Wish Chapter Five

The silence in the room was a bit more defining if not for the crickets that seemed to be chirping outside. " I mean it Hitomi. Anytime you need anything you just come get me." He pointed at a separate spot over by the wall, there was a second door. " That door leads to my chambers and my private study. I've been spending more time there than anything of late. Just open that door and I'll be there."

Hitomi murmured an okay, hiding her face slightly with the pillow; felling Van's eyes on her for a moment she glanced over, catching his gaze. " Van will you do something for me right now?" Her voice was sweet and shy, making Van's stomach flip.

" Anything." Voice husky and mouth dry.

" Will you…"

There was a buzz that filtered through the room, it made Hitomi's chest constrict and her heart beat faster, much faster than already was and a sense of dread filled her. " No!" She screamed reaching out towards Van, her vision beginning to fail her blurring and dimming. His face was constricted with concern and worry as he reached for her as well. Then black.

Hitomi's eyes slowly opened to the all too familiar white ceiling; sitting up and looking around her she recognized the place all too well. The desk she'd sat at studying her mind numb, bookshelf full of all the love stories she could get her hands on, closet full of her cloths. She was at home.

An angry sob escaped her as tears began to fall down her cheeks. "It was a dream!" She cried out hugging her knees. " Why did it have to be a dream?!"

" Hitomi." Green eyes grew wide as she looked around the room frantically, that voice she was just dreaming about. A dream. The soft orange glow of morning was filtering through her window while the tears fell down her cheeks. This wasn't the first time, but it all had felt just so real, too real. " Hitomi."

Hitomi sunk lower in the bath water she'd just drawn, the bath milk she always added that made the water a sort of cream color wasn't holding the same sort of comfort it normally did. Sighing and sinking even lower into the warm water until she was completely submerged. Trying to clear her head, those kisses she was taking for granted the smell he omitted that warmth. Bursting from the depths of the bath she growled internally she was slipping again. This time deeper than she'd ever gone before, it was scaring her.

Hitomi made her way down the stairs for breakfast. The knot in her stomach didn't go away during her bath like she thought it would and it only seemed to grow. In fact she was so distracted she almost ran into her mother in the kitchen doorway.

" Oh Hitomi!" Her mother exclaimed a soft smile on her face. " How was your bath dear?"

It's just like any other day. Hitomi thought absently. " Good." She then had to field many of her mother's other questions with one word answers, where she went after graduation, how was her packing going along, when did the college classes start? That was one thing Hitomi was blandly thinking of, in her 'dream' she wasn't prepared to leave it all behind for him. Or was she?

The remainder of her day went by blandly. That day turned into a week, the week turned into the end of July; the end of July was when she was leaving. Not once had she dreamed about Van again. Not once did she feel him like she normally could, it had made her numb. Her mother's hug at the air port, the tears in Yukari's eyes when she went to hug her; she was on automatic now, smiling when it was needed, laughing a little when it mattered giving her family a little bit more of her then she could spare.

This was what she was doing; accept when she was at the gate, just about to board the plane that would take her to her new life. It was as if time stopped for a moment as she looked through the crowd, catching a glimpse of raven hair and maroon eye staring at her from a solemn and sad face. Seeing him sitting there just as he looked in her dream scared her.

" Miss are you boarding?" Hitomi's eyes snapped away from the terminal chair to a steward who was anxiously waiting to close the door for boarding.

She nodded, eyes snapping back to where he'd sat a moment ago, only to find it an empty seat. Waving back at her family, smiling with a shouted " I love you!" The door behind her closed as she carried the small bag she had onto the plane. Locking her into her new life, a life she'd have to face alone.

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