I was so buzzed by the time that song was over that I was slurring my words and I was a little tipsy.

I looked around for Jake. He was gone. I guess Embry went with him. And Koden was sitting by himself. I don't know why, but I smiled and strutted over to him.

"Heeeeyyy Kooodeenn." I said and sat on his lap when he looked up at me.

"Whyyy arre you ober her by you sef?" I asked. When I got buzzed or drunk I started sounding like a little kid and got very horny.

Another song was starting to play "Brithday Sex- Jeremih"

It's your birthday so I know
you want to riiide out,
Even if we only go to myyy house
Sip mo- weezy as we sit upon myyy couch
Feels good, but I know you want to
cryyy out

I started to move my hips to the music, but then Koden started talking and I didn't hear the music no more. I looked at him as he placed his hands on my hips to stop them though they were still moving to there own acord.

"Felicia.-" He said very exasperated. "I can't believe you did that to that guy. Do you even know his name?" He looked up at me with sad eyes.

"Yea I did. It Levi." I said pointing my chin out as my arms wrapped around his neck.

"Levi what?" He asked. He was sounding like my mom when she was scolding me.

"Do it fukin matter what his last name is? I don't know yours." I said taking my arms off of his neck and crossing them under my breast.

"Yes! It fucking matters! You were pretty much having sex with him out there! If another song like that came on you might have taken your clothes off and have done him right then and there!" Koden said huffing. His eyes now not sad, but angry and firce.

"Nuh uh! I woould take em home. Dubass!" I said looking away.

"So you where?!" He said pushing me off of him and stood up.

I fell on my but with a thud.

"Oww! That hurt you shit bag!" I said wobbly getting back onto my feet. Damn heels!

"I'm no shit bag! You just said you were going to screw that guy and I'm the shit bag?" He screamed at me. That got a few heads to turn, so he grabbed my hand pulled me away from the crowd and into the forest.

"So whaaat if I was? You arn't my dad! You can't tell mee what Im a do! And I wasn't reawly going to. If I was goin to do an e one. It would be you." I said making a pppfft noise at the end.

He skipped a beat while he was walking I guess that I shouldn't have said anything.

We stopped when we could hear the party just barley, now it really was back round music.

Or maybe we can float on top my water bed you close your eyes as i improve between your legs
We work our way from kitchen stoves, and tables
Girl you know I'm more than able to please, yeah
Say you wanted flowers on the bed (on the bed)
But you got me and now it's on again

{Chours) (it's the best day of the year, girl)
(lemme know what it feels like, feels like, when I hit that G-spot, G-spot)

That was the ending of the song or at least I thought it was, because then "Every Girl- Young Money" started to play.

We had stopped now and I was leaning on a tree, shoes off, fingers playing with the bark on the tree.

I timidly asked "Do you know wer Jacob went? He looked mad like you.." I spoke only above a whisper and it was still very quite and yet he heard me.

Koden nodded his head just a little "Yeah. He was really pissed Felicia. I think you hurt him worse then you did me.." I took in a sharp breath now looking at him and not the floor. "Why did you have to go dance with some complet stranger and then come back over to where I was and act like nothing was wrong..?" He asked coming up really close to me, so that my back was pressed hard on the bark and he was just an inch away from me.

"I didn't mean to hurt any ob you. I told the guy to play that song. But I looked for you..and you wern't round so I grabbed some randum guy an started dancin..an I didn't want Jake to dance wit me cause he don't lick me at tall."

I looked up into his honey almond eyes and for some reason for a split second I just wanted to jump him right then and there. But then I thought of Jacob and my chest started to ache so bad and I don't know why. Yeah of course. I like Jake, a lot. But it shouldn't hurt this bad when I danced with some one else. I did this all the time with other guys and I just felt numb afterward. But now I didn't feel numb, and I wanted to. Really badly..

I was and am never one that can handle emotinoal pain well at all. I can get the shit kicked out of me and not even cry at all. But with emotial pain I could not handle at all. I just wanted it to go away. So if hurting myself in turn to get rid of the pain I would do it. So now as Koden was just centermeaters away from my face, so that I could feel his hot breath on my face and smell his Axe clonge on his shirt. I leaned my head closer to his, very slowly to see how he would react and he didn't move. His eyes glanced from my lips then back to my eyes. I kinda took that as an O.K. And roughply pushed my lips onto his and he the same to me. There was no spark or anything really like I had hoped there would be. It was not like touching Jacob. Every time he looked or touched me, my heart would skip abeat and I would feel all wobbly kneed.

But with Koden it felt different. Like he was the gay best friend you kissed 'hello' and 'good bye' when you guys saw one another. It was like kissing someone you didn't like nor love, like kissing some random stranger on a dare, but it means nothing. And this is how kissing Koden felt. Empty. But thats how I wanted to feel. I licked his bottom lip and gently nibbled on it, begging for entrance. He quickly let me in and my tounge darted in and was wressiling his for dominace. I won. My hands left the tree and flew to his short hair, grasping at what little there was.

His hands were roaming my body, his hands were traviling up my stomach and were just under my breast when he pulled away and took a few steps back shaking his head.

"I can't do this..." I barley heard it.

"Then lets go back to my place remember, no one is home. It'll just be me and you.." I said almost begging as I walked over to him. The emptyness was slowly leaving and I was hurting again. I did not want to feel this pain and I did not want to drink this pain away. I wanted to use some one for my own pleasure.

"No. I mean I really can't do this. Your drunk and that would be taking advantage of you.." He said running his hands through his very jelled hair.

"Your not taking advantage of me if I want you to." I said grabbing his hand and started walking to my truck very quickly. Not caring if my heels were still by that tree. All I needed to do was get him home and into my bed, then every thing will fall into place.

A/N: Yeah I know I said I was going to put this up like Friday and I didn't but every things been a little hectic around my house. So this is just a small chapter, but I will put the next chapter up like tomarrow cause it's 11 pm and I need to take a shower and get stuff done...