My World

(WHOOPS! I realized that later back in the chapters I had mentioned Sari meeting Aro with her grandmother and this may have caused confusion in Chapter 6 to clear it up I will put it in this chapter so NO FEARS!)

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"Speech"

'Thoughts'

Flashbacks/Dreams

Sarina's inner thoughts (Weren't there in last chapter ^-^)

Chapter 7: Reconnecting to You

I sighed as a strong gust of wind blew my hair out of my face and whipped my hair back as I turned to four shrouded figures behind me.

The time draws near.

"Stand at ready it seems they have gotten slightly smarter… Use codes don't use real names…flee if it comes to it, but bring all that you can of us out with you." My voice was sharp and commanding and I knew the figures would obey even if they didn't like the idea of fleeing; something my unit had yet to do in this war.

I turned and raised my own hood so it hid my face and reached down to put on a white mask with a crescent moon on the forehead then I stood straight as an arrow and my voice carried malice in it as the signal fell from my lips.

"Destroy."

It's what we do to stop this war.

We all fell straight into action as we descended from the building we had been standing on top of and landed lithely on our feet we immediately went into defense mode as the Vampires turned on us to try and snap our necks or take us hostage.

My unit was the Lunar unit and we were the highest ranking unit in the Covenant army, not because they had a royal captain but because we had all trained together and grew up together until mother removed me from their contact in my life.

In the unit there were a total of six including myself: Vianca, Mika, Vincent, Kyle, and Kitty. Kitty was in her final trimester with Kyle's child and was put out of action due to her water breaking in a battle was NOT a scenario I nor Kyle could handle so begrudgingly she stayed behind with my brother.

My brother also led a division, but it was a cleanup unit to keep humans from noticing the blood, torn limbs, and destroyed ground.

Another unit that was surprising to everyone was a group of humans who were crystals, and guardians to our people and they were led by my father, who on the day I decided to first defend my people then take my life into my own hands, had also come out of his numb life to take action and to live on for me, Dominic, and in memory for mother. Crystals were able to call upon their mates powers to defend themselves so we all felt fine with their descision.

I reached behind me when I felt an arm grab my neck and fired two rounds into the face of a blonde haired vampire who screamed in pain and became ash. My guns Blue Crescent and Midlight Moon were specifically designed to channel my powers into the bullets giving them the ability to pierce through vamps and turn them to ash. I was a kitten with tiger claws as my unit called it…

And I fight to protect what I lost.

We finished the first group when reinforcements came pouring in surrounding us by at least twenty people and I growled low under my breath….Yes these little bastards had gotten VERY clever and now I was getting tired.

I suddenly heard a sound that made my heart launch straight into my throat and my unit to pause and the vampires to freeze in fear. A howl. I had heard a wolf's howl.

Suddenly nine wolves burst from the woods in the surrounding area of the abandoned warehouse to surround the vampires who had us cornered and then I heard snarls and seven vampires burst out into the open as well all of their teeth bared and one in particular looking pissed and drained all at the same time and before I could so much as clamp my mouth shut and not let the shut-up filter take hold I called out.

"Jasper your face will get stuck that way and then I can't tell you what you need to know." Jasper's head whipped to me and a smirk crossed his haunted face. I felt a pang in my chest Alice's death had a horrible affect on him and it broke my heart for him.

Why did I go and open my mouth I'm not ready yet.

I heard a whine and turned but before I could find the source the vampires decided break time was over and launched at us and the wolves, and Cullens. I roared in rage and fired my guns aiming for heads instead of torsos like I usually would I couldn't afford to hit someone else by accident.

I felt a hand grab my throat and looked to see a black haired woman had me and was beginning to squeeze tightly my airway closing and my throat protesting the strain as the force started to crush me.

Suddenly a hand shot out and gripped the woman's hand on me and twisted it snapping it effectively clean off and throwing it to the ground I dropped into a pair of hands that I recognized even though I hadn't touched and felt in two years.

I wasn't ready for this, right?

I looked up into Seth's glowing eyes as he drank in my face and I his, his arms holding me even closer as he breathed in my scent as if to memorize me. I was doing the same until I realized the battle wasn't over and I gently pushed myself away from Seth who looked hurt at the action and I couldn't help it in the midst of all this chaotic violence I began to giggle.

"Silly there is still fighting going on hold me when they are gone and it's over." I gently touched his arm and gestured with a slight tilt of my head to his chest. "Besides pants would help too and I love that charming blush you have." I watched as Seth finally realized his clothes were nowhere to be found and he quickly changed back into his wolf form staying close to me as we continued to fight…

Several hours later we were done having killed in total thirty vampires, a new high score, and I was breathing heavily. All of us where tired and I slowly sank to my knees as Seth and the other wolves changed back and he put on pants and rushed to my side gently stroking my hair and I shivered at the contact.

You're here with me.

"Sarina are you ok?" Mika asked me softly her hands stroking Vincent's bandaged arm and I winked at the girl who blushed brightly and returned her attention to her partner. Someday they would realize that they were each other's crystal and bond, but for now they stayed ignorant and we let them as long as they never went too far from each other we had no reason to get in the way.

I turned to the rest of my unit to find them resting quietly Kyle and Vianca napping quietly near each other. I smirked they were the most unusual brother and sister I ever came across able to be fighting machines and completely conking out when the battle was over like an off switch. Kitty would laugh about how she wished she could find the switch when they started bickering.

I looked to the wolves who were all now in human form and talking amongst themselves and checking injuries. My gaze swept over once more to the Cullens to see them all looking at me questions in their eyes. I looked away and turned to Seth who was looking at me intensely.

I am so sorry I am to blame I know.

"Seth..." my voice was a whisper that even I myself couldn't hear, but Seth did and a bright, happy smile broke across his face before he launched forward and kissed me and my mind reeled.

'Had I only kissed these lips once?' I thought my arms moving around his neck and bringing him closer to me as I returned the kiss with a pent up passion of two years. 'My god this...this is heaven.' I gasped when his tongue traced my bottom lip and my mouth opened to grant him access.

My love.

Several seconds, minutes, hours I can't really tell later we surfaced to get air back into our lungs but we still held each other tightly and Seth didn't take very long till he kissed the top of my head and buried his face in the crook of my neck placing butterfly kisses there.

I heard a whistle and glanced over to see Mika grinning like the Cheshire Cat, Vincent watching silently, Vianca and Kyle grinning their oh so famous shit eating grins and a blush spread up my face. Kyle roared with laughter as the Cullen's watched on and the wolves were silent.

"Now I know why you were so upset when you were taken away. Little Sari is quite the horn dog! Held him any closer and I would've been an Uncle in nine months." He chortled to my horror and then Vianca opened her mouth and I freaked at what she said.

"So how's the sex?" I shrieked indigently and rushed at her she laughed dancing away from me.

"MY GOD! I am---we never- VIANCA!" I sputtered feebly and felt a pair of warm arms surround me and I sagged into them. "Forget it I may be your Princess, but you guys tease me relentlessly." At this Vianca stood up straight and her face turned serious as she stepped forward.

"Of course with what happened two years ago, you almost died when you were taken from Seth and then to become a Dicca then once more alter yourself to help your people and take the burden over what happened to Alice and Leah, to see you so happy now and smiling just because he is holding you. I'm…" suddenly Vianca began to bawl and her words came out in rush

"gladtohavemybestfriendbackRina!" she wailed as she launched at me and I moved from Seth to catch her and hold her wailing form.

"Shhh! It's ok I'm so sorry I didn't notice how I affected you guys I should've and I'm so so sorry Vivi." I cooed to her as I rocked back and forth while Kyle patted her back. I looked to the Cullen's and the wolves.

How many have I hurt?

"We need to talk all of us, I am aware." I called to them and in union they nodded they had watched us with emotions flashing over their faces, but none of them stuck and I was to blame.

I gently disengaged from Vianca and turned to Vincent. "Report to my brother and send the Cleaners and he needs to come too he can make good on my favor now…I hope." Vincent nodded standing and Mika walked beside him gently holding his arm in case he stumbled and I saw his eyes warm to the shy, quiet, girl and thought briefly that we may not be waiting as long as I originally thought.

"Seth I need to talk to all of you can you meet me here at this address in three hours?" I asked telling him the address only to see him shake his head angrily and his brown eyes turn pitch black.

"Hell no! Wherever you go I go I am not leaving you by yourself for one minute anymore not now that I have found you again!" he grasped my hands tightly and the heat warmed me instantly.

I don't want you to let go.

I sighed softly and turned to the wolves. "Can one of you be in wolf form so that Seth can give you directions later and tell the Cullen's too? I need the time because I have to talk to the Council and alert them to the new updates we have acquired." As I finished speaking the strangest thing happened.

"Listen to you Brat talking all proper and commanding hilarious." Jacob crowed at me and a smile stretched across my face as I lifted both my hands a made the bird at him, I knew what he was trying to do and I suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of warmth towards Jake, but I was still going to hound his ass, no pun intended.

"Kiss my ass, Jackass I can make you scream like a little Bitch with one hit. Wanna find out Jakey?" I crowed right back and winked at him. Jake merely laughed again and shook his head while Seth chuckled quietly from beside me taking my hands in his and kissing my knuckles. I felt it though from all of them especially Seth, Sam, Jake, and of course Jasper, the gap of missing something so important that it was like a missing puzzle piece.

I sighed softly placing my hands onto Seth's chest and moving in closer. He seemed to understand me and wrapped him arms around me and I quietly let out a sob making his arms tighten.

"We don't blame you... I don't blame...I love you Sarina." He whispered softly causing me to nod in acceptance for some reason I couldn't say I love you too... it was the truth no doubt about that, I was just…scared.

Fear of loss

I tilted my head to my unit and slowly turned away from Seth but firmly kept my hand in his.

"Return at the address given in three hours tops…We have to go change, rest, and check on a very pregnant Kitty then my brother can make good on his promise." I turned tugging Seth's hand to follow just as Dominic dropped in with the rest of the Cleaners Unit. He merely looked at me and the surrounding wolves and vampires and nodded.

When it was time I would call and he would come.

He would come

~ One Hour Later~

Seth said "Wow" for what seemed to be the thousandth time. I loved the boy, but if he said it one more time I was shoving him into a closet and leaving him to say 'wow' by himself for three days straight.

I scoffed at myself in my own head. Yeah sure just getting the love of my life back I probably wouldn't let him take two baby steps away from me without my body moving at the same time in the same direction.

I sighed as Kyle went straight to a waddling Kitty who chirped happily that the baby was kicking merrily in her stomach. Vianca also went over to them while Vincent and Mika headed to their rooms to rest after giving me a salute that was a trademark of our unit only. I smiled and gently tugged on Seth's hand to make him follow me.

Follow me and see me

I rounded a corner that led to my room and pushed open the door leading Seth inside. The moment the door shut I spun around and caught his lips in a fiery, passionate, loving kiss and I lost myself in it.

I wasn't Sarina and he wasn't Seth, there was no war going on, there was no deaths we would have to face, there wasn't the aching fact that I had not once caught wind of Zane and Kaleb's whereabouts. It was just two people who cared for each other and in that moment my heart felt totally complete.

I am where I belong

I pulled away first because apparently my lung capacity reached its limit quicker, but this didn't deter Seth he merely started to place butterfly kisses all along my neck and collarbone and I felt my knees quiver.

"S-Seth how did you and the rest of everyone else get all the way to Romania?" My voice was breathless and I sounded like I had been running a marathon and I felt Seth shake with laughter.

He pulled away to stare into my eyes and gently caressed my cheek.

"I could always sense you in a really weird way… It was like I had a SPS in my brain." He grinned while I cocked my head to the side.

"SPS?" I asked and he smirked even more "Yeah a Sarina Position System." I scoffed and tapped his nose.

"Silly Boy!" I giggled then my voice and eyes became serious. "It's almost time and then the serious stuff has to get out of the way." I whispered my forehead touching his chest while his arms constricted around me.

"I know and just remember that I am here now I will never let you get taken away again." He muttered fiercely.

Nor will I

I detached myself once again only taking his hand as we walked down the hall towards the Throne Room. We talked about what we had been doing and what everyone had been up to as well. Apparently three months after I had vanished Seth had noticed that he could hear a strange whispering in his mind and that it sounded a lot like me, but emotionless. It spoke of my misery and pain and how much I missed him.

That was me with no hope.

When he mentioned it the first time to the others they said it was only a memory echo something to keep me connected to him and they continued to mourn Leah and Alice's death, but another three months went by and he could still hear it only more often, and it bothered him to say, vicious. I had merely laughed stating that around that time I was a Hunter and I was demolishing any vampires that went against us.

And I had lost my heart to Darkness, I was slowly recovering it.

Seth had only shaken his head stating that if he had been able to protect me I wouldn't have needed too. I shrugged and nodded for him to go on as we turned into another hall.

He continued saying that why was it only my voice he could hear and not have one of Leah too? This time when he brought it up the Cullens' were there and Jasper had rejoined them, from what Seth told me Jasper had left for a few months to search himself and apparently me too. Seth had tried to go too, but Jacob wouldn't let him saying that Jasper wasn't going to find me there was no hope…Seth had resented Jacob for that for a while and once more I felt bad.

This time Seth shrugged and continued saying that I was NOT to blame…if he only knew how I WAS.

My Fault

Anyway when he brought it up Edward had sided with Seth saying he too could hear the thoughts like they were two separate entities in Seth's mind. Seth had been having his own thoughts while mine had also been going on in his mind. I smiled softly at this, I wasn't sure why but I was happy to know I wasn't forgotten, but I didn't mention it to Seth.

Later on with everyone in agreement they decided that I must be alive and well and they would all go look for me... I was touched because all of them had given up their lives in Forks to move around to find me. As they moved closer to the Eastern border of America Seth noticed my thoughts would get louder and clearer even lighter. So they went across seas to Ireland where my voice was even louder and much more distinct at the same time in the form of the Irish coven's knowledge they found out about the Volturi's war against the Covenant and our resistance and wins.

They left Nessie in Siobhan's Coven's care and continued on coming to Romania. This had spanned the full two years and now here they were all safe.

Seth had asked me to talk what had happened with me, but I had dissuaded him from it by our arrival at the throne doors and opening them. Inside were all of Lunar unit, my brother, father, the wolves, and the Cullen's. Bella, Carlisle, Esme, and Edward all stood up when we entered slight smiles on their faces when a blur went past them a stopped straight behind me.

"Jasper. Are you alright?" My voice was soft and gentle. I knew how he felt about losing someone important just because I had my Crystal back didn't mean anything was better completely. I still didn't have my momma…

"Not really. Have you heard anything on my brother?" He asked in turn stepping in front of me looking down. I however grew confused.

"Brother? You mean brothers Jas Kaleb and Zane. You saw them both." But Jasper only shook his head.

"No I only have one brother, Zane I don't know who Kaleb is or why he has Zane's face, but that's not my family." He stated and I reeled back in shock.

'How!?' I thought looking to my brother who only shook his head. He didn't know either. I sighed.

"I don't know anything in any case." I said "But I do have news containing to Alice and Leah." O wanted to get straight to it, I'd worry about Zane later when I had my thoughts collected. Jasper's head jerked up at this as did everyone else's I only looked to my brother to begin, after all it was him who would do this not I.

He looked around at everyone and stood calmly.

"Cullen's you lost a sister, wife, and daughter, and Wolves of Quileute you lost a sister, friend, and pack mate, I can do only this and it is up to you groups to consider and decide. I am the Deathbringer and Lifegiver and I offer you this…" Everyone's breathing stilled.

"I can bring back either Alice or Leah from death, but only the one the other will forever rest. You all must decide who I return to life."

As I watched everything went out of control…

End Part One of Reconnecting to You Part Two will come out next week or the week after….Stay Tuned!

(Sorry it took so long to get this out! If there are any questions PM me!!! R&R Ladies and Gents And also this wasn't Beta'd this time any mistakes I am very sorry!)