Disclaimer I hate you so much for making me keep saying this: I do not own Criminal Minds.

A/N: Thanks to Emzypemzy for assuring me this chapter works!

Big ole dose of angst here! Lemme know what you think =)

Derek was right by his SUV when Penelope caught sight of him, his body language was a mix of hurt and despondent and his fists were clenched, she took her heels off and ran towards him. 'Derek!' She yelled as she got closer to him, all the stress was wrecking havoc on her entirely now, she was immediately out of breath and her eyes wouldn't clear of their tears. 'Derek please!'

'Fuck off Garcia.' He said aggressively and unlocked his door.

She flinched but recovered. 'No, please Derek that wasn't what it looked like.'

'Wasn't what it looked like? You've got to be kidding me right?' He said and she knew to brace herself for what was next. 'You were kissing him in the middle of that place right in plain view.'

'But I wasn't! He was kissing me, I wasn't helping the kiss.'

'But you weren't stopping it either.' He said and he laughed as the tears caught in his throat. 'I thought you were different Penelope, I thought that when you said you loved someone then you really did mean it, that it didn't mean you were going to see your ex behind my back.' He didn't look at Penelope as he spoke, he hurt too much. 'I should've seen it, all the texts, the phone calls, not letting me talk to him. I'm not playing the mug anymore Penelope. If anyone you're the mug.'

'Derek... you don't mean that.'

'You know what, no, I do, because I picked you up after he broke you and I'm not going to be there when he does it again, I'm not. I can't.' He told her and the aggression still exuded him too much. 'You can pick yourself up after this one because I'm not.'

'Derek, really think about this. Why would I do that to you? Why would I tell you that when I'm with you I'm at my happiest, that when you tell me you love me I feel alive. Why would I go back to the man that broke my heart?'

'Because he's obviously giving you something I'm not.'

'Don't be ridiculous!' Penelope told him and she was startled at her own tone of voice. 'You think I'd just do that? That I'm that shallow.'

'Well from the look of it you did. I mean Battle's another event, you were using him to prove something me, so what are you using Lynch to prove? I've given you everything I have Penelope! I've given you my love, my trust, my family and you've just thrown it back at me and Christ I wanted you to move in with me. Well count that out of the picture and our friendship. Count that as gone.'

'You can't be serious.' She said as her heart broke into a million pieces. 'I know you're lashing out right now Derek but please, don't do this. Please you need to believe me, let me tell you everything. Let us just talk it out.'

'No!' Derek shouted at her. 'I hope he loves you because from this point I don't care anymore.'

'You do, you're lying.' Derek approached her and pulled her out the way of his car. 'Derek, get off me, you're hurting me.' She said as she tried to get free. 'Derek!' She said as his grasp didn't cease, and then he pushed her slightly. 'Don't do this. You know this is wrong.'

'Don't tell me what's right and wrong.'

'Don't you see it! He wanted this! He wanted you to hate me!' She told him and she felt her heart skip a few beats in its rhythm, she put her hand to her chest as the palpitations began and she knew the stress of everything wasn't going to do her any good. She'd known from the beginning that too much stress was only going to have a greater consequence and she knew it was coming.

'Well he ruined us Penelope! Well and truly fucked up what bit of happiness I had! And you helped him. Now leave me the fuck alone, at work we're nothing but colleagues, you don't call me a nickname again, you don't flirt, you don't joke with me, you don't even talk to me like I'm anything but an agent on the team. Got it.'

'Derek...'

'Do you understand Garcia?' He asked again and Penelope could swear his eyes were on fire, and that he was breaking.

Penelope just let the tears freely flow, this was it, their break up, their hurt, their pain, their end all laid out in a car park. 'I get it Morgan.' She whispered and then Derek left her standing there and got into his SUV.

The thing was Derek regretted every word he had said there, he was saying it out of spite, out of hurt, out of pain but the thing was there was a niggling bit in him that knew it was all Kevin's fault and that Penelope was just as much a victim in this but the thing he couldn't get his head around was how laid back Penelope had been and how she hadn't attempted to push him of the moment he did it.

And his heart did break as he saw Penelope sob from the sidelines, her hand on the car next to her, steadying her, as he just drove away from her, leaving her there, alone, in the cold, and he did nothing to go back and make things right. He was far too broken for that.

As Derek's SUV disappeared, Penelope walked slowly towards the bar, she needed a cab and as she got closer she saw Kevin standing there with a smug grin on his face. 'Need a lift home?'

'Not from you I don't.' She told him and again her heart skipped a beat, her heart clenched fiercely in her chest. 'You've just ruined my life, I hate you Kevin.'

'You'll always love me.'

'Not after this, not after everything.'

'I want you back.'

'Well you gonna have trouble.' She told him and walked away, she knew what she had to do now, she was not losing Derek Morgan because of Kevin, she had too much trust in Derek for that to be just gone, she had all her faith in Derek and she knew that this was not irrecoverable from, they could bounce back, he just needed to believe her first.