~Nick's POV~

December 25

4:00AM

"Wait Stella!" I yelled before Stella fell asleep.

"What is it Nick?" she asked me.

"Why do you love Joe so much?" I asked looking right in her eyes. I could tell she felt uncomfortable, "I know it isn't my business but I'm just wondering. I mean, nothing against you, but your not really Joe's type."

"I don't really think Joe has a type. I think he cares about a girl that cares for him and that's all. Well, I love his smile. He never talks down to me, and he's always on my side when everyone else is against me. He has never let me down. I can always count on him to be there for me when I need him most. Sure he isn't the most expressive guy, but he's sweet, and I like sweet guys. He always makes sure I'm backed up, no one really usually cares about my opinion, and even if Joe doesn't like it, he'll be honest but respectable about it."

"Don't you ever think he's a little too honest though? Like that time you bought that dress and he said he wanted you to throw it out because it made you look too standoutish?"

"Well of course but I just got used to it. That's the way I grew up with Joe, and I don't want him to change because of me."

"Joe shouldn't control your life. You don't have to listen to everything he says. If it helps I thought you looked beautiful in that dress."

"Thanks Nick."

"I bet Joe never said that to you."

"What? He… no he never has."

"That's because Joe can only call a girl hot. He's too scared to call a girl beautiful. It's really sad."

"Well at least he cares about me."

"You're right. He does care about you a lot. Has he ever told you he loved you?"

"Umm… No. I've told him though before."

"Well why hasn't Joe told you? He obviously cares about you!"

"I know Joe loves me Nick! I don't need him to say it!"

Now I could feel myself getting angry. I was boiling. "Well I'm just saying if I was to date you I would make sure I said it to you everyday! Cuz if Joe doesn't say it to you he obviously doesn't love you!!!! So why don't you stop living in dream world and start living in reality! A girl like you isn't the right type for Joe!!!!!"

"You know what Nick! A guy like you isn't the right type for Joe's brother so why don't you do me a favor and shut the f*** up!!!!"

I couldn't believe that she had said that to me. She gave me a glare and she lay back down on the floor to sleep. I had said that totally wrong. I didn't mean she was bad for Joe and he deserved better. I meant he was bad for her and she deserved better.

I was going to fall asleep any minute. I felt so tired right now.

I then got the stupidest thing pop in my head, to tell Stella what I meant. Okay I don't even know how that popped in there. I could and would and should never tell Stella what I meant! If I did she might think I like her, and as I said before, I hate her. I hate her so much, I don't! I don't understand it!!!! How could I hate her and not hate her?

I gently closed my eyes and relaxed.

Maybe I don't hate her… maybe I need some sleep.

Maybe I just might even…