Hey Guy's sorry that it took so long and it basically is only Edwards Point of view of what has appened. next chapter will be i have no clue.
most likely soon! hope you xmas was amazing!!!!!
Art Of Love Lyrics
I'm saying sorry in advance cos this won't always go to plan
Though we don't mean to take our love for granted
It's in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we're all about giving up
Things that we never thought we'd gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we'd play, gonna play them
It ain't perfect, but it's worth it
And it's always getting better
It's gonna take some time to get it right
Cause I'm still learning the art of love
I'm still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love
Art Of Love- Guy Sebastian // Jordin Sparks
E P.O.V
Doctors were running into the room, a long beep was heard. I knew it was time; I left Alice with the kids and ran to Bella. She was sitting on the ground tears streaming down her face, the last nurse left after she pulled the plug I said thankyou and dragged Bella onto my lap as we watched Renee die.
I kept my arms around Bella, she needed me. I tried to stop the tears but I couldn't she was my mother as well.
I felt Bella shift as she turned; her lips were so close to mine. My eyes moving back and forth from her eyes to her lips. I needed my wife I needed my life back and apparently so did she. I kissed her with all the love I had left for her, I thought I could hold onto the thought that maybe one day we could be a family again but my heart couldn't take it any longer. All these games, they were killing me from the inside out.
She pulled back and smiled. I had to at least try for her. She was pinning for her mother who was dead right next to us. She began to frantically look for the kids I would suppose. Her eyes beginning to water.
"There with Alice" and she began to calm down into my arms again.
We stayed like that for a few moments pretending that we were fine until my phone went off. Bella began to get off my lap but I held her still, I still needed her even if I was about to move on.
"Hello?" I asked waiting for the reply from the person on the other end.
"Edward it's Tanya" my smile left my face, Tanya had been sick for 3 weeks now and she finally went to the hospital today. I began to get up, pushing Bella off my lap in the process and walked out the door.
"What's wrong?" Panic began to arise in me.
"Well, they did a few tests… and then… well I'm…ah… pregnant" my face paled. Another baby to another woman. The only thing I could think of was that Bella and I were definitely not getting back together after this.
"Umm…. Oh… do you need me?" I asked pleading in my head she said no
"Yes… we need to discuss some things" I let out a breath.
"Ok I'll be there in a minute" we said our goodbyes and hung up. Those simple words threw my world out, my dreams down the drain. But I could handle it, I'm Edward Cullen I have too.
After going over everything with Tanya I began to think about Bella and my family. She didn't want me, I gave her time. She had two years to take me back but she didn't and I had to move on.
Once again I'm late for mum's family dinner. Only this time it wasn't my fault. Tanya had to be perfect for my family; she wants to be welcomed with open arms. The problem is that I know and she could also possible know that that she won't be. The place that she is trying to fill already has an owner. And no one wants her to leave not even me.
We finally set off to my mother's house. I look to my right; Tanya was smoothing every part of her clothing. She was rubbing her belly which I'm sorry to say is my mistake. Bella and I were finally getting better but then I got the phone call.
Bella had finally let me in; I know what we were both about to tell each other that day in my office. It was all I needed to hear for me to take her back… I didn't need an explanation at that point in my life, no I just needed her and I still do.
No, now my life has Tanya in it until this baby of ours grows to be 18 years of age and moves out then I won't have to pretend to ' love' his mother anymore. Of course if Bella and I got back together I wouldn't even pretend to love her. This baby of Tanya's had already stolen my heart. It's mine and I can't help, I'm not a father who abandons his kids. No I'm going to be there for all of my children.
I only love Bella.
We finally made it to mum's. I help Tanya out of the car, I try and let go of her hand but she holds on for life. She needs help through this Edwards too. My conscience tells me. I hold on to. Our eyes meet and we smile at each other. We slowly make it up the 3 steps and stop at the door.
"I'm ready" Tanya tells me.
She maybe but I'm definitely not. She squeezes my hand and opens the door. We walk in hand in hand and see Emmett come thought the kitchen door with a pout. I smirk at him knowing exactly he is going through. He glares at me; he opens his mouth to say something back.
"DADDDYYYY" I hear my girls scream, I look at Emmett who know has Rose in his arms. I feel two little people wrap around my legs. I look down and there they are. My girls, my babies. My Real Family.
I bend down to their level and they jump into my arms giggling as I make and ogre sound as I'm getting up. I kiss both of them on the forehead and walk into the kitchen leaving Tanya behind.
I walk in and can't seem to keep the smile off my face as I see some of the most important women in my life.
Mum started to walk over to me with her warm smile "Soon Edward you won't have any arms left" she kissed me on the cheek, she tried to hug me but the girls (who won't let go of me) were in the way. We look at each other and start to laugh.
I walk over to Bella and open my mouth; Mayella and Renessme look at me then at each other than to Bella and also open their mouths. I kind of smirk because my girls do whatever I do and that frustrate Bella a little. I wait for the tomatoes. Bella laughed and popped one into each of our mouths. I want more of them so I open my mouth again for some more.
"No more wait until tea!" Bella tells me and the girls.
"Oh mum" I keep looking at the food in front of me but I remember Tanya in the next room. I put the girls down and the set off to the lounge room.
"I have someone with me tonight! Umm, she's in the lounge room" I heard Bella gasp and the knife hit the ground. I looked at her and saw I deep cut across her hand. A glass shattering could be heard next , my head wiped around and saw my mother trying to pick up the glass.
"Mum stop" mum stop, I was looking in between them both trying to decide who needed help. I look at Bella first deciding it only kneed a band aid after I ran it under water. Next I help mum pick up the glass and saw no scratches on her hand thankfully.
"Edward are you okay I heard a glass smash" we all turned to the person in the door way
"NO" I look at Bella, I knew she didn't like Tanya but that went too far.
"Bella" I try but she cuts me off
"No, Edward I told you I didn't want her around my kids" that gets me mad, how dare she tell me who I can have around my children? Bella started to get the kids to go
"They're my kids as well you know" she only stops when she looks down at Tanya's stomach
"When did you knock her up?" she asks me as the tears fall down her face. Mum gasp from the corner.
"How did you know?" I asked in astonishment
"I've been pregnant 4 times remember!" we both looked down, remembering our first child from college, Sophie didn't make it. She died 2 weeks after her birth. She was too small. It killed me knowing that failed. She was my baby girl and was taken away from us to soon
"I'm so sorry" we all turned and looked at Tanya. "I know you miss her and..." bad mistake Tanya.
"NO you do not talk about her! Do you understand?"Bella screams in her face and walks out. I follw her and see the kids crying. Bella and I made a pact never to fight around the kids. They didn't need to know about or troubles.
Bella stoped at the door, she looked back her eyes lingering back on us for a few moments. I catch her eyes and then she closed the door. I closed my eyes as the last part of my heart went with her. No more pain, just numb, I'm just numb.
My eyes open when Tanya grabs onto my hand the first thing I see in my sister's broken face. "Aren't you going after her?" she asks me but I don't answer her. Bella had finally left me and it didn't feel right. I didn't feel right
"She's having your child for Christ sake" she screams at me. Tanya gasps
"And he's having me as well"
"Yeah well, no one cares about you. You are a mistake. Just leave. Look at what you do. I know what you did" peoples' voices became just noise. Nothing got in. I let some tears fall. I feel my dad's hand on my back rubbing my shoulders.
I didn't matter what people did know. I didn't care about Tanya. I didn't even care about my self. I needed my family back.
Two days had past and now it was time to put Renee in the ground.
"And now Ms. Swan would like to say a few things" we all look at Bella. Her face blotchy and red. She lets go of Alice's hand and walks over to the grave. Tanya squeezes my hand. I knew she shouldn't be here it doesn't feel right.
"Its times like these mum that I will miss you. 3 years ago we were both here placing dad in the ground, I held onto you and Edward for so long. Even though it was raining and cold and you lost your husband you were strong for me, sitting right in this very spot. But three years on, you're not here to hold me through it and that's okay because I know that even though you have passed you will fight and protect me from all."
I look at her and my tears start to fall. She still has me. Lean on me. Take me back.
She shakes and I know what about to happen. I quickly shake off Tanya and get up and hold on to Bella. She still smella the same. This feels right. I need her back and I am going to as well. She snuggles into my chest to hind away from the faces that are now staring at her.
"I'm here for you, don't think your alone "I whispers into her ear.
"The day you passed you asked me to do something. 'Your last dying wish 'as you simply put it. I find it hard to say these words but mum I don't think I can do it, I can't erase the past that I made for my family. I lost him mum." My arm's squeeze her.
" never" I say, no I'm always here for you.
"I'm sorry… I place this box filled with pictures of birthdays, weddings, births, Anniversary's Easters, Christmas's and many more. Also I pass you the paintings of mine from when I was younger and you grandchildren's as well. Dad and you need them more then myself. They belong to your hearts. I know that you love me and I you, I always will. My heart is yours. Love and treasure it" She looks at me with hurt across her face "because mum you're the only one I can trust it with" I let my arms free her. She doesn't want me. Move on Bella. I won't break you anymore.
"But today I walk away from your body but your mind, soul and heart will follow me until I follow your foot steps towards you and dad. Mum, I'll let you finish your trip towards him now, remember women to live, laugh and love."
I pull her back into my arms because no, I can't let her go. No I won't let her go. She's mine.
"I love you Bella just remember that" I tell her. Alice gasps and mum smiles. Tanya has a scowl across her face. But I don't care because Bella was all that I needed.
Bella's eyes went black, she went limp in my arms.
"Bella" I scream at her, mum and Alice come to me I lay her on the ground and squeeze her hand. Bella began to hold my hand as tight as she could. I knew that feeling. She began to breath deep as well. She let out a grown and I knew what was coming. His was from Renee. My baby boy was coming.
"Someone call the hospital and tell them were coming" Alice screams out. Dad is already in the car and waiting for us to hope in.
"It's alright Bella, I have you" I pick her up with Emmett's help and we put her in the car. Mum jumps in and points to Tanya who's behind me looking angry.
I walk over to her and give her the keys to the car.
"I have to go Tanya"
"Well what about me?"
"Go home; I need to be with my wife and my family. My sons about to be born." I start to walk off
"What about our son?" I turn to her
"I know that you were at least fucking 2 other of my friends when you were with me, go tell them the great news and fuck their lives up. I'm about to get mine back"
I run to the car and me and jasper speed down the highway to the hospital.
This was it. My family was going to be whole again. That is if Bella lets me back in.
If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you're beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it's not my intention
Cause we're gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours
Cause I'm still learning the art of love
I'm still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it outYou need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love
Sometimes I'm gonna miss
I'm still learning how to give
I'm not giving up
I'm still learning how to love
Learning how to love…
Learning how to love
Cause I'm still learning the art of love
I'm still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love
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