Lexi: So its the weekend now and I have time to update ^.^ Please don't be too angry bout the wait. Life is Difficult (Maddy!)
and I didn't have much time. Uhhh... I've decided to put this story as all songfics for chapters. Same plot, just based off my music. That's also why it took so long. Finding the right song takes a while... But I tried :D Have fun reading, hope you like!
Disclaimer: I don't own FMA or any lyrics/songs used in this story.
Warning: Yaoi!
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Only Hope by: Mandy Moore
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.
I've been awake for the last twenty minutes. Waking up at 3 AM really sucks. Especially when you can't get back to sleep. He's stuck in my head. No matter what I look at, listen to, feel around me, all I can sense is him. Is this my conscious telling me I need to let him know what's going on?
I'm so confused by all of this. I thought I loved him. Then Riza took him away from me. Do I still feel the same way for him? I thought I could let it all go and just be his friend. I guess I was wrong...
So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.
I've never been much of a religious person. But, I feel as if this is the only hope that I have at winning him back. That is, if I still love him... My head is going to explode with all these thoughts bouncing around. Am I in denial? Or have I accepted that he will never be mine?
I sit up slowly and pull the covers off my body. The ground is cold against my flesh foot. I still get upset knowing I can't feel anything with my metal one. The floorboards creek as I walk across my room to the window. I pull the small blanket over my shoulders and sit on the window seat.
The stars are shining brighter than any night before. I make a wish as one falls out of the sky. Please let me figure out what I want.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
What plans do the fates have for me now?
There isn't much else I can do but hope. My life doesn't have much to keep my going...
Al and Winry are a happy ever after. Everyone else found their fairytale ending. Accept me. Is there a reason? Or does God just want to poke fun at the fact that I'm the only lonely one. All alone in this galaxy of stars. Big open spaces. Nothing to fill them in.
I walk back to the bed and lay down once more. Maybe I can sleep now.
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.
God must loathe me if he still won't let me sleep. What more can I do?! I've said all I can. And I have went through my options. If I admit I love him will I be able to rest?!
I love Roy Mustang! Yes, I finally admitted it. Denying the truth won't help me when it's 3:30 AM and I can't keep my eyes open, yet, I can't exactly close them.
No matter how many times I deny it. Even if Riza and him go through with this. As long as he ever existed... I know I will love him.
And I can't lose him over something as stupid as not telling him how I feel! Or at the very least letting him know what she's been doing behind his back.
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.
I accept that whatever the outcome may be, Roy will always be in my life. I don't want to live if he's not there! He can take all I have to offer.
That would be the only way for me to be truelly happy. I need him with me!
And I need him to understand that I love him more than anyone else ever could... I would live for him, die for him, anything.
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.
Now that I have acknowledged all that I can go back to my land of unachievable dreams. I will worry about all of this when I wake.
Until then... it's only Roy and I in my fairytale clouds. He is mine and I am his. But dreams are usually only that, dreams. Not reachable, only something to hope for.
And I will hope for him everyday until I somehow get my dream come true.
hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh.
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Lexi: uhhhh wow writing tires me out. Sorry bout the crappy chapter but I just had a need to write and I didn't want it to be long. So a filler chapter is what I give you ^.^
Build a bridge and get over it. I will get more into this story when school has a break for a while.
I plan on having each chapter be a different song, by a different artist/band, and focused on a different character. I have a few for Riza, Ed, and need some help with Roy. Any suggestion? Something bout a guy knowing his girl is cheating on him would be great!
How bout 5 new reviews? Thats all I am asking for in exchange for such a nice, long, high-quality chapter XD not really... Oh well ^.^
Peace out peeps! I got a social life to take care of :D
XOXO
Lexi