering profanities under his breath. Bella was also saying some very unladylike things too. Edward merely watched just as I did Alice came beside me and wrapped an arm around me.

"It'll be ok he needs time to process –"She tried to say.

"I MEANT HIM! HE WAS MY CRYSTAL!!!! HE WAS MINE! I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH HIM!" My scream ricocheted off the trees as my anger took over causing my powers to go into overdrive. It startled me at how quickly I had turned to anger when they only meant to comfort. I hadn't been like this ever only after meeting Seth had my anger been more forceful…Seth it all lead back to him.

He kept me from falling apart when my mother was dead and my father in prison, he saved me when the boy I thought I could trust with my life had screwed me over for his brother and he was the one who would help save my people…If only that was the full truth.

I felt the longing to be back in his arms, arms that didn't want me. The anger flashed again.

Everyone always leaves.

Alice stepped away as my powers crackled in the air around me causing it to snap and retaliate at anything that moved.

"Calm down Sari he didn't know that and you don't know his side either." Edward's voice was like a slap in the face to my temper I spun on him. Bella was in front of him her teeth showing and a growl coming from her chest.

I stopped. "I'm sorry." I said quietly backing down. I was threatening to them and I didn't like it I didn't want the only good vampires being my enemies. Edward sighed as Bella stood down her own eyes taking on a depth of sadness at the pain in my voice.

He walked up to me and gently placed his hand on my shoulder and squeezed I smiled at him and the words just tumbled out.

"I'm not just a civilian to the Covenant, but their only surviving Princess I will ascend the throne my brother is not allowed due to his gender it must be a woman and I can't take it on until I have my crystal now I do and I can't get him to understand me and I can't save my people. Edward we are a dying race. I want it to be how it was in my grandmother's day with us living in harmony with others of the myth. I hate Kaleb and others like him like your governing body the Volturi they only continue to want death, destruction, and discord with all races. I met Aro, Caius, and Marcus when I was a very small girl back when my Nana was around. I hated them." I shuddered at the memory of Aro trying to read my thoughts to only have my grandmother slam him out so he wouldn't learn our secrets. Since that day no vampire's powers had been able to affect me.

I was defended

"They are not the best governing system we could be blessed with but they are all we have." Alice murmured softly suddenly her head whipped to the side and a smile broke across her face.

"Jasper." Her voice filled with affection as a tall, lean blonde vampire came to her and my breathing hitched.

"Jasper Whitlock." I breathed his eyes turned to me in confusion just as everyone else's was too.

"How did you—"Alice began before a loud crash sounded and Jasper was beside me holding Zane by the throat as he tried to reach for me. I knew little time could pass before everything went further to hell than it already had I spoke out to Zane.

I can feel the hatred he has for him.

"Zane, it's him, your big brother let him help you." Zane snarled at me and locked eyes with a very shocked Jasper.

"I have no brother other than Kaleb this thing is only a reflection and Sarina we are leaving now!" Zane tore away from Jasper who looked like he was in pain and Zane rushed at me.

I knew I would never be fast enough to bloke him and I was still so upset so when his cry of rage pierced the air my heart soared. It also meant we had suck to hell so quick that now only one thing could happen.

"LIKE HELL YOU'LL TOUCH HER!" Seth snarled in rage as he changed form and blocked Zane.

Zane grinned in invitation.

"Whoever wins keeps her." I shrieked in anger. "I'M NOT A TOY ASSHOLE!" I roared just as Seth roared. "FINE!" I once more shrieked in anger "SETH!"

It began.

(Ok now I KNOW that was a whole bunch of words! I counted ten pages. Let me see word count is 4,414… That is a lot! I hope to get five reviews for this chapter and to go ahead and guesstimate the story will be over in another maybe four to five chaps…WITH EPILOGUE!!!!! *Cheers* NOW get reviewing kiddies!)