I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait for you
Cause I need you
Can't you see that I need you?
Cause I need you (I need you)
Can't you see that I need you? (I need you)
Baby it's you I want,
So stop wasting my time
And baby it's you I need,
So please make up your mind
It's time to choose
"I Don't Wanna Wait"
The Veronicas
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"Everytime you stay (every time you stay)
The world starts making sense to me
And when you go away (when you go away)
I wanna scream till you see..."
I sit here and watch him sleep, his chest rising and falling. I smile, because I finally have him in my arms. He's mine and no one else's. I run my fingers through his hair. Short and soft. Renee I'm sorry that you weren't here to see this.
It's amazing that Edward and I created him. He's so amazing. My first boy, my little man. I love him so much.
"How's our little boy doing?" Edward rubbed his hand through his hair.
"Amazing" I looked up into Edwards eyes and smiled. I went in for the kill. I kissed him.
"Mmm and how are you?" he stroked my check.
"Much better" I gave him a shy smile and looked back down.
"You know now... now where going to have to re- marry, our divorce went through" I looked up at him. My eye' started to water.
"What?"
"Hey, it's ok... we'll figure it out" I wiped away the tears and smiled.
"You want to marry me?" I asked him and he laughed and kissed me.
"Offcourse I want to marry you. I didn't want to divorce you in the first place" I started to cry again.
"Hey it's alright" I smile at him.
"Miss Swan?" we both look at the door and my nurse is standing there. "Um we were just wondering if you had decided a name yet" I looked at Edward and I handed him the baby.
"Um, yes we've decided on Nicholas Alexander "Edward smiled at me.
"Swan?" the nurse asked me.
"Pardon?"
"Is Nicholas' last name swan?"
"No it's Cullen... Nicholas Alexander Cullen, Nick for short" I felt Edward behind me and he wrapped his arms around my waist and began to kiss my neck multiply of times.
The nurse Smiled and walked out to leave Edward and I alone. I turned in Edwards arms and sighed .I was finally home.
Someone cleared their throat breaking Edwards and my moment. Edward lent his forehead on mine and breathed out.
"God what do you.... Tanya?" Edward's arms dropped from their place around my waist.
"What are you doing here?" I looked at Tanya, she looked terrible. Bloodshot eyes, red as well. She had clearly been crying. Her hair was a mess. She had a shocked look on her face. Like she had seen a ghost. She was pale and looked like she hadn't slept in a while. I almost felt sorry for her... almost. That is until I remembered why I left Edward and what she had part in that decision. I glared at her and she did the same. Her plan had backfired. She didn't get him. No he was mine and always was.
"I...I...I.... umm, I came to see you. I, ah, I...I...I miss you Edward" Tanya started to cry, her hand rubbing her bump while she sobbed.
"Please leave" Edward kindly asked her.
"No, no she can't have you. Your mine" Tanya started to raise her voice and she took a few steps further into the room.
"Tanya, please stop. You will wake up Nick" Edward started to lead Tanya out the door.
"NO! I didn't do what I did for nothing. Your mine. She left you. You. Belong. To. Me." Tanya screamed in his face.
"Yeah because of you" I quickly covered my mouth. Hiding away from Edwards questioning eyes. I didn't want to tell him like this. I didn't want to 'dob' Tanya into Edward especially when he breaks up with her.
"You shut your fuckin' mouth you hear?" Tanya screamed at me.
" Leave. Now." Edward calmly walked Tanya to the door.
"I'm still carrying your child remember that." Tanya forced herself onto Edward and then quickly left before he could yell at her.
Edward closed the door behind her and breathed in. Finally letting all the baggage that Tanya had on him. He turned to me and quirked his right eye brow. I shifted my attention to at least try and get away from the conversation that we were about to have.
"Bella?" Edward asked
"Yes?"
He walked over to me. Questioning my every move. Making me quiver with need from him. He was a god. I smiled at him but he didn't by it. He kept walking towards me. This is it. I have to tell him if we want to start over again.
"Tell me" he begged me. "Bella, what were you both talking about?"
I bit my lip; I couldn't say this out loud. It's embarrassing.
"I shouldn't have listened to her. We wouldn't be going through this right now" I started to pace. Thinking about the day that, that bitch turned up on my door step.
"Bella!" Edward grabbed me, stopping me.
"Okay" I breathed out "Okay... right... Okay ... well" I was stalling.
"Bella! Just tell me"
"Okay, so you remember the day I left? ... Okay don't answer that you'll just make me feel worse. Okay so earlier that day Tanya came by to see me, I was just finishing putting Renesme to bed and I was tried." I breathed out "So the doorbell rand and I answered it, Tanya was there looking terrible. Her eyes were red and puffy make-up smudged and well I felt sorry for her. She asked if you were there which you weren't so she started rambling about how 'Sorry' she was. I didn't understand at all. She said stuff like 'I shouldn't be here' and 'I should tell Edward first' so I asked her what was the matter and she told me"
"She told me that you and her had sex one day in the office and she fell pregnant. I didn't know what to do. I heard Renesme start to cry and I got angry I told her to leave and started to pack all of our things and that's when you got home"
I looked at Edward and he looked angry.
"Didn't you start to notice when she didn't start to grow or have a baby?" he started to pace.
" well yes so I asked her what happened and she said that she lied and that I took you away from her in college and that she was going to get you back" I looked away.
"So I just walked away" I climbed back into bed and watched Edward pace.
"You just let her win? Just let her get me? Why didn't you fight? Christ if you only just told me." I started to cry.
"I was embarrassed, I didn't let her win. You did, you got together with her not me. I was going to tell you but then I saw you with her and I couldn't, you had moved on" I sobbed at then finding it hard to breath.
"God arg, why did you believe her fuck Bella all I asked was for you to believe me and trust me" I looked at him in shock.
"Well, I'm sorry but if someone came up to you and said hey you know one of your kids yeah it's mine we had sex one night. You'd believe them also lets also put in the fact that I JUST HAD A BABY! I believed everything I heard." I screamed at him, I was furious.
"You know what. Just go back to Tanya. I told you why I left and you just scream at me. Just leave Edward" and he did he left me alone with his new born son just to chase a fucking whore.
All I wanted to do is curl up into his arms.
Alice was happy to drive Nick and I home from the hospital the next day. Geese to take your own child home you had to sign a lot of papers. I looked down into the car seat. He looked just like Edward. Just another one of my children to grow up and Edwards not in the house.
"I screwed up Alice" the car jerked to a stop. I quickly turned around and looked at Nick, who was still asleep.
"Alice!" she pulled off to the side of the road and turned the car off. I looked around. And then back to her.
"What are you talking about Bella? You did not screw up." She rubbed her hands up and down my arms.
I told Alice the whole story well the REAL story of why Edward and I broke up and the whole scene of when I told Edward. Yeah and even Alice started to pace. You can tell those two were siblings and then she screamed. She told me that I was not in the wrong but Edward was. She said that even though he knew what Tanya did he still choose her and not me. We both had a cry fest.
"Well maybe if I didn't believe her and I trusted Edward..."
"No Bella, you can't blame yourself. You had post natal depression. I've heard women leave their husbands because they were paying for a check. It's a crazy that shit." I looked at her and laughed.
"Are you fucking serious? That's hilarious." We both had a good laugh.
"Alice who has the girls?" I knew not to worry their family would take care of them.
"Edward and don't worry he's taking care of them at the family house." I smiled knowing that they weren't with her.
( Live Like Were Dying – Kris Allen )
"Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late
Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would've done"
"Hello?"
"Bella? Where are you?"
"What do you mean Edward?"
"You're not at the hospital, I came to get you"
"I'm with Alice. She came and got me... I have to go Edward"
"wait... when will you be home?"
"I don't know Edward... good bye" and I quickly hang up not waiting for his reply.
"Let's go home Alice." She nodded her head and we started driving again.
I love the drive to my house it's not home but its good enough. It had heaps of trees but mine and Edwards home had trees and cherry blossoms always and amazing drive. Edward doesn't really like it because he's always the one to get most of the petals on his car in the morning. I still loved this drive; we had a stream running at the very back of the house that the kids knew not to go through. It ran for miles and birds loved it.
"Were here!" Alice sung out. I smiled and un buckled my seat belt. Someone opened my car door and started to help me out. I looked up once I was in his arms. Edward.
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
Say goodbye to you
I don't wanna play
I don't wanna play
I don't wanna play
I don't wanna play
Play this game with you (this game with you, this game with you)
Cause I need you
Can't you see that I need you? (I need you)
Oh oh oh, I need you
Can't you see that I need you? (I need you)
Baby it's you I want,
So stop wasting my time
And baby it's you I need,
So please make up your mind
It's time to choose
Everytime you stay (every time you stay)
The world starts making sense to me
And when you go away (when you go away)
I wanna scream till you see...
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait for you (yeah)
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait
I don't wanna wait for you (wait for you, wait for you)
Baby it's you I want,
So stop wasting my time (stop wasting my time)
Oh baby it's you I need,
So please make up your mind (please make up your mind)
It's time to choose
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
Say goodbye to you...