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I inhaled a shaky breath and dove right into it as best I could, before my angel really lost it.

"It's all my fault, Edward, I'm so sorry…" he was silent as he watched me, it was clear on his face that he was struggling to be patient and let me get the words out. I continued in a rush, not wanting to think about what I was saying too much, or I wouldn't be able to go on.

"I got lost, and I was scared. This man offered to show me the way back, and I was stupid enough to follow him. He seemed so normal, so kind, but he turned on me and attacked me. I wasn't strong enough to stop him, I promise I tried, I really did! But he hit my head into the stone and kicked my stomach, and I blacked out. When I woke up I was so ashamed, I know you don't like it when I go places by myself, and you were right. I should have stayed with Em and Jasper, I know this is all my fault, I'm so sorry."

My words were spilling over each other by the end of my speech, I was trying so hard to keep talking through my tears. I could barely see Edward's face through the water filling my eyes, but when he finally spoke my stomach dropped.

"I can smell him on you" he said angrily, with the faint trace of a growl at the end. "What else did he do to you?"

I wiped the tears from my eyes frantically, trying to see Edward's eyes so that maybe I wouldn't have to say the words. His eyes were no longer horrified or concerned, but were… burning. Never in my time with him had I witnessed a look so terrifyingly angry, not even when he faced James in the ballet studio or the Volturi in Italy. His hands were clenched into fists on the bed, and his chest was stiff and unmoving. I recoiled slightly, dropping my gaze from his face, too scared of his reactions.

"P-please Edward, d-don't make me say it…" I begged.

"He raped you?" he asked coldly, the same anger radiating under his monotone.

I cringed at the word, rape. I didn't want to think about that word, ever. I nodded once, slowly, refusing to look at Edward altogether.

Very suddenly, several things happened at once. I heard a loud smack followed by a thud, followed by a deep, agonized scream. The door flung open and there were Jasper, Emmett, and Carlisle, dragging a now raging Edward from the room. He was flinging his arms and continuing to fight and scream with his brothers as he was pulled into the hall. The thud had been due to Edwards smacking his stereo across the room and into the wall.

I stayed extremely still in his bed, terrified to move or make any sound. I stared at the small pieces of metal and plastic littering the wood floor, which had once been the stereo. I was sure Edward had to be furious with me, but I didn't expect him to react that violently. I could clearly hear the sounds of the boys' struggle downstairs, and Carlisle's cries to Edward to calm down. I just wanted all of this to stop, I wanted everything to stop. I was a horrible person and a ruined girl and I would never be worthy of Edward again, if he could ever even forgive me. As these thoughts flooded my head the panic intensified in my chest. I felt nauseous again, and my body shook like a leaf. I stumbled slowly out of bed, using my hands against the wall to remain upright as I struggled to get to his bathroom. My head was spinning now, making the walls slant and the tile floor rush up at me at a funny angle as I collapsed onto it, hanging my head lazily over the toilet bowl as I retched and dry heaved with nothing in my stomach to bring up.

"Bella!" I heard faintly, as if through a long tunnel. Ice cold hands were on my neck and the small of my back now, pulling me backwards to rest against a small stone body. I could barely keep my eyes open as Alice turned my head up to face hers.

"Carlisle! She's passing out, I need you!" she cried over the now muffled noise downstairs. Alice's pretty face looked so concerned as she opened and closed her mouth, presumably talking to me. My vision was becoming darker as her voice faded away, and soon I didn't hear or see her at all.

…

When I awoke, I could hear the faint beep of a familiar monitor, the antiseptic smell of a familiar place, and the stiff, scratchy sheets of a familiar hospital bed. I opened my eyes slowly, knowing the lights would be harsh and glaring.

"Hi Bella. I'm so glad you're awake", said Alice softly. I turned my aching head slightly to look at her as she continued, "I know you're going to be mad that we brought you here, but we really had no choice, we had to see how serious your injuries were."

"And?" I asked in a bored tone. I didn't care about my injuries; I just needed to see Edward.

"You do have several broken ribs, as well as a concussion. Other than that, there's a lot of superficial cuts and bruising. Thankfully, you shouldn't have to stay more than another day here; they just wanted to monitor you overnight with the concussion."

"Great well, I'm awake now, so can I leave?" I asked impatiently. Alice gave me a half smile and placed her small, cold hand on top of mine.

"Not just yet. Carlisle needs to examine you again and then there are some people who would like to talk to you."

People who would like to talk to me? I shot Alice my worst look and breathed "No." Her head dropped a little and she nodded, seeming to understand my wishes.

"While you were unconscious, one of the female nurses did examine you more thoroughly Bella. She did a rape kit." Alice looked at me pityingly, as though she was waiting for me to become hysterical like I had with Jasper yesterday. I wasn't going to allow myself to get like that again. Instead, I pressed my lips into a thin line and gave her a curt nod, signaling that I didn't want to talk about this anymore. She seemed to catch my drift.

"Edward is waiting to see you. He's just outside in the waiting room, he has been all night. He's so sorry for the way he acted Bella. It was just a lot for him to deal with. I promise he's calmed down now…Do you want to see him?"

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