Chapter 6- Breakdown

I stood next to Hunny as he fried beacon (that I probably won't eat) in a pan. He was smiling, trying to make me happy, but I wasn't.

After I ate a piece of bacon, I got a phone call from Minka, she said the funeral for Brenden was tomorrow and than they would be moving in. I didn't like that, I didn't want them in my home. Thought she would pay the bills. And Clea.

Ugh, Clea.

She was so very excited to see me, but I could care less about her.

I didn't want Hunny to leave too. Him being here with me made me feel less alone. He was my antidepressant.

That night I didn't sleep. I sat with my arms around my legs on my bed as I flipped threw the television stations. Hunny was in the living room sleeping on the couch. Though I think I did fall asleep at one point. I blinked and when I opened my eyes and I was lying down, staring at my alarm clock.

"Oh shit." I muttered, heaving myself up.

The clock read, 10:15. The funeral was at eleven.

I quickly took a shower and dawned an elegant black ruffled dress with a little black jacket over it. My hair was still damp when I slipped on my black ballet flats. When ran upstairs I noticed Hunny was ready too. He had black dress pants and a black dress shirt and white tie.

I skipped breakfast. Hunny drove us to the cemetery. I didn't get out when Mitsukuni did. He came around and opened my door. When I still didn't get out he unbuckled my seatbelt and lifted me from the car. I didn't protest. He carried my to where my brothers friends and Minka and Clea were.

Minka was crying along with a few other girls. Bert was there too. Clea was smiling at the sight of me. Hunny set me on my feet and wound his arm around my waist.

Minka leaned over to give me a hug but I backed away. Clea clung to my leg.

"Royal! Royal! Royal! Im so happy to see you, I wish Brenden did die I would have like to have seen him." She sang happily.

A single tear fell from my eye. I leaned into Hunny. His grip around me tightened.

Soon the priest began talking, but I didn't listen. I spaced out for about an hour. When I came back everyone except, Minka, Clea, Bert and Hunny had left. It began to rain.

"I'll see you when you get home, were going to unpack. Try not to be too long have a surprise for you." Minka told me.

I nodded.

Bert held an umbrella over me and Hunny as the girls ran off.

"No, Bert, you should go home. Please." I said wanting him to leave.

"As you wish, Miss. Gage." He bowed his head and left.

I broke away from Hunny and walked to the front of the grave where my brother was inside a coffin lowered inside.

"You. Left. Me." I whispered.

Hunny remained where he was.

"Why'd you leave?" My voice rose slightly.

"You were all I had left!" I yelled, falling to my knees than sitting on the ground completely. It started to down pour.

Hunny stepped forward. I held up my hand.

"No." I grumbled.

I shoved my face in to my hands and started sobbing.

"You…because…of you…Now I'm alone!"

I sat there and sobbed to many tears to count. I just sat there and thought about my brother. When we were kids, our birthday parties, sneaking out of the house when our parents were alive, fighting, him teaching me how to dance when I was ten, Me teaching him how to text, him teaching me to drive and when our parents died we were there for each other. Now who's here for me?

Hunny picked me up from the ground and I didn't struggle. He walked too the car and set me inside than got in himself.

He didn't talk to me the ride home. He only occasionally glanced at me, to see if I was crying. The tears stopped as soon as we were away from the cemetery. I sunk down in my seat, to the point where I could barley see out the windshield.

"Sorry." I murmured.

He looked down at me.

"The way I acted was…unnecessary." I added.

"Don't apologize. If my brother died I'd be pretty pissed too and he hated me up until two years ago." He said turning his attention back to the road.

I raised one eye-brow.

"Why'd he hate you?"

"Has Violet or Aimee told you the story of the Host Club?" He asked.

I nodded.

"And how I acted younger than my actual age."

I nodded again. Violet told me everything about the Host Club and all the members when she was staying with me while Hunny went grocery shopping.

"Well he didn't like that. He thought I was an alien because I ate massive amounts of cake and consulted with a doll."

"That's stupid. Cakes good, and I still have a doll my mom gave me when I was born, it's pretty beat up, but I still have it." I muttered.

This was the most I've talked in a while. It almost felt… good.

I heard him whistle in amazement when we pulled in to my driveway. I heaved myself up to see.

I gasped. As soon as Mitsukuni stopped I jumped out of the car and ran to my shiny yellow Camaro. I smiled. I actually smiled. While Hunny was like a Band-aide to Brenden dieing my Camaro was like a tiny pain killer. It didn't relieve all the pain, only a minor part.

"I thought you'd be happy to see her." Minka said walking out of the front door.

"Yes, I am."

She nodded to a bright red Mustang.

"I finally got enough money for a car." She smiled. "I got a job threw the internet, don't even have to leave the house to work now. It pays good too."

I always hated red vehicles, but I wouldn't tell her that.

"So what rooms did you take?" I asked.

I noticed the rain had let up.

I would personally kill her if she took Brendens.

We took the two rooms all the way at the end of the hallway in the guest wing. There was a hallway on one side of the house where Brenden and my rooms were and on the other side there was another hallway, with four extra bed rooms. The master bed room, that was once my mom and dad's was on the second floor.

On the second floor there was only one other room. It was my comfort room. I did things like yoga and drank alcohol and things I found relaxing, the room was enormous.

I nodded. She was damn lucky that she choose the rooms she did.

"And we will be moving out as soon as you turn eighteen. I can guess your not pleasantly surprised to see us." She said, winking.

"Not under the circumstances, at least." I lied, I really hated seeing her in my home.

I opened the drivers side door to my Camaro and checked to see if the keys were in.

They were.

"You." I said looking at Mitsukuni.

"Yes Royal?"

"Get in." I ordered.

He obeyed and got in the passenger side.

Clea bounded out the front door and screamed, "Take me!"

I always had one response when I didn't want her to do something.

"No, you'll die."

I got in the Camaro.

"Oh shit!" I jumped out.

I was in my soaking wet clothes. Hunny wasn't. While I was having a breakdown in the graveyard he was standing under an umbrella.

"I'll be right back." I said going inside to change.

I decided on a black tee-shirt and skinny jeans. I put on a white cover up similar to the black one I was whereing earlier and ran outside.

"Oh, Royal please take me!" Clea squealed.

"No."

I hopped in the car and started the car. She roared to life. I smiled. After revving the engine I put it in drive. I drove threw my backyard and to the little dirt road my family owned. It lead to a enormous field.

"Where are we going?" Mitsukuni asked.

"You'll see."

I floored it and glanced at the trees around us. We were in the forest, I wonder how this random road got here. When we bought the house the road was just there and we bought the property it was owned on.

"Dear!" Hunny yelled.

"Huh?" I looked over at him.

"Dear!"

I looked up.

"OH!"

I slammed on the breaks.

The deer didn't move. I beeped the horn and it bounded away.

"Okay than."

I floored it again.

I missed driving my Camaro.

Once we got to the field I stopped the car and got out. Hunny followed my actions. I sat on the hood of my car and threw me shoes on the ground. Hunny leaned on the hood instead of sitting on it.

I looked forward. The view was absolutely amazing.

"You'll never be alone." Hunny whispered.

"Huh?"

"I won't let you be."

He turned in to my and leaned close to me. Our faces were about an inch away. I stopped breathing. I closed the distance between our lips.