Chapter Ten [10]
The fighting was slowly ceasing around them. Now that Dakota was dead, the gang was retreating back slowly but surely. Sesshomaru held Kagome in his arms,
listening to the constant fighting and gun banging. He kept her head burried into his chest, breathing in her shampoo deeply. She rested against him. For
so much drama and anxiety in such a short period, she didn't realize how much of a stable person she was until this moment. She looked up into Sesshomaru's
eyes, and for those quiet seconds, everything was written across his eyes. His phone started to vibrate and smoothly he arose from the bed and walked into the halway,
closing the door with a soft lay there eyes closed, listening, straining to hear his voice; sadly she wasn't so fortunate. She heard the phone close and he walked back into the room.
He looked at her and whispered, "Its over."
She smile, and slowly drifted off to sleep in his rock hard, protective arms.
"If only you knew, my love.... how much i've torn my walls, stretched my heart, acted out of person;
all for you...," He laid his head on her chest and listened to the sound of her heart beat. Kagome slept
for at least an hour before she woke up.
She looked down at Sesshomaru's head on her chest. She sighed as tears filled her eyes. The strolled down her cheeks and landed onto his shining hair that
she was runing her finger through.
"What?" He asked, not moving. She sat there silently until he looked up into her eyes.
"Sesshomaru... I - can I ask you a question, without you
getting mad or upset or leaving?" She whispered.
"Perhaphs... depends on the question and
if you probe when and if you do not recieve
a direct answer." He replied.
"Well... I know I'm kind of like ... well, that
it shouldn't matter or anything, but... have you
ever lied to me about anything?"
For a few minutes he was taken aback. Why would she want to know if he - a serial killer, one of the most wanted people in the country - had ever lied to
her? Was she deliherious from all of the stress, or was she just being straight out? He paused, hesitated and a cold nervous sweat broke out over his body.
"Yes. Sigh. I can not crush you spirit
more than it already has been... When
I told you I would kill you, and..." hesitation.
"And? ...When Sesshomaru, you can
tell me...It won't change my opinion
of you."
"That's what I'm scared of Kagome. I want
to be the one person you come to, I want
to be there for you. But first, you have to let
down your walls and trust me. I know that
would be hard coming from me, because I
know I haven't been exactly the "comforting"
type or any one to let some one else be close,
especially the enemy, but for some crazy reason
I fell for you. Maybe because of how much you
remind me of my mother, or perhaps you always
looked, you were never
scared of me, the fire in your eyes, no matter
how much danger you could be in." He laughed.
"I love you Kagome, it runs deeper than my
bones and I'm tired of fighting it. It is something
beautiful, a masterpeice all in its own."
Kagome's eyes widened. She swallowed the lump in her throat. She could trust the enemy more than the man she had called her brother for so long, and lived
with. Now she was laying here with enemy against her chest listening to the dance of her pulse.
"You have this look and its just totally
undescribable, Sesshomaru. You make
me feel like I'm alive... Its the aderenaline
of our forbidden love. You are the only
person in the world that I want to change
everything for, and I was so scared that
you would never be able to look past what
my brother has done to be able to love me
back. Its confusing to
look at you and then not understand what
is going on with you. I trust you, someone
I have known for two or three months more
than I trust the man I've called my brother
for eight years. I love you Sesshomaru, and
yes I do agree, our love is a beautiful
masterpeice - unspoke and forbidden, and
that is what makes it unique and amazing."
"But," She whispered, "I fear I can not be with you, because of your lifestyle, and because of all the danger I could cause for myself and for you..." Sesshomaru
nodded. "Maybe we could look past that my love, let's say for argument's sake that I'm not smart, what happens to us if we do continue with each other. Have children,
a wonderful house. If I could leave all of this behind?" He asked. Kagome smiled thinking of it. "I don't know Sesshomaru, I really don't. . . But I do know, that
when this city doesn't need you anymore, and the mafia doesn't need you anymore, we can be together. Just know that until then I still love you, with all of my
heart." She whispered. Tears leaked out of Sesshomaru's eyes, he knew that he couldn't just drop the mafia, or that he couldn't let her leave. But sadly, one
of the two had to happen, and right now, it was her abscence.