A/N: I'm so sorry guys for not updating in like a week. It's just been crazy with midterms and work, blah, blah, blah...

And as usual, I do not own Twilight or it's characters.

I was trying very hard to focus on breathing as Alice left me to get Edward. Was he really sorry for his reaction? Or was Alice trying to give her brother a fair chance to give me a piece of his mind? No, Alice wouldn't do that, no matter what.

"Bella"

I was brought from my thoughts quickly as I heard my name on his lips again. He didn't sound angry this time, just sad. I turned my head slightly to face him at the doorway, and he looked like more of a wreck than I must have. His normally perfect hair was dishelved, as well as his clothes. His lips were pressed in a thin line, as though he were nervous. But his eyes were what put me at instant ease. They were no longer hard black, but the warm amber color that I loved.

"Why are you standing over there?" I asked timidly. I was so afraid he didn't want to be near me anymore, but I would understand.

"Aren't you afraid of me Bella? I reacted so…horribly the last time we spoke. I thought you'd want me to keep my distance." He responded solemly, looking down at his feet as if he couldn't face me.

I bit my lip and thought about the best way to say this.

"I'm not afraid of you. I know you wouldn't physically hurt me. And I understand why you reacted so harshly, it was to be expected."

In an instant Edward had crossed the room and was sitting by my bedside, clutching my warm hand in his cold one.

"Bella, there was no excuse for my reaction, I am so terribly sorry. I should have been able to contain myself better, to be there to support you, but my anger at that…filth got the better of me. Bella, I was not mad at you, nor could I ever be. Did you honestly think that I would…blame you?"

He was looking into my eyes so intently, as if searching them for some answers. He sounded honestly shocked that I would think he blamed me. Well, I blamed myself, so why shouldn't he? I broke eye contact and looked down at our hands as I responded.

"I blame myself", I muttered. "I should have stayed with Em and Jazz, instead of trying to be independent and getting into that…situation"-

-"And Emmett and Jasper should have stayed with you, not the other way around. Trust me, I'll be dealing with them later. "

Edward's eyes traveled upward, as if he were imagining the confrontation with his brothers. I couldn't let him blame his brothers for my mistake. He sounded furious with them.

"I left them Edward, I suggested we separate. Please don't be mad at them, they didn't do anything!"

"Exactly Bella, they didn't do anything". His voice was hard this time, telling me not to argue with him any further. I wasn't going to change his mind, at least not right now. But I still couldn't let my mistakes bring a rift between brothers. I would have to fix this somehow, but later.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I never should have allowed something like this to happen to you. I can't believe how careless I was with your safety, leaving you like that. I will never leave you again Bella, I promise. I'll have Carlisle bring me blood from his hunting trips, or have animals brought to the house, I'll figure it out…But please know that I'm going to make this right Bella."

Edward's impromptu speech left me feeling empty, numb. I didn't want to think about this anymore, and I certainly didn't want to hear Edward talk about it. His voice was so full of pity and sorrow, but his eyes burned with anger and vengeance. I knew he wasn't angry with me anymore, but all of his emotions were draining mine. It was too much to think about.

"I don't want to talk about this anymore", I whispered. "I just want to go home".

Edward's eyes softened again at my words, and his hand gripped mine reassuringly.

"Okay sweetie. I'll talk to Carlisle, but I don't think I can get you out of here until tomorrow. You do have a concussion and some broken bones."

The thought of spending another night in the hospital made me cringe. I had never liked hospitals in the first place, but this visit was putting me over the edge. The neon lights and white sheets and the beeping monitors were all too…intense. I needed to be home in my bed, where everything is familiar and warm.

"Could you talk to him now? I just really need to get home." I blurted out.

Edward looked slightly surprised at the urgency of my request, but quickly covered it with his perfect poker face.

"Of course, my love. Do you want me to get Alice to come back while I'm gone?"

"No, no. I think I need to be alone for a while," I lied.