' Sasuke's thoughts'
'Sakura's thoughts'
'Other people thoughts'
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Chapter 12: Regrets.
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"Karin, are you sure you really want to do this? This is serious, we are going to get in so much trouble" Amy whispered in a frighten voice, she can't let Shizune sensei hear them or they would have detention, but maybe detention was a better punishment than all the trouble they would be after what Karin was about to do.
"No one will know if you shut your mouth" Karin furrowed her brows throwing a glare at Amy's direction. "Look… if you don't want to do this, is already too late. No matter what there's no turning back now. Everything is ready to get rid of that stupid pink hair slut."
"But Karin I don't-"
"And if you betray me remember that you will go down with me" Karin said in a threaten tone, sending death glares to Sakura. "Are you going to do this Amy?"
She really doesn't want to do this; she knows this is going too far. She sent a glare towards Sakura; if she never came to this school Karin wouldn't the bitch as she is now.
"Yes, I am going to"
"I need you to start the plan today, and you better do it right"
Amy just nodded, there was not turning back now, Sakura Haruno… you're screwed.
Sasuke PoV
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Finally lunch time, I was walking to the cafeteria, while searching for Sakura. She hadn't talked to me since biology, we had math together but she hardly turned to look at me.
Maybe she was mad at me. Aaagh damn hormones make me do stupid things.
After math we had different classes so I hope we can talk at lunch. I was still walking when I felt my cell phone vibrate on my pocket. I had two text messages.
From : Itachi
'Otouto it seems this Christmas we wont be alone, so prepare yourself.
PS. Next time when I called you more than 50 times I guess that's a good sign for you to answer the damn phone.'
I glared at Itachi's message, I was about to reply but I decided to worry about that later, I needed to find Sakura. Itachi could wait. I quickly checked the second message I had.
From: Mom
'Sasuke darling I tried to call you in the morning why didn't you pick up the phone? I have wonderful news! We are going to spend Christmas at home! So I hope you are not making plans because your father wants to talk to you. I miss you so much and I love you. Oh and Sasuke… enjoy school.'
I reread the message over and over again. Why didn't she call again instead of writing like 10 messages in one? She really is patient.
'I hope you are not making plans because your father wants to talk to you' I raised a brow, what does father wants to talk to me?... I don't know how long it will take. I just hope they are good news…
I finally got to the cafeteria but there was not a single trace of pink hair. I watched Naruto waving at me he was sitting with Hinata, Neji, Tenten and Shikamaru. I started to walk towards their table when someone bumped into me.
"S-sorry Sasuke-kun, I-I didn't mean to, I wasn't looking where I was going"
"Hn" it was Amy, her face was red from embarrassment, she quickly bent down to pick some things she had dropped and left in a hurry. 'Weird' I thought, usually she would have started to talk non stopping about how I should go out with her. Of course when Karin is not around. 'It's better this way'
"Teme! Where is Sakura-Chan?" 'I wish I could know'
"How should I know dobe?"
"She was with you in the last class!"
"Yes, but not anymore"
"Why not?" Naruto always makes unnecessary questions.
"It's not like she has to be with me all the time just because we are in the same classes"
"But you guys are friends, in fact you and Sakura are very close… more close than just friends I would say. Tell teme! Is there something more? Do you really care about Sakura Chan?" he whispered the last part leaning closer just for me to hear it… in fact TOO close that I felt he was invading my private space. I was very uncomfortable … and mad.
"Just shut up Naruto do you think I even care about her?" I spat mad… and annoyed. Naruto's face turned pale and he was staring firmly behind me and so the rest of the table.
"Sa-Sakura-Chan" he whispered in a very audible voice. I turned to see her with her face full of hurt.
"I –I'm sorry Ino I remembered that I forgot something in my room"
"Sakura wait" but Ino couldn't say anything more, Sakura gave Ino her tray of food and dashed away from the cafeteria. "Asshole" Ino said to me with one of her glares, she was about to leave when Shikamaru grabbed her arm.
"Stay here" he said giving her a meaningful look, she didn't say anything but took the seat next to him without arguing back.
"You crossed the line teme" Naruto was angry too. I glared at him, this was his fault if only he wasn't so annoying.
"Shut up dobe" and I left.
As soon as I was out of the cafeteria I started to run as fast as I can, I needed to find Sakura. I am so stupid, Why the hell I said that? Stupid Naruto this was his entire fault, if only he wasn't so fucking annoying I would never said that.
Fuck. First the kiss, that wasn't really a kiss but almost was a kiss, made things already awkward between us, and now this! Fuck, fuck, fuck! Way to go Sasuke!. I got to Sakura's room in no time, thankfully being on the soccer team was helpful. I knocked the door but no one answered.
I'm not moving until I speak with her.
Sakura's PoV
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I entered the cafeteria right after Sasuke. Thank god he didn't notice me, I was really confuse about the almost kiss we were going to share, but I shook my head not wanting to think about it.
"Hey are you okay?" Ino startled me from my thoughts. We were grabbing something to eat.
"uh? Oh yeah Ino" I said faking a smile and grabbing a sandwich. I wasn't really fine but I wasn't bad either, I was just… confused. Did he want to kiss me? Or it was just the proximity between our bodies?
"You are spacing out or something, I was talking to you but you were just giving me robotic answers!" she crossed her arms in front of her, I knew she was concerned about me. "Are you okay? We could talk" maybe that's a good idea. We were walking towards the table where the gang was sitting.
"Well… I don't know how to start but I –!"
"But you guys are friends, in fact you and Sakura are very close…" I heard Naruto speaking to none other than Sasuke, he whispered something else on his ear so I couldn't hear but whatever he said it made Sasuke really mad.
"Just shut up Naruto do you think I even care about her?" -CRASH- I guess that was the sound of my heart. And here I was thinking that maybe… just maybe he did care more than what he showed.
Everyone was now looking at me and then he turned with a shocked expression when he realized I was the one behind him. I felt something wet prickled my eyes.
"um Ino I-I forgot something i-in my room" I told Ino and gave her my tray of food I didn't look back, I just needed to get away from here… from him.
I was running as fast as I never imagine I could run before and I was still fighting the tears that threaten to run out.
Damn Sasuke. Damn him for making me feel this way,
Damn him for kissing me even when it was an accident,
Damn him for not saying anything to me,
Damn him for saying that he doesn't care about me,
And damn him for making me love him.
When I stepped in my room all the tears found their way down my face. I should have known, I'm not beautiful, I'm not even especial, and why would he want to befriend me? No… scratch that… why did he try to kiss me if he doesn't even care about me? Damn him for lying to me… I trusted him when he told me we were friends. A knock on the door scared me, someone was really trying to knock it off.
"Sakura open the door I know you are there" hell I don't want to see anyone right now, and here is the last person I want to talk to… just great!. I wasn't in the mood to talk him (but mostly it was the fact that I didn't want him to see me crying)
"Come on Sakura open the damn door!" he yelled, obviously mad. Well he can kiss my a- "NOW!"
Humph. What the heck is wrong with him?! I'm the one who should be pissed not the other way around! And now he is banging at my door screaming at me? I cleaned my face with the back of my hand and walk to the door, I was about to open it but my hand stood on the handle unmoving and I tried to put all my anger on my voice.
"What the hell do you want? Go away!" I spat as a single tear slide down my cheek, which I quickly took off with my hand, and I realized my voice broke in the last sentence.
He stood quiet for a long time, and that made me thought that maybe he had left. I rested my forehead on the door and I heard when he gave a desperate grunt, but maybe I was wrong it has to be more an annoyed grunt.
"Sakura please open the door… I need to explain"
"don't worry, all is clear… I don't think you need to explain I got it clear, you don't care about me thank you now leave!" and I started to sob again at the last word.
"Sakura … I-I… AGH!... please…I just…look…we… -sigh-" I heard his voice nearer as if he was supporting himself on the door as well. I waited for him to talk.
"I am sorry" I started to sob harder "I didn't mean to-"
"yeah right, cause you know? It really felt like you meant it"
"NO! Sakura just open the damn door" he said frustrated.
"Suit yourself outside"
"Sakura I know I shouldn't have said that, I just say it because Naruto was annoying the hell out of me as he usually does! I- I c-care about you" his voice turned soft when he said he cared about me.
I hesitated before opening the door. There he was, standing in all his Uchiha glory, his regret Uchiha glory.
"If you really care you wouldn't have said even if it was a lie." My voice was barely above a whisper. "Is it going to be like this every time Naruto annoys you? You will end up telling hurtful things to me?"
"I really care about you" he looked like he really meant it, but I was too mad and crushed to let him get his way, but I choose to not say anything. "Sakura, I just don't care about you… in fact I think…I …ummm…I –"
"Sasuke what the hell are you doing here?" My blonde girl friend was striding towards us. "If you are trying to hurt Sakura's feelings again I swear I'll kick your sorry little butt" Great. He was about to say something important, but thanks to my blonde pig-friend I won't be able to know now.
"Calm down Ino" I told her "Sasuke was just apologizing" Ino's eyes turned to Sasuke with a questioning look, but stood quiet.
"Hn. I just needed to let you know that I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings" he said that with a serious tone but his eyes still held regret. I know he didn't mean it, I know how annoying Naruto can turn out to be, but I don't want to say things are okay when I don't feel like it. He left and Ino and I stood outside our room.
"He really did it" Ino said gaping at Sasuke's retreating form. I didn't realize I was still looking at him when Ino started talking.
"Did what?" I asked arching a brow.
"Apologize! I mean you are the first girl, NO! The first person he ever offers an apology!"
"You are overreacting pig"
"Seriously Sakura I mean he never says sorry to ANYONE! Not even when he throws at you bubblegum and makes you cut your beautiful long hair" she had a mad face. Did he make Ino cut her hair with bubblegum?
"What?"
"Uh oh nothing, nothing!" she said moving her hands in front of her. "What I mean forehead Sasuke holds to much ego to apologize so this means something for sure"
"But that doesn't help him erase what he said" I said walking to my room. I heard Ino whispering "stubborn girl" before she followed me.
Ino kept me company for the rest of the day and we talked about a lot of things. Even thought I didn't want to talk about Sasuke again, Ino told me how I should have accepted his apology seen that coming from him was a big deal. And truth be told… now I felt like I overreacted, after all he said he cared. But I guess I'll wait to talk to him tomorrow.
Sasuke PoV
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Damn Ino! She is so… so… inopportune. And just when I was about to tell Sakura that I… like her.
But every time I'm about to say or show her my feelings someone has to get in the way and it's frustrating! First Karin and now Ino, are they conspiring against me or what? Damn. Why did I have to say those mean things? And she didn't forgive me. Doesn't she realize that I never apologize? To anyone! It's hard for me… and of course is not a thing of my ego. Not at all.
When I got to my room Naruto was already there making some ramen. I sat on the table and without turn his head back to me he started to talk.
"You better had apologize to Sakura-Chan teme, or I'll swear I'll make you beg her forgiveness"
"Hn. Already did it"
"WHA-AAAAH!" Naruto turned around all his body so fast that he dropped all the hot water on his hand, burning it. He quickly put his hand on cold water and I hit my head with my head with my hand annoyed.
"Moron" I said waiting for him to calm down.
"TEME! Are you telling the truth? You really apologize to Sakura? He gaped at me.
"Hn"
"Good… you were more than just a bastard today" Naruto's both brows turned downwards. "Why did you say that you don't care about her?" his voice was calm but full of confusion.
"I don't know dobe, I tend to say stupid things when I'm annoyed, you should know that by now, because you are usually the reason"
"Humph. Bastard. But you know? I can't believe you just apologized to her, this is something big!"
"Something big?" now was my turn to arch my brow.
"This means that you care a LOT for her. No wait. You just don't care about her. You LIKE her!" he said pointing to me with a huge grin on his face.
What the-? How does he know? I mean he is the dobe! The stupid blonde idiot knucklehead that was oblivious about Hinata's feelings for him!. I stood motionless and without saying a word.
"You do" he simply stated widening his grin.
"Hn. What if I do?" I said annoyed from his stupid grin. He laughed
"This means someone can take off that stick you have shove on you ass!" I glared. He chuckled.
"look teme! I think it's great! Sakura-Chan is a great girl, she is good for you… too good maybe" my glare intensified but this time it was sent to my fists. "hey Sasuke just kidding man" he said patting my back.
"Anyways I'm glad you two have made up things" my body tensed and he noticed. "'cause you two are ok now… right?" he asked hesitating.
"She didn't forgive me" My glare still present.
"Hum I see. Don't worry teme I'm sure she will, just give her time, after all tomorrow is a new day"
"hn. I hope so"
Sakura's PoV
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Next day I had almost all my classes with Sasuke, but I couldn't talk to him… yet, I have to wait for Kakashi sensei's class to be over. I wanted to tell him that he was forgiven, that his words hurt me so much but it did not matter anymore. But I couldn't find myself saying that to him.
At the end of Kakashi's class I felt a pair of eyes watching at my direction, and when I turned I noticed him staring at me. That until Naruto decided to stand in the middle and blocking our views. Hinata was waiting for me to leave for our next class and I followed without saying a word to Sasuke.
All day was the same. Every time I tried to talk to him someone stood in the way, either it was Karin and her troop of Sasuke's fangirls flirting to unluckily catch his attention, or Rock Lee trying to get me to go on a date with him after school, or Ino dragging me to hear her rambling about the latest gossips around the school.
Not even at lunch time we were able to talk, just for the little fact that he was not anywhere in sight. I thought first that maybe he was with Naruto, or maybe with Neji or Shikamaru but that was until I realized all of them were sitting in the usual table next to their girlfriends.
Naruto and Hinata were talking about a new ramen recipe that Hinata wanted to try out, Neji and Tenten talked about an upcoming soccer game and were betting on which team was going to win. Ino was fuming about some letters Shikamaru got from some girl named Temari. And I was silently eating my food with no one to talk to.
'if only Sasuke was here' I thought suddenly feeling out of place.
I decided to skip the rest of the lunch and left to my next class physics. Sasuke should be there and luckily we can talk and I'll be able to assure him that things are fine between us.
The class quickly started and Sasuke never showed up. I was getting impatient, nervous and sad. 'Could something have happened? What if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore? What if-?' my thoughts stopped by the voice of Ibiki sensei.
"You will have to team up with the person I will assign to you and you will make an essay from page 150 to 155, the sooner you finish the sooner you may leave" he grabbed his list and started to make the teams of two people. The only person I talk to in this class is not present, I could endure it with anyone else at least is not with…
"Sakura Haruno and Karin -". Darn it. 'Calm down Sakura, just canalize all your anger and use it to write quickly that goddamn essay so you can leave fast' my inner self speaking in the other side of my head.
I didn't move from my place and I decided to better start reading all the pages. The chair in front of me moved and I knew who sat there without glancing at her.
"Nervous because Sasuke-kun isn't here little Sakura?" she said wearing that evil smirk of hers.
"Why should I? I don't need him to save me from you. I like to think is the other way around" the smirk expanded in my face but I still held my eyes in my notebook.
"You bitch" her mad tone suddenly changed for a confident one. "Yeah right. Why would he try to save you? He doesn't care about you, does he?" she chuckled and I felt my hand froze. My hand was gripping so tightly the pencil that it almost broke in two.
"I hit a spot I see"
I thought she didn't heard about what he said yesterday, but now she is rubbing it in my face.
"Ow poor Sakura, just don't cry, I don't want you to wet our work and also I don't want to explain sensei your stupid problems. After all why would Sasuke care about you when he has me to care? You are not worth of his time"
"Ha. At least he speaks to me instead of runaway from me" I said finishing my essay and standing up. "and by the way you should start working on your essay, its individual" her face lifted up to glare at me but I paid no mind and left the classroom smirking.
I was outside the school waiting for my next class, I was sending a text message to mom, I do it every time when I have free time. And I felt my phone vibrating.
"wow she responded quicker this time"
Sakura meet me in the park 2 blocks from school. See you after class.
But the number was not my mother's number, it was Sasuke's.
'why would he wants to see me in the park?' I shrugged it off and after answering back my mom's message I darted to P.E.
Ino was already in the girls bathroom with Hinata, Tenten was there too, her class already finished.
I quickly showed them Sasuke's text message and they took a while rereading it a few times.
"D-do you think Sasuke-san wants t-to apologize?"
"he already did, but yeah, Sakura gave him a piece of his mind so maybe he is drowning in his own regret. So yeah… maybe he wants to apologize… again" Ino said.
"Sasuke apologizing? Wow that unbelievable. Its like Neji letting me touch his hair" Tenten said.
"What?" we gaped at her until we burst laughing. Who would have thought Neji was freak about his hair?
"I swear the guy cares more about his hair than me! Every time I do an extra effort to be a nice girlfriend and go all lovey dovey and grab a strand of his hair he glares at me until I retreat my hand! Only when he is a super very really good mood he lets me touch it"
"Which is never" Ino finished. And we broke into fits of laugh again.
We left when once we were ready but again Sasuke was neither in this class. And I was wishing that nothing would happen to him.
"At least Karin bitch is not here. Weird but I'm happy that we can spend a normal class without her growls" Ino leaned to whisper in my ear so Gai sensei couldn't hear us.
"okay girls and boys today you are going to first run 50 laps around the gym, but it has to be youthfully. If you are not youth enough you will run 100 laps got it?"
Did someone make Gai sensei angry or something? Today he was totally not youthful. Sadistic was the right word.
I had to run 100 laps because I wasn't being "youth enough" according to the weird men wearing a green spandex. I finished exhausted. My legs were killing me it was as if they were made from jelly, but I tried not to think about it, after all I needed to go and talk to Sasuke, and also I need to apologize too for acting a little bitchy to him yesterday.
Ino and Hinata wished me good luck before I left. The park was near, I just had to walk 2 blocks straight until I finally reach the park.
When I first stepped into the park I thought that Sasuke was going to be there waiting for me… but he wasn't. I waited 15 minutes before I decided to search for him. I spent another 15 minutes looking for him. I was hungry, tired, angry and sad. All at the same time. The only though in my mind was 'he stood me up'. But a voice behind me drew me back to earth.
"You're finally here…"
finally! it has to come 2009 for me to upload this! i know i said i would update soon but damn i never thought i would be so busy in vacations! all my family came and it was really awesome i had a blast! i barely sleep all this time and then my mom got me a job without me knowing and just when the chapter was ready to be upload my dad forgot to pay the damn internet service and i was uncommunicated _
it was horrible. but now no worries the chap is here and i hope you like it :D
and thanks to GisIzzy you are a big help, i dont know what i would do without you! and i hope we can collaborate soon =)
oh btw. happy late new year :$ i hope your wishes come true.
oh and i cant hold it anymore! the new chapter of the manga was AWESOME! naruto kick ass! i have a new respect for him! lol if you havent seen it you HAVE TO!
well take care guys and review review review ;D