Author's Note: Hola my peeps. How's it hanging? Time for another glimpse at Bella's memories. No further explaniation needed.

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Bella's Journal: Entry Number Four

A/A/N: Bella reflects back on the day Edward started speaking to her after his trip to Alaska. He finally learns about what made Bella pull away and when she started to fall in love with him.

I still remember the day that Edward started to treat me like a 'normal' person. He had gone away to Alaska, but I didn't know that at the time. I had thought, at the time, that I was the cause of him leaving Forks, that I had done something wrong to him, offended him somehow. I was right but not in the way I thought. I had moved here, making his life a living hell. He was content here and I had interrupted his usual routine. I was both glad and disappointed that he wasn't at school. I was glad because I didn't have to see him and ignore him all through Biology. I was disappointed that I didn't get to see him and stare at him all through Biology and Lunch. I must admit that it was a little pathetic.

I had gotten used to seeing only four people at the table but when it snowed for the first time, I saw him in the cafeteria at the same table as his brothers and sisters. They had all been laughing, enjoying the weather I presume. I was staring at him, examining him, and comparing the new Edward to what I saw in front of me and Jessica had asked what I was looking at. He looked up right then and I immediately looked away. Jessica told me that he was staring and I just wanted to know if he looked angry or not. I was surprised that he didn't and I was relieved a bit.

After lunch, I made my way to Biology and found that my table was still empty. I was very thankful for that and took my place. 'I heard very clearly when the chair next to me moved, but my eyes stayed carefully focused on the pattern I was drawing. "Hello," said a musical voice. I looked up, stunned that he was speaking to me.' (Twilight, Chptr 2, pg 43). I couldn't believe that he was talking to me after that first day. I had done my best to ignore him and failed miserably.

Mr. Banner had passed out microscopes and we were to do a lab on the phases of mitosis using onion root tip cells. He had said, 'Ladies first, partner?' (Twilight, Chptr 2, pg 44) and I had looked up to see what is now my favourite crooked smile. Of course, I had stared at him like an idiot. 'Or I could start, if you wish." The smile faded; he was obviously wondering if I was mentally competent' (Twilight, Chptr 2, pg 44) I had already done the lab in Phoenix, only with different cells and I knew what I was looking for. When I had declared that it was Prophase, he asked if I minded if he took a look. I think he was just testing to see if I wasn't still in shock of his blindingly gorgeous smile.

'His hand caught mine, to stop me, as he asked. His fingers were like ice, like he'd been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasn't the reason I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he had touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.' (Twilight, Chptr 2, pg 45). He apologized, of course, but I was never the same. I think that's when it started to happen, the falling in love part. It kinda hit me hard when I realized it that day in Port Angeles. But that's another story for another day. I just wanted to make sure that I don't forget that day, ever.

I also plan to write about the day he saved my life for the first of many times and about everything else he has ever done for me. I love him so much and I don't think that I'll ever forget that but it's still nice to have it in writing. He has been there for me through a lot of the bad times and the only reason that here have been good ones. I know that he'll love me always and will not regret the choice to change me. As long as he loves me, I can take any amount of pain.

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I laughed at my Bella's silly assessment of me from the first time we met. She had done something, unintentionally but still, she had done it. She had given me a heart. She had given me a reason to exist. She had made this life of mine worth living and I was very thankful for that. I looked at her as she ate her lunch. This was one of the times she let me read her entries while she was awake. We just had to make sure that I got out before Charlie got home. "Are you enjoying your pasta, love? It doesn't looke very appetizing to me."

She laughed that laugh that I loved so much and said, "Nothing I eat ever looks appetizing to you, Edward. And, yes, I am enjoying it quite a bit." She returned to eating her alfredo and I reached over and pulled her into a kiss. I loved catching her off guard like that because she didn't have much time to respond and try to push my limits. I pulled away almost as quickly as I had kissed her, letting her sit there in shock. I chuckled and put on that smile she loved so much.

It was then that I heard the cruiser pull up in the drive-way. I had been so preoccupied with my beautiful Bella that I hadn't been paying very close attention. She must haave heard it too because she sat up and stopped eating for a minute. I stood up and she did the same. I pulled her into a hug and she kissed my cheek before I left. I was out the back door a second before Charlie opened the front door. As I sped back to my house, I sighed.

"That was a close one," Alice said as I walked into the living room.

I took a seat beside Jasper before answering her. "Tell me about it."