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Also, in later chapter's you will find out twhy bella brke up with Edward, sorry if i confused you a little.

hope you like the next chapter!

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There's a man who waits for the tests
to see if the cancer has spread yet
and now he asks, "So why did I wait to live till it was time to die?"
If I could have the time back how I'd live
Life is such a gift
so how does the story end?
Well this is your story and it all depends
so don't let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

Superchick- We Live

Bella P.O.V

I walked into the office as usual on a Monday morning, placing my freshly made coffee on my desk and then setting up the PC as normal. My day was perfect. I just knew something bad was going to happen, it always does. my life had sort of gone downhill since I lift Edward, my love life was in the shit house, my best friends are his sisters, well I guess they can kind of be called mine because we aren't exactly divorced yet. 2 weeks away at 10 on Monday I will be a free woman. YAY

I felt him kick in my stomach, I looked down while rubbing my belly the only real good thing that Edward and I have done since the breakup. My first little baby boy. Most likely going to be the last of the Cullen clan in our family, I mean I'm not with him, Edward that is. But I've made the decision he will be a full blown Cullen.

I didn't hear his door open, nor did I hear the footsteps he took to make it over to me. He placed his hand next to mine and it made me jump. Our boy started to kick much harder, of course he's a daddy's boy. All of my children are daddy's babies. I looked up at him and he was looking at me. I looked into his eyes, as he always say's 'The eyes are the window to the soul' that line always made me melt, right now staring into his eyes, made me feel like nothing was wrong with us, that I didn't leave him but in reality I did and we weren't and it just makes my heart shatter even more.

We heard a clearing of a throat and our heads snapped towards the one and only Carlisle Cullen. He was smiling at us, smirking would also be another word to use. Edwards hand soon left my belly like it was on fire, my boy stoped kicking me at the loss of his touch, I felt the same way. Not wanted, not loved, alone.

"Well hello" Carlisle started "and how is the little Cullen family going?" he joked, I smiled at him while Edward looked everywhere and anywhere apart from me.

"Anyway, how are you Bella? We haven't seen or spoken to you in ages"

"I'm good that's Carlisle, the kids are good as well. We can't wait for Thursday" I replied.

"Ah yes, the famous Esme Cullen family dinner, I can't wait 2 pregnant women and a very proud grandmother "he again joked and I laughed.

"Alright then dad was there something you wanted to say?" Edward asked as he motioned towards the door

"Oh no I just wanted to come and see the both of you, see if you would both get over this thing you have going on and see the love that is still there"

"Dad we've talked about this just but out of it and leave" Edward seethed at him.

"Son, it's still there, it's just hidden or maybe it's not, maybe your both scared of facing the truth. Tell each other how you feel before it's too late. Before you lose each other" he stated before he left.

I sat their shocked, he was right. I needed to tell Edward that I loved him with all my heart.

"Bella"

"Edward" we laughed

"You go"

"You go" no I was getting frustrated.

"Edward I sti…" I got cut off by the phone.

"Hello Cullen Inc. how can I help you today?" I asked in a very polite voice, Edward sat on the edge of the desk and started to look at our kids and family photos that were flashing across the computer screen, they were my screen saver, he started to laugh hard when he saw the one of him and Mayella at her 2nd birthday, they had cake everywhere. Good times.

"Umm, yes miss I was looking for a MRS. Cullen or Miss. Swan by a chance" I became focused on the phone call

"Yes, this is she may I asked who is calling?" I asked

"Hello, Miss Swan I am Doctor Begreen, I was wondering if you could come to the surgical ward at the hospital" I became panicked, I looked at Edward and he also was as well.

"Of course but May I ask why?"

" It's about your mother Miss, I'd like to talk to you face to face " he replied.

"Of course I'll be there soon" I had tears in my eyes threatening to fall, what had Renee done this time?

"I'll see you soon good bye Miss Swan" I hang up the phone and began to search my desk for my keys and jacket.

"Bella what's wrong?" Edward asked as he gripped my hands, my tears kept falling I breathed in and searched his eyes for anything. Love is what was returned to me.

"My Mum, something happened. She's at the hospital in the surgical ward" I said breaking free and getting my phone.

"Omg, Bella, take the company car and I'll meet you there" he said to me while ringing the Front desk.

"Edward you..." I was cut off by his finger

"Hello, yes can I have the company car ready for now, it's for Mrs. Cullen" my heart swelled at the name, I missed it

"Thank you" Edward grabbed his coat and lead me to the Office elevator, I always thought it was weird that we had to walk about f passes to the elevator and we only had one person up the top here well two.

"Thankyou "I whispered and broke down crying again, Edward lead me into his arms hugging me with everything he had. I missed fitting perfectly into his arms, I missed sleeping with him and next to him, looking at him play with the kids, watching him sleep, or just having our moments when it was just us and no one else. I need him back.

"It's going to be ok Bella, it just has to be." He told me as we walked into the garage were Jake was waiting for us with the door to the car open. I climbed in and heard Edward tell Jake to go to the hospital and that he will meet me there.

"Why aren't you coming in this car" I asked

"I have to organise the kids to be picked up in 3 hours I'll be there soon" I smiled at him as he closed the door.

Mum can't be sick, she just can't be. She was there for everything. She's needs to be there. She's my mum I love her with everything I have. She's my best friend. She can't die.

I was thinking about everything, that I didn't even notice we had arrived. Jake had a solemn look on his face which killed me even more inside.

"Everything will be alright Bella" the way he said it compared to the way Edward said it, it just made me feel worse but I put on a smile for him and headed towards the front desk.

"Hello how may I help you?" the front desk clerk asked

"I was called by Dr. Begreen, he said to come down immediately about my mother" She smiled a sad smile, no what the hell has Renee done this time.

"Yes, just take a seat and I'll beep him" I nodded and said it the ridicules' plastic chairs.

It didn't take long for Dr. Begreen to appear, he was muscular with light brown hair and deep blue eyes, he was very handsome. He looked to be about my age.

"Ah, Miss Swan. If you could just follow me" he waited for me to get up and then we started to walk down the brightly lit hall. White, white isn't a happy colour! It also hurts you eyes. Why don't these people understand that?

"Miss Swan, your mother came in yesterday claiming you have pain in her lower back" he said as we were walking " after some test's we discovered she had liver cancer, this morning she went under surgery but unfortunately we couldn't get all of it" I broke down crying on the floor, he was looking everywhere but apart from me. If he wanted me to get up he would have to help me, but yet he didn't. What man tells a daughter that basically your mothers walking on the move especially when she is pregnant?

I felt two arms encircle me from around the waist, they hosted me up and kept a hold of me to make sure I didn't fall again, I fell limp again his body smelling the same smell I have for the past 10 years.

"Sir, thank you for helping me with her but May I ask who you are?" the doctor asked the man

"I'm her husband" Edward replied "what happened?" he asked the doctor and he told him everything that he had told me. Edward started to kiss my forehead as the doctor went on.

"Oh Bella" he said as we started to walk again.

I started to think back on my child hood, the Sunday baking and going to church. Waking me up and god knows what time to talk. Playing with our dog at the park with dad. Dad's funeral. The hard times we hard and the good. Her being at the birth of my children. Not knowing if she'd be at this one's. 80's movies that dad hated but secretly loved. Picture time. Boy talk that whole thing came down on me at once. I was going to lose my mother. My best friend. My everything. And that was hard

We walked into her room to see her flirting with the nurse. No matter what or when she is doing something she is always free and that is what I love about her.

"Ahhh my children, are you back together?" she asked with a smile on her lips, the doctor and the nurse left us to be alone. Edward let out a chuckle. This was always a joke to them. Not to me.

"No can't say we are "he replied and Renee gave me stern look, and I gave a weak smile and gave her a hug and started to cry

"Awe no tears baby, it's just my time to go" she smiled at me and but her hand on my ever extending belly which he gave a massive kick.

"Yes that's right baby, I love you too" she said to him and gave my belly a kiss.

"So how have you been Renee?" Edward started as he sat on the chain and pulled me onto him.

"Well I could say I've been better but did you just see that nurse damn he is hot" she laughed.

"You know, I still can't believe you can get knocked up but yet not get back together" she laughed again as my mouth slacked off.

"Yes well..." he broke off his train of thought and smiled at me.

"You know kids the last thing I would like before I die, is for you too to see past this charade you are playing and get back together"

Before either of us could say anything the door opened.

"Ah, I thought I could hear that loud boom of yours Renee" Carlisle said and went over to hug her

"How are you anyway darling?" he asked

"Well, I can tell you this. You have some hot staff" she said and laughed I just groaned into Edwards shoulder.

Even when she's on her death bed she is still laughing. Hopefully she will be laughing till the end. Oh let's face it she will be.

Waking up to another dark morning
People are mourning
The weather in life outside is storming
But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway?
So get our heads up out of the darkness
And spark this new mindset and start to live life cuz it ain't gone yet
And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
And wake up and live the life we're supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love