Chapter 8:

Alex sat there silently. She missed Olivia and she had only been gone ten minutes. Well, maybe it was the perfect time for Alex to do some thinking about the future, but while she was thinking only one thought came to her mind. Alex thought to herself, I am not good enough for Olivia and I don't deserve her one bit. How could someone so great like Liv be with me or even want anything to do with me. I came from a perfect family, a mom and dad who were married, one sister, beautiful house, a driver, and money. I didn't have to work for a single thing; Daddy's money always got me what I wanted. It had gotten me into private school, university, and eventually law school. At first I was only using the SVU Squad to boost my name so I could eventually go into politics, but then I met Olivia and everything changed. I fell in love with someone I wouldn't even have given a chance to in previous years. Olivia came from her mother who was almost always drunk and a father who just happened to be a rapist who she would never get to meet. She was a working class girl who became the voice of the victims in every case. Olivia connected with them on some level and would not give up until justice was served for them. Alex didn't deserve Olivia and she knew that.

Olivia arrived on scene twenty minutes later. The boys' jaws all dropped as they seen their only female Detective walk up to them wearing the most beautiful dress.

"It is one thirty in the morning, you can't say those are your pajamas. Spill." Fin said.

"No, these are not pajamas. I was umm with someone."

"Who, wait we will ask Elliot for a straight answer," Munch cut in.

"No way, I am staying out of this one," Elliot mentioned.

"No fun, so who is he?" Munch asked.

"I have been seeing a lawyer," she said as she remembered Alex's comment from earlier.

"I hope it isn't Trevor, I can't stand him. Oh my Liv has a RING!" Munch announced.

"Yeah, ummm," Liv started to comment.

"This rock is huge!" Fin interrupted.

"MY lawyer asked me to spend the rest of my life with well you guys get it. I will tell you who when we get ready to tell everyone else."

"Fine, let's get back to work." Munch said.

Olivia was so thankful that she hadn't let the fact that she was going to be marrying Alex slip out with all of their questions. She was just glad she could get back to work and the boys would be too distracted to ask any more questions.

Alex was back in the apartment remembering Olivia saying that she didn't have any clean clothes, so Alex decided to do laundry so her detective would have something clean to put on when she got home. Alex went over to Olivia's suitcase and started to unpack it. She picked out all of her clothing and started a load of laundry. She went back over to her lover's suitcase to empty it and make Olivia feel more at home when she got back. As she was unpacking Olivia's suitcase, she found a folded up note. Alex contemplated reading it and invading her lover's privacy, but after all she was a lawyer and lawyers wanted to know everything.

She ignored the voice in her head saying she was going against what she believed the word trust meant, but she could stop herself from unfolding the piece of paper. It was a note.

"Hey gorgeous. I know I probably shouldn't write this down since you might use it against me later, but I couldn't help myself. You are so amazing. I loved the weekend that we spent together in the lakeside cabin upstate. You don't know how much I enjoyed you being with me there. I hope we can do it again soon. XOXO Trevor."

Oh hell no! Alex thought to herself. How could her Liv do this to her. Alex couldn't keep it in any longer, she started to cry hysterically. "I just effing proposed to this woman and this is how she repays me? She is cheating on me. I can't believe it."

Alex collected herself enough to pick up her phone and call Olivia. She called from a blocked number so Olivia wouldn't think it was her.

"Benson."

"This is Alexandra, where are you?"

"I am at a crime scene, you know that."

"Where is it, I want to be there."

"84th street, by the old pizza joint."

"Ok thanks, when will you be back to the squad room?"

"About a half hour."

"Ok bye."

Alex hung up quick and tried to prepare herself for how she would confront Olivia. She never was unprepared for what she would say while questioning someone on the stand, what made this so much harder? Was it because she loved Olivia or just because she had a personal connection here? She wasn't sure, but she put some jeans and a nice polo on with some casual heels and headed out the door.