I was so wrong for so long
Only tryna please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever.
Jason DeRulo
Watcha Say lyrics
Sorry that it's late. I've been doing some other stories. Please if you like Edward and mutliply women other then bella please read Adjoining Bathroom.
It's amazing how Alice can just believe that, that was the only part of the story so easily. Yes it was a little bit of the decision when I decided to first leave but it wasn't at all why I left all together. Alice, she's my best friend, known me for ages but can't seem to see when I'm lying? She's meant to know me the best. I couldn't re-live it again. No the pain and hurt bubbling to the surface again was not aloud. I would not let myself cry over my mistake again.
I let my pain and suffering make my mind up for me. I let him slip through my fingers as I walked away from him. I shouldn't of believed her when she turned up at my door, no I should of just shut the door in her face but no I listened to her, I let the information slip through my brain tearing my heart all while making the path of destruction through my family. I cried in front of her. Stupid movement.
Edward was late once again to his own mother's diner. I could see the hurt through her eyes, they use to be bright and playful but when the divorce was finale it faded away, she even stoped trying to put our broken pieces back together but they didn't fit anymore.
"So Bella about to pop I see" I turn away from chopping up the salad to see Emmet with a smile across his face and his arm's wide open.
"Emmet" I squeal as I jump into his bear hug. We twirl around and I see Rosalie, ahhh my perfect pregnant girlfriend. Of course the women had mood swings and I mean bad mood swings but what are pregnant women to do when they're bored? Play with their husbands and blame it on the pregnancy!
"Hey Hunny" she whispers into my ears as we try to hug but our expanding stomachs hold us back.
"Gosh you've grown" I said while rubbing her stomach
"How come when I say it you hit me and yell at me but when she says it you swoon" Emmet's booming voice startled us, we both turned around and smirked at him, oh if he only knew how women worked. He then huffed and walked out. Rosie and I just looked at each other and then laughed.
"Oh, I love you Bella!" she kissed me on the check and walked out to find her husband
"DADDY!" I heard my girl from the other room yell. I looked over to esme to find her smiling and looking at me. I smiled back and finished cutting the up the salad ingredients when Edwards walked in with my babies in each of his arms. They looked so happy.
"Soon Edward you won't have any arms left" esme greeted him with a kiss on the check and a hug which was hard because they girl wouldn't let go. He laughed and walked over to me with his mouth wide open just like the girls.
I shook my head and they all made noised of want with the mouths open, I laughed and popped one tomato cherry into their mouths each. They hummed with want when they fished the cherry wanting some more.
"No more wait until tea!" I replied, my babies are like their father in so many ways and he hurts to see it sometimes.
"Oh mum" Edward started still looking at the tomato's and then placing the kids on the floor so they could go play with their toys "I have someone with me tonight! Umm, she's in the lounge room" the knife slipped from my hands and I cut my self and then we heard a glass shatter across the room. Blood was everywhere, esme was picking up glass while I was holding a piece if cloth to my hand.
"Mum stop" Edward was looking back and forth between the both of us. He inspected my cut first but it was only minor, he the lent over at esme and saw nothing wrong with her hands.
"Edward are you okay I heard a glass smash" we all turned to the person in the door way
"NO" I shouted at Edward, he looked at me with a look of hurt.
"Bella"
"NO, Edward I told you so" I started to walk towards the door to collect my kids.
"They're my kids as well you know" I kept walking; she is not aloud around my kids. I walked past her but stoped and looked at her.
"When did you knock her up?" I asked as the tears started to fall, Esme gasped from the far corner.
"How did you know?" he asked with disbelief, I gave him a knowing look/
"I've been pregnant 4 times remember!" he and I both looked down, remembering our first child from college, Sophie didn't make it. She died 2 weeks after her birth. She was too small.
"I'm so sorry" we all turned and looked at Tanya. "I know you miss her and..."
"NO you do not talk about her! Do you understand!" I scream in her face and walk out. My kids are in shock and start to cry, they have never heard Edward and I scream before. It breaks my heart even more to see that I'm not only hurting myself but my whole family as well.
I look around the room; wedding pictures hang from walls, happy faces in all. My eyes linger on mine and Edwards for a few moments more. It takes me back to the happier years of our lives. I was in love with him, I am still am but now I guess I will just have to move on.
I wipe away the few stray tears that fall down my face. I can't hide it anymore. My heart lies with him he knows too. But unlike me has moved on. It's my fault were all like this, if I didn't listen to her I would still be with him, Tanya wouldn't be pregnant with his child, my baby boy would have his father whenever he wants.
I collect the kids and walk to the door, no w=one stops me and that's fine. I look back once more to see my ex family, hearts broken and lying on the floor. I can't hurt them anymore. No. I'm not a Cullen anymore, Tanya has taken my place. She'll be better at it then I was.
Two days had past with multiply phone calls from Alice, Esme, Jasper and Rosalie begging me to come back, asking me to tell Edward. Jasper even apologized for Edward and Tanya but it didn't matter. I wasn't going to think about it today. No today was about my mother. Today I was going to lay my mum next to my father.
"And now we Ms. Swan would like to say a few things" I look noticing people looking at me. Their eyes filled with sadness, tears and pain. Except for Tanya. Wait Tanya? Why is she here? My heart breaks no, she shouldn't be here. I stand and make my way towards her Grave.
"Its times like these mum that I will miss you. 3 years ago we were both here placing dad in the ground, I held onto you and Edward for so long. Even though it was raining and cold and you lost your husband you were strong for me, sitting right in this very spot. But three years on, you're not here to hold me through it and that's okay because I know that even though you have passed you will fight and protect me from all."
I breathe in and let the sadness take over, my eyes fill with the tears that I haven't seen for days. I brake and the thought of no one there to catch me brakes me more. I fall to the ground but not once hitting it. My eyes close as I fold into the arms of Edward.
"I'm here for you, don't think your alone" he whispers into my ear. I turn my body into his so I'm protected from the hurt and pain I see from others; I somehow find the strength to finish my speech in his arms.
"The day you passed you asked me to do something. 'Your last dying wish 'as you simply put it. I find it hard to say these words but mum I don't think I can do it, I can't erase the past that I made for my family. I lost him mum." Edwards arm's squeeze me.
"Never" he whispers
"I'm sorry… I place this box filled with pictures of birthdays, weddings, births, Anniversary's Easters, Christmas's and many more. Also I pass you the paintings of mine from when I was younger and you grandchildren's as well. Dad and you need them more then myself. They belong to your hearts. I know that you love me and I you, I always will. My heart is yours. Love and treasure it" I look into Edwards eyes "because mum you're the only one I can trust it with" His arms loosen with every word. I let him go, move on Edward love someone who can trust you and not break you.
I step away from him a place 3 roses into the grave.
"But today I walk away from your body but your mind, soul and heart will follow me until I follow your foot steps towards you and dad. Mum, I'll let you finish your trip towards him now, remember women to live, laugh and love." My eyes close and I feel free, she's with him now looking down on us hopefully smiling like usual.
I'm pulled back into Edward's arms, his mouth right next to my ear. I feel his tears hit my shoulder and his quivering breaths against my ear. "I love you Bella, just don't forget it"
That was all it took for me to fall, to lose it all. My mind filled with pictures, memories everything at once. I couldn't hear the screams as I fell to the ground. I couldn't see the tears as my eyes went black. The pain was there from the loss of everything. I couldn't take it my chest felt like it was on fire my lungs trying there hardest to get the air that they needed but they couldn't. I fell; I fell hard into the UN-known. I needed them right now as my contraction's started up. He was on his way into the world.
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together
[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl