OK so before you read There is one person I would really like to thank for this chapter. I haven't written a new chapter for months I really didn't feel like it ! i was discouraged from writing UNTIL today when I opened up my emails I found LIKe a hundered reviews from one person WEll actually 12 reviews and they were all so FUNNY i was having a shitty day and they made me feel so good i just had to write another chappie!!!!
SOOO thanks to Yasmin YES YOU YASMIN !!!! My No# 1 fan lol btw thanks for calling me a fish !!! lol I dont eat fish so it means I wouldn't eat me so thats a good thing!!!

THIS Chapters 4 u Yasmin

Chapter 10 : Somebody help me ... Please?!?!

I started to panic. I could hear my heart race speeding up on the monitor beside my bed. "HEL- P AN-N-YON--E!?!?!" I screeched.

"SO-MM-EBODY HH-EL-P M-ME".

I could feel the blood rushing to my head.

My thoughts were incoherent and I had troubles stringing together my words and actions.

I yelled with all my might but it didn't seem to be enough, nobody came running in.

There was nobody to help me.

The scar across my stomach was fresh and tender around the edges.

I was stuck in a whirlwind of emotions, I felt like I was going to explode.

The room started to spin as I slipped from my bed and tried to walk.

I could only manage a few steps before clasping on the floor.

For a moment I just lay there. The floor was cold and hard. It felt nice under my cheek. My body started to relax, my thoughts slowed down. I let my body shut down.

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I dunno how long I stayed like that, It seemed like an eternity but for all I know it could have been seconds.

I wanted to go back to the dark place and that scared me.

"Susie?!?!" I lifted my head up.

She was an angel in my eyes.

The one person who would always be there when I needed someone.

I tried to speak, to make some sense of this but my words gushed out and sounded like mush.

"Oh Susie" she exclaimed and slumped down to join me on the floor.

She helped me sit up and pulled me into a warm embrace.

I leaned my head on her soft neck.

I said the only thing that made sense in the moment "Mum".

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After an extremely long time I lifted my head up.

My mothers face was stressed, her hair was pulled back into a messy bun.

She wore no makeup and she looked like she could go for a few rounds with a bed and if I wasn't mistaken tears wear welling up in her soft blue eyes.

I finally found what I wanted to say, of all the things that I wanted to know, this seemed the most important.

"Mum, what happened?".

She sighed and closed her eyes, I didn't think she was going to say anything but after a pause she opened her eyes, she looked even more worn.

" Do you remember what happened before you blacked out sweetie?"

This time I closed my eyes. A flash of mental images popped up in my head.

An out of control cart.

Jesse's Face panicked.

Jesse's face determined.

The floor.

The light.

Jesse falling.

Darkness.

"Yes" I whispered through tight lips.

"A nurse found you" she swallowed loudly " You had hit your head and were bleeding heavily, you lost so much blood."

Tears were pouring down both our faces "You wouldn't wake up, so they rushed you to surgery to get the baby out-"

The baby, My baby.

Where was it? Was it alright? My mum was talking but I stopped listening.

The baby. The baby. The baby. Thebabythebabythebaby. Was all I could think.

I finally put my thoughts into words "The baby?".

My stomach was in knots, I didn't want to look into my mothers face. In case... in case. I shuddered I couldn't think like that.

"The baby's fine". Oh my god. For the first time I felt the slightest bit better. I looked back up into my mothers face.

For some reason it was troubled.

I had missed something.

There was something about the way she said the baby's fine.

I waited for the pieces to click together.

I frowned "Mum?" I asked tentatively but she wouldn't met my gaze.

The baby's fine.

It's alright.

But.

Jesse.

As soon as I thought his name I knew something wasn't right.

"Jesse," my mum swallowed again. Hard. "Mum, where is Jesse?".

She stared at the floor.

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