Part 11: Happy to be sad: Bella

I looked out at the rain from the cave me and Seth were sheltering in. It was such a good day that we had gone to the beach but then the wind changed. It was now pouring down and we would be here for hours.

I had spent a restless night thinking on what Angela had said yesterday and had decided to tell Seth what I had done to Wesley. When I saw him however I changed my mind, one more day before everything changes. Hope things work out better for me than they did for Peter Parker.

We had walked on the beach watching the birds fly over head. Well I was but when I looked over at him he was looking at me as if I was all that existed in his world.

At that moment I tripped over a piece of driftwood and his hand shot out to grab my elbow. "Caught you this time." He smiled and I was infected with his good mood. "So what was yesterday like?"

"A bit weird. We never saw the movie in the end. Jessica was totally chewing Leah out and then she wigged out and hit Jess in the face before running off. It was totally awesome." I looked away to hide my face, that was too like the kind of thing that made Wesley...

Seth turned serious. "Did that Jessica girl call her something like?" He gulped before carrying on, "slut or anything like that?"

"Oh yeah she said whore I think. Why would..." I trailed off when I remembered what had happened in Italy. "Oh, I see. Well that makes sense I suppose."

"Ah man it's raining. We were going to have a picnic." Seth said his hand outstretched as a few drops landed on his palm.

"And we didn't bring any coats." I dropped my bag to the floor and put my hand in his. "Can I have this dance?"

"D-dance?" but I had already pulled him forwards and he put his other hand on my waist, surrendering to my joy.

Suddenly it hit me, I was happy around Seth. I thought he made me my true self. Unless this was the real me now, not overly happy but also not depressed. I leaned in close and put my head on his shoulder. "Thank you Seth."

"You keep thanking me at completely random times, when are you going to tell me the true story?"

"tomorrow." I heard the surprised noise he made at the definite answer. "I was going to tell you today but then I decided to spend one more day with you."

"Let's hope it works out better for me than it did for MJ."

I giggled, "That's exactly what I said, sort of."

"Well consider me awesomed by you."

We stopped dancing and I suddenly realised how wet I was. "Hey its really coming down we should get out of here." I ran to pick up my bag and held it to my chest to shelter the thing inside it.

"Yeah there is a cave over there we can wait for it to lighten up there." And that was how we ended up in a cave on the beach; we had talked about all sorts of stuff but nothing that really mattered.

We were sat together, shoulder to shoulder, and I could hear his light snoring. As he slept I rested my head on his and soon drifted off myself.

I found myself stood on a cloud looking down at earth; it looked so small from up here. "Hey there girl. Looks like you found a good guy down there." I spun round to find the source of the familiar voice

He stood there, the boy I had wronged a year ago. He was tall and had messy brown hair just as I remembered but what was new was the white clothes and wings. They emanated from his shoulders and were mechanical looking. "W-Wesley? What the hell is going on?"

He gave his smile, a smile no one had ever mimicked correctly, it was his personal smile. "Wrong direction girl, remember I'm not a murderer." His eyes were still full of warmth as he told me what I feared the most.

"What no I-" It was an accident but before I could finish the sentence he cut me off. Walking towards me, backing me towards the edge. Soon I would fall, just like he did.

"Cut it out we all know what you did, you killed me!"

I fell to my knees and clasped my hands to my ears, trying to cut out the noise of a million voices repeating what the boy had said. "nononononononononono."

I felt his hand on my shoulder and he whispered into my ear. "Good bye Bella. You don't deserve to be here." He pushed and I was falling down faster and faster. The voices were still yelling no matter how I tried to block them out.

"Bella wake up." Seth was shaking me, his face torn by worry.

"Don't worry Seth. I'm ok, the nightmare is over." And inside I knew I was right, his love protected me from what I feared. "But now I can't tell you what I was going to because you wouldn't love me afterwards."

"Impossible but you take your time."

for those of you who thought you had the Wesley think sorted this should confuse you. Just so you know, he is visually based on me and the wings are important.

Forgot to mention it last week but the Shelby GT 500 is a reference to gone in 60 seconds, one of my fav films.

This week we have two references to one more day, a story arc in the Spiderman comics. "Well consider me awesomed by you." Is a reversed form of "Why aren't you awesomed by me?" said by Molly Hayes in runaways (the comic).

I plan to release two extras for this story, one about Jacob and one about Wesley. They will come out when they are written and the Wesley one should confuse his role even more. Have fun trying to figure him out ^.^

soz for the late update but fanfic has been a bit buggy