Bpov.
I can't help it, I don't do it on purpose, but I turn to look at him and suddenly he seems kind of angry.
"Bella. May I speak to you outside please?" I glance at Kaitlynn and she nods.
"Um, sure..."
We walk outside and he starts to go faster and farther away. As a vampire I am faster than him. So I catch up easily. We follow a farmiliar trail, then I realize where we're going, The Meadow I speed up until I blow right by him, I get there first and stand looking at the sky for a second or two. As Edward runs through the bushes at the end he comes up to me and puts his hand on my face, I stand very still, waiting for him to take it off. He doesn't.
He keeps his hand there for a minute or two then I open my eyes and he comes closer, closer... And he kisses me. I didn't know how much I missed his kiss until now. Especially since we're both vampires he's not so careful as I learned. He gently brushes my lower lip with his tongue. We kiss for a few minutes then I pull away and run across the field. Maybe if I can't look into his eyes this won't be so hard. He starts to come closer but I don't know if I can handle it. What if he leaves me again? I wouldn't be able to handle it. I would die. Figuratively of course. I couldn't die even if I tried. He keeps coming closer until I have to say it.
"Edward, please stay away from me. I came to talk, what do you want to say?"
"Bella..." Ohhh, it was so nice to hear him say my name.
"Edward, what do you want?"
"Bella, I love you." no, no, don't believe him, he's lying, he lied the whole time you were together remember? He said he loved you then he left you. He doesn't love you!
"No you don't."
"I do, really. Why is that so hard for you to believe?"
"Edward, you don't leave the person you love. If you loved me you wouldn't have left. Therefore, you don't love me."
"Bella, I left you because I love you."
"Edward, that makes no sense, if you truly loved me you wouldn't have been able to leave me, you would have had to stay, yet again proving, you don't love me."
"Bella, I had to leave you, I had no choice, you were being put in more danger the more time you spent with us. I had to make them leave, they didn't want to. But it was safer that way, really."
"Edward, just stop. I know you don't love me. It just doesn't make sense, your so perfect and wonderful and rich, and when I was human I was plain, boring, and average. Now that I'm a vapampire that's all different. Now I'm just the opposite of everything I was. So you love the new me, the vampire me. Not the Bella me. Edward. You don't love me. I know you don't so please justleave me a lone. If your still going to be this annoyingly persistant then I'll be your Friend nothing more. Just stop bugging me. Good bye Edward. See you tomorrow."
And with that I turned and ran home.
EPov.
Bella was so lovely. I just couldn't stop staring, plus I knew that when she turned that she would become "dazzled" by my eyes and come for a walk with me. I hopre the "dazzling" thing still works. She told me about it when she was human. Evnetually she turned and it worked, I asked her to come outside and talk to me. She glanced at Kaitlynn who nodded and said "Um... sure." Looking so uncertain and adorable it was hard not to faint. She went outside and I followed then started running in the direction going as fast as possible, Bella went beside me with ease, as soon as she realized where I was going she took off going to fast for me to possibly be able to run alongside her. She was there for a few seconds before me, god she was fast. She had her face up to the sky with her eyes closed. I walked over and put my hand on her cheek, we stood that way for a couple minutes until she opebed her eyes, at that point I couldn't resist. I kissed her full on the lips. After a miunte or two I ran my tongue across her bottom lip and she tasted so good, but after that she broke off and ran to the edge of the forest. I didn't understand so I followed but after I got halfway towards her she said
"Edward, please stay away from me. I came to talk, what do you want to say?" That broke my heart further, she doesn't want me near her.
"Bella..." I said her name with such pain it's a surprise I didn't start crying, though i couldn't anyway. our conversation from there on went as follows:
"Edward, what do you want?"
"Bella, I love you."
"No you don't."
"I do, really. Why is that so hard for you to believe?"
"Edward, you don't leave the person you love. If you loved me you wouldn't have left. Therefore, you don't love me."
"Bella, I left you because I love you."
"Edward, that makes no sense, if you truly loved me you wouldn't have been able to leave me, you would have had to stay, yet again proving, you don't love me."
"Bella, I had to leave you, I had no choice, you were being put in more danger the more time you spent with us. I had to make them leave, they didn't want to. But it was safer that way, really."
"Edward, just stop. I know you don't love me. It just doesn't make sense, your so perfect and wonderful and rich, and when I was human I was plain, boring, and average. Now that I'm a vapampire that's all different. Now I'm just the opposite of everything I was. So you love the new me, the vampire me. Not the Bella me. Edward. You don't love me. I know you don't so please justleave me a lone. If your still going to be this annoyingly persistant then I'll be your Friend nothing more. Just stop bugging me. Good bye Edward. See you tomorrow."
Friends! I can't just be friends. I don't know if I can do that. I love her more than wnything and now she doesn't trust me. Now I know, break a girl's heart lose her trust. She won't take me back, not yet anyway. She wants to be friends, but only if I stop being so persistent. But I can't do that. I need her. She thinks that if I really did love her I wouldn't have left. But what she doesn't understand is that I left for her. I figured that if I left she could live a normal human life and be safe. But it didn't work, she didn't even lead a human life. She got changed soon after I left. Why? Why did I have to do this to myself. I should have just stayed, changed her myself. Made us both happy. But no, me, being me, had to go and leave her.
Bad Edward.
Later
As I arrived home the Vreelands were just leaving. Kaitlynn saw what I was thinking and got a really apologetic look on her face.
"I'm sorry Edward. I'll try and talk to her. She's just really upset and hurt by what you did to her."
"Okay Kaitlynn, thanks." I didn't know what else to say, I caught alice's eye and che freaked out on me. After the Vreelands left.
"Edward! What did you do! How did you screw this up! All you had to do was explain!"
"Alice, it's not that easy. She doesn't love me anymore. I tried to tell her I loved her but she didn't believe me, then she told me to leave her alone and that if I was going to keep being this persistant then she would be my friend, nothing more. What could I have done there Alice? Please tell me."
"I'm sorry Edward. I didn't know. I thought you screwed something up."
"No Alice, I did screw someting up. I left her."
All night long I looked out the window and thought about what I could do to make Bella believe me. I had come up with nothing, I hadn't even realized any changes when I hear Alice scream in her head "Edward! Leaving for school in ten minutes! Make sure you look good! Kaitlynn just called and said Bella looks amazing to prepare yourself!"
And with that I knew what I would wear. I was going to wear my best jeans. and a skin tight white Hanes t-shirt that showed off my muscles nd prepared myself for the worst, I was going to have to control myself when I saw Bella, I'm pretty sure friends don't run up to other friends and kiss them all over...
Bpov.
After I got home Kaitlynn came to talk to me. She said that when Edward got back he was almost in tears, and that was saying a lot considering we couldn't cry. She told me that he really did love me and that he was trying to get me to believe him, she told me to give him a chance and then went off to her room saying shed be back in the morning to get dressed. I was stuck. I wanted to forgive him, last nights kiss made me realize that. I love him. I really do. I guess I spent the whole night pondering this because in what I thought was 15 minutes Kaitlynn bursts in the room. Good Morning! Let's get dressed.
A/N Hmm. Hope you liked it!