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Emmett had gone out to the store, presumably to buy some food for me for the week. Really I think he was just scared of setting me off again. Poor guy, it wasn't his fault and he doesn't understand what he did wrong. After my outburst, Jasper had released a calming wave of emotion through the room and led Emmett slowly out to the porch for a few moments. Jasper returned quickly and sat down on the floor, a few feet away from where I was slowly releasing myself from the fetal position.
"Emmett is going to the store for food for an hour or so" he said slowly, as if speaking to an elderly person. "I'm just going to sit here with you, if that's alright, and I promise I won't come any nearer."
Did he think I was afriad of him? Well of course he did, I chastised myself inwardly. I flipped out twice already when Emmett barely brushed me with his hand.
"I'm sorry" was all I could manage. My voice came out flatter than I thought it would.
"It's okay Bella, he knows you didn't mean it. He just wanted to give you some time..."
I nodded slowly, even that causing the stabbing pains to recur through my head.
"I can feel that you're in an immense amount of pain Bella, both physically and emotionally, even though you're trying to hide it. I also know that it's not just your head that is hurting you physically."
Jasper was staring at me intently, a look of absolute sadness still in his eyes. I couldn't bring myself to respond to him, I hadn't thought about his special talent revealing my secret. Even so, I was too ashamed to look him in the face any longer. I dropped my gaze to the floor as I listened to him continue.
" You know I've been a vampire for a very long time, and I've possessed the power to feel other people's emotions and pain for as long as I've been undead." He paused for a moment, and although I couldn't see his face I knew he was choosing his next words very carefully. "From the moment we saw you return at the square, I knew you were lying about falling down. I also know that you're extremely embarrassed about what did happen, and from the reactions you've had to Emmett touching you, I think I know what did happen."
Jasper was almost whispering now, as if he was very afraid to push me too far.
"I recognize from being around Rosalie for all these years and coming in contact with other females this specific pain. Please Bella, please tell me what happened."
With that, I let out a strangled cry and completely lost it. All of the emotion that I had been shoving down and hiding for the last few hours came rushing to the surface, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I was crying hystarically, remembering Randall bashing my head into the stone wall and waking up to feel the pain between my legs. I held myself tightly and rocked as I cried, hating myself and hating him. I felt Jasper incase me in his arms, holding me tightly to his chest and trying to soothe my cries.
Eventually I felt a slight calm rush through my body, and knew Jasper was trying to bring me back. My body stilled from it's shaking but my mind remained in it's dark place, continuing to spit vicious affirmations of my guilt in this whole situation.
"It's not your fault sweetheart, come back to me, talk to me..." Jasper pleaded with me.
"I hate myself" I spat at him.
He pulled away from me immediatley, still holding on to my upper arms gently, and made me look him in the eyes.
"Don't think that Bella. Not for a moment. This. Is. Not. Your. Fault." he repeated slowly. I could feel even stronger waves of calm rushing through my head now, erasing the voices telling me to hate myself and to hate Randall and to be ashamed. My body crumpled against him and although I was no longer crying, tears continued to stream down my face. My body hurt more than ever before at this moment, and I couldn't bare the pain any longer.
"My body, Jasper" I choked out, my chest heaving from the effort it was suddenly taking to breathe.
"Tell me what hurts Bella, I can't help if I don't know what happened to make it hurt".
"He, he bashed my head into the stone, anddd he kicked my stomach so m-many times"I cried.
"Okay sweetheart, okay." As he began rubbing my back soothingly, Jasper whipped his cell phone out with his other hand and spoke too low for me to understand to someone on the line before quickly flipping it closed. He gingerly lifted me from the floor and carried me upstairs to Edward's room, where he laid me on the gold comforter and continued to rub my back.
Everything was quickly becoming dark around me, and even though my body was screaming in pain, I was suddenly so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open.
"No Bella, don't go to sleep. You probably have a concusion, you can't go to sleep yet." Jasper held my face in his hands gently but firmly, forcing me to look at him.
"So tired..." I managed.
"I know, but you have to stay awake. Just for a little while longer, I promise. Just until Emmett gets back with Carlisle."
Carlisle? I thought Emmett was at the store...But of course he wasn't, not if Jasper knew something was up from the beginning. Damn it. Carlisle meant Edward.
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